The Recruit

8:13am

The Recruit

I have just finished  a long, complex and dangerous mission. I am returning to an encampment by climbing a narrow ladder and going over a small gap in a very tall wall. I have been successful and have started to make a name for myself as a young recruit.

I am walking rapidly accros a series of lawns in a semi urban neighborhood. I am trying to get back to the main group of my peers. The changing and complex landscape looks familiar, but I am uncertain I can find my way back.

I am with a large group (20+) of recruits and senior officers. We are checking out guns before an assalt. There is something we are hunting that is very powerful and very dangerous. There are many of them.

As we are entering a house from all sides, I realize that my gun preparation has been very poor. The most able have one very large specilized gun and a smaller hand gun for back up. I have an odd revolver only. I am feeling unprepared.

I am out in a dark urban/suburban field. I am with a senior female agent. Misshapen zombies/monsters start rising out of the ground. They have a whispy wrigling shape until they become solid. We need to get back to the group. I am following the oldere agent back down a long deserted block that is overgrown just over the curb. I do not see her and wonder if I can find the way back and defeat any monsters that are springing up. I am afraid and wake in a state of fear.

What is the dream telling me? I am fearful for my lack of preparation for this phase of my life.

What am I going to do about it? Go forward in spite of my fear.