Choosing a Music/Club Venue, Fired in Discrase, Forced to retell the Story

5:55am

Choosing a Music/Club Venue

I am with a friend or acquaintance. We have been somewhere and discussed in detail what clubs we may seek out. The idea is to pick one to hang out. We are walking through the city. We hear music blasting from a club. I think it is very loud, the door must be open.  As we approach the singer, a woman, sounds like she is screaming. We dismiss it as a choice but go up to check it out. It is very loud and fairly obnoxious. I say to my friend, Do you want to stay here? I am con fused because we have just discussed how low and screechy it is. There is a large crowd outside. The performer is outside. We can walk be hind the performer on the sidewalk, but we are disturbing the the scene and get some snide looks.

Notes: Set the alarm for 4 hours. Doing WBTB with Vervain tea. We'll see.

What is the dream telling me? Sometimes I make bad decisions?

What am I going to do about it?  Not sure. Finds a better way to make decisions. Get in touch with my inner wisdom more.

10:18

Fired in Disgrace [S: Vervain, 2 tbsp tea, in 6oz water]

I am sitting at a desk with an  older coworker next to me, to my right.The head of development comes in, He is a mature Asian man. He tells my coworker to do something ill advised (stupid). My coworker is a senior researcher with lots of experience. He briefly tells the big boss about his objection in muted tones as he hurries off to execute the task that he personally thinks will be a disaster.

The boss then turns to me and asks me to do something equally as ill advised. I argue outright with him. He imposes his will and walks through a door into an adjacent room. He is talking to another worker. I give him the finger and mouth the works, fuck you, thinking he has his back turned: he does not.

He emerges from the darkness, incredibly angry. He is fuming, yelling at me, pointing at me. His face is contorted, he is not even speaking English, he spits as he shouts.  He is happy in his extreme anger at catching me in such flagrant misconduct.  I am fired.

Over the Top Pissed Off

 Forced to retell the Story

I am back possibly in the same environment. There is a railing that separates a portion of the room that is raised from the floor a couple of feet below where I am. I am facing four coworkers from the GE plant. I am telling them the story in great detail of my being fired. As I get to crucial emotional parts the first person, says, I was there, ruining the story. I continue, I may be being forced to do this. I reach another peak and another person says, I was there as well. As they say this, they leave but are replaced one at a time from a long line of workers that stretch around the corner and down a long hall. I wake up.

Notes: While not lucid, the dreams I have on vervain are very vivid and memorable. Both dreams were stylized, very colorful and packed with emotion.Vervain is definately a keeper.

What is the dream telling me? Not al al sure.


What am I going to do about it? No idea, bring it to the dream group.

I Can't FInd It, I Can't Wear This

6:54am

I Can't Find It

I am home looking at a catalog of classes for a community college. I pick one I am interested in. It lasts two hours and starts at 9:00pm. I think there is something odd about the time, but accept it as OK.  I fill out the paperwork, put it in an envelope and then take off for the class becasue it is going to begin soon.

I am not sure where it is. I start driving without having a clear destination. I get to some place that may be a school, but it is not the one I want. I go in to ask directions to where I am going. There are people in line for something, but I never get the directions.

I am sitting next to a young student, I may be much older. He is having some difficulty with a class he is taking. I see his text book very clearly between where he and I are sitting.

I am driving and I realize I really have no clue where I am going. I am not even sure which county I need to be in. In fact, in may be in Maryland instead of Virginia.

I am in something like a 7-11, I am again trying to get directions. As I am leaving I am trying to make my way around an Hispanic guy who is moving very slowly and having difficulty walking. He is dragging or having trouble with one foot. Somehow I am back in the store for a second time and need to get around him again. I have been in a rush the whole time because the class is about to start. I talk with him briefly and he tells me someone came to his door and shot him in the foot.

I am outside the store in the parking lot. I finally take stock and realize I could just put the address in my GPS. I pick up the catalog and look for the address. I can't find it. I am looking in great detail. I go down a series of numbered items where it is supposed to be, bu the information and the number, possibly 3, are missing. I think about arriving late to class and telling the professor why I am late. He will look for me on the rolls but he won't see me because I just registered. Or did I? I can't remember if I mailed the envelope. I especially don't remember putting a stamp on it. I am getting discouraged and may give up.

[Another snippet that may be a separate but related dream] I am looking through a book. It may be a novel. For some reason I get obsessed with where it ends. The first half of the book is normal text, but when I look for the end of the story it is in the middle of the book where to normal text of the novel turn to pages and pages of detailed listings of commercial information. I look several times but can't find where the novel ends and the information, that is likely advertising, begins.

11:52am

I Can't Wear This

I am in an apartment and trying to figure out what to wear to a sales call with my coworkers. Because of my difficulty finding something I am considering having to take my own car on a long drive and meet them at the destination.

I am looking at my options. There is a long rack of clothes in the living or dining room. They are all too small, especially the white shirts. I go to the closet in the bedroom. There is a bizarre shirt, tie, jacket combination. It is knitted, dark with a distinct pattern. I am thinking no way I am going to wear this. It may have been given to me by my mother.

There are 2-3 coworkers. They are discussing a convoluted plan to catch or surprise someone. They want to use my suite because they think it will remind this person of themselves. This person is possible dangerous, I ask what they intend to do after they "catch" him. I imagine that they want to make a dummy and dress it in my weird suit. But, no they want me to wear it! I try it on, it is crazy. It is very bulky, yet restricting around the legs. It is two or three heavy layers of knitted material and it is summer. I flatly refuse and say it is impossible to even consider wearing it.

Notes: At first I couldn't remember anything (The first dream) and then am flooded with detail. The second dream was after I was up and went back to bed. Mostly I felt like I could not go back to sleep, but then was woken up 3 1/2 hours later by my wife, because I needed to get up and get busy around the house.

What is the dream telling me? (1st) I am back in a rut. (2nd) The Reiki Master said I may be holding on to restrictions or energy left from my mother.

What am I going to do about it?  See/get healed by the Reiki Master I met a the Oasis.

Being or Watching

9:30am

I am part of an elaborate series of events. Everyone is in colorful costumes. It is like a cheesy costume sifi. There are multiple rooms and groups. There are a couple of characters that are in the scenes but wearing regular street clothes. I see very fine detail and comment to myself that the production is a bit high-schoolish.  I am not sure if I am in a production or in a dream of a production, or a production in a dream.

Notes: I can only remember a small snippet of the total dream. I am happy that I am having a very odd colorful and creative dream with no supplements.

Cleaning the House, The Nature Store

11:17am

Cleaning the House [S: LucidEsc, x2] WBTB

I am working on cleaning a house, starting in the kitchen. There are several others in the house, they are not helping me directly but are engaged in other tasks. As I am working my way around the kitchen I get in increasing trouble due to the bizarre nature of the objects I am trying to clean. The shape of things keeps shifting, but the real problem comes as I am working on a cabinet. Water starts to leak out and eventually becomes many gallons flowing onto the floor. While I am struggling to avert what seems to me a total disaster no one else seem particularly alarmed.

I am later working on a counter top and handling very small detailed hand made sculptures. The are animated and seem alive. I am very interested in how they are created. Someone in the house created them, I may have talked with them.

[I keep going in and out of sleep, and have a series of related dreams]

The Nature Store

I am in a store that carries the small characters that I encountered while cleaning the house. There are many other fascinating items that seem to have unusual animated characteristics. The feeling of being in the shop and when I wake up is very warm and fulfilling.

Notes:  Very bad day yesterday. Feeling sorry for myself and trapped. Feels good to get a new perspective.

What is the dream trying to tell me? Not sure, but possibly balancing disaster with alternate perspectives.

What am I going to do about it? Get a life.

The Academy, The Blue Calendar Item

8:06 AM

The Academy

Series of events taking place  at a hotel. Group of us are all learning about something about the job. Kept being confused.

I walk out of the room and see  someone I know coming in the restaurant. I say oh yeah thank you for reminding me the restroom is here, I always walk to the other one further away.

I'm in a hotel room. I'm with my boss. Maybe a woman. It's something very complicated we're doing. There's some detailed information in a binder. We were supposed to do something. I remember the details are in the binder. But somehow time and time again I miss place in the binder can't find it and I remember I need  it again and again.

I go to my hotel room to get dressed and take a shower. There's someone else in my hotel room that I don't know who it is. The beds have been arranged differently from my room. It is another reason that I don't recognize the room. He explains that the rooms are being shared during this period for people getting ready for the meetings.

The Blue Calendar Item

[I keep waking up time and again being confused about what was a dream and what was real] It's an abstract dream where an item was being put on a calendar about an event that likely didn't happen or wasn't going to happen. But in the state that I was in I couldn't tell if it was a real event or it was an event that I had dreampt. And it was obvious but there was nothing I could do at that point to discern one way or the other whether it was real because it was just some distraction. I must've woken up three different times with this idea in my head. It was a little frightening not to be able to discern dream from reality.

 [There's a second slightly repeating dream that also had to do with the difference between reality and dream} It had to do with atoms being created from abstract thought. The dream made perfect sense. When I woke up it made no sense at all.

Dream or "Reality?"

Notes: Now that I'm thinking about it perhaps it was a explanation of how things are created from our mind. How things are created in our mind from stimulus in the environment. But mostly there's an obstruction in our mind. Looks like I was feeling the actual process and realizing that it was artificial not real.

Pictures at a School Fair, The Long Climb, Extended Negotiations

Pictures at a School Fair
I'm in a living room with a group of guys. I was already there and they have just returned from some sort of activity. Steve is among them and asks me to find a specific set of pictures. I have a long tray of a series of Polaroids and I tell him I will look through them and I'm confident I can find the set of pictures he's looking for.

I am on the floor sorting through the pictures one at a time. An oversized picture in black-and-white like a 6 x 10, pops out and I put it aside to my right. It is a picture of my mother I say this out loud. It doesn't look like my mother in real life, it looks like a suitably older woman. It's a dark photo with dark face with a scarf over her hair. She has dark eyes and dark hair. There's something familiar about her general appearance or facial structure. I find another outsized picture and I'm still discussing it as if it's a picture of my mother. But it's a distorted picture of a man. I fold it over to manipulate the image. I do this a couple of times.

Then I find the pictures I'm looking for. They're not a set of Polaroids. They are in a tiny little cubicle that has photos inside them and a ball chain handle. It is obviously very old. I start looking at the pictures almost like I'm watching a movie. There's a series of pictures when you watch them one next to the other you get a sense of motion of the people that the pictures are taken of. It has pictures of two young women. I think I remember they were taken at a school fair. These are friends of Steve. The first is a beautiful poised young blond woman dressed in white/light clothes, Like carefree pictures of a young Audrey Hepburn perfectly poised. The other girl, possibly younger is much less poised. She is approximately the same age but has short cropped blond hair. She has lots of energy and enthusiasm . She is moving around rapidly and is laughing, having fun but has an unmet expectation. . It is obvious to me that she is in love with Steve, but it is unrequited. It makes me very sad to see the photograph. At some point I think later in the dream I show it to someone else and I cry. Perhaps during the extended negotiation.

The Long Climb

I have been on a series of difficult tasks. They involve being outdoors, climbing over things, negotiating difficult and dangerous obstacles. I'm am well out in front of the others. I have one person with me and we're climbing up the side of a building. It may be an apartment building. As we look up I can see balconies that are hanging off the back of the building. There is a thin ladder that we could possibly climb up going from one floor to the next. I look up and see that the ladder ends. I can see that it starts up again on the opposite side of the balcony. The ladder starts on the right, ends and rsumes on the left. I ask him if he still wants to complete the task knowing that looks very dangerous but conceivably possible. I think we go ahead.

Extended Negotiations

I want to buy something and I come up to like an outdoor counter. It is not a conventional store. It's more like a farmer's market. I tell the person who is working behind the counter that I want to buy something. He is a maybe in his 30s kind of roughly dressed. Seems to be a happy kind a guy. I tell him I want to buy 5 pounds and while I don't use the words we are talking about marijuana. He says he thinks he can do it but he's not sure and then starts an extended series of activities that are supposed to lead to the purchase. We are not negotiating but he is trying to figure out how to do this. I'm very patiently happily watching and waiting and offering suggestions. He is picking up all sorts of other greens and things that he's grown. There is a scale and he's trying to guesstimate how much that is. During all this I'm very concerned about how much it's going to cost. Because I think for me this is a very large quantity. As I think this, I also mention that eventhough this is a large quantity, I may be back next week for more.

At some point during his trial and errors I offer to come and work for him the next day, as partial payment. I imagine doing some things that I might do uniquely for him. I wake up before negotiations and the transaction are completed.

Notes: Eventhough I moved I had vivid recall of the dream and two prior ones. Cool.

What is the dreaming telling me? Not sure. Deffinately somehting about weed consumption by me and one who shall remain nameless.

What am I going to do about it? Not sure.

The Recruit

8:13am

The Recruit

I have just finished  a long, complex and dangerous mission. I am returning to an encampment by climbing a narrow ladder and going over a small gap in a very tall wall. I have been successful and have started to make a name for myself as a young recruit.

I am walking rapidly accros a series of lawns in a semi urban neighborhood. I am trying to get back to the main group of my peers. The changing and complex landscape looks familiar, but I am uncertain I can find my way back.

I am with a large group (20+) of recruits and senior officers. We are checking out guns before an assalt. There is something we are hunting that is very powerful and very dangerous. There are many of them.

As we are entering a house from all sides, I realize that my gun preparation has been very poor. The most able have one very large specilized gun and a smaller hand gun for back up. I have an odd revolver only. I am feeling unprepared.

I am out in a dark urban/suburban field. I am with a senior female agent. Misshapen zombies/monsters start rising out of the ground. They have a whispy wrigling shape until they become solid. We need to get back to the group. I am following the oldere agent back down a long deserted block that is overgrown just over the curb. I do not see her and wonder if I can find the way back and defeat any monsters that are springing up. I am afraid and wake in a state of fear.

What is the dream telling me? I am fearful for my lack of preparation for this phase of my life.

What am I going to do about it? Go forward in spite of my fear.

Yelling

10:40am

Yelling

I am with a group of people. I am telling Alex, perhaps with too much gusto, that I didn't always sit around the house. I used to work full time and go to work full time. I am in a hurry for some reason [perhaps because I have a lot to do today]. I go over to Mike who is working on something. He mentions am pipe/hose. I think he is talking about fixing a leak in the pneumatic pipe, that would take a long time. I fuss at him a bit and he says he is just looking for the part.  I see Alex, as a small kid, riding a tricycle. The pipe is just in front of him. I am yelling at him to get it. I believe it should be fun and rewarding to find something we all need. I am then doing something similar with Julia, also a child. As I am yelling at/encouraging Julia I hear her mother also yelling to get her attention. She is competing with me on purpose. I see the woman very vividly. While she is my wife in the dream, she has blond hair and a round face. [I do not recognize her when awake].

I wake without moving. I am in partial sleep paralysis. I remember the dream, name it and try and go back in it.  I think about going lucid, I am concentrating on the red dot. The more I think about going lucid, the farther I get from the dream world.

Notes: I woke angry and frustrated but with lots of energy to get the day started. I want to see Obama at UNC today and then "knock on doors" with Paul in the late afternoon. Big stuff.

What is the dream telling me?  Get off your ass!

What am I going to do about it? Get off my ass.

Praying Mantus Lures

10:40am

Praying Mantus Lures  [S: Lucidimine, x2]

I am walking down a city street after a long complex series of events (forgotten). I am with a small group of men in their twenties. One of them is commenting on how each of us has a legacy from growing up together. I imagine money or a pickup truck. There is a hollow stump at the top of a set of stone/concrete stairs leading down and away. He reaches into the stump and pulls out a lure, or a bait holder, that has many, 10+, small insects held by something similar a large saftey pin. It is understood that the insect impales themselves by trying to hold on or push away from the the device. There hands are subsequently skewered and they are all neatly hanging by them.