Comedy of Errors

Thursday December 19, 2019  12:45pm

Comedy of Errors

I am at high school and there is a serious computer malfunction. The tapes or system for backup are also corrupted. Someone has a fix, but is off campus and is on the way. Everything is in chaos. I leave and have multiple adventures when returning.

I get stopped by a teacher asking why I am not with the other students (apparently there is some sort of special activities going on). I start a lengthy explanation process, but it goes on so long I never finish.

This happens more than once. At one point a group listening to my explanation splits off and has there own discussions or activities. There are people dancing in the hallways. One couple is a pair of teachers. There is an explosion or flood of pee that they both get swept over in. It is apparently due in part to a change the male teacher made in secret or without knowledge of the female.

A maintenance  guy in my discussion takes me back to his shop. We are talking about the events while his assistant is making bizarre body noises and movements. Each time the guy gently reminds the assistant that that specific behavior is inappropriate.

The maintenance guy asks if I want to see something and takes me to his shop/hot house.I look closely under a grow light and there is a tiny swan like bird that has apparently grown out of the soil. I am most shocked by the tiny size and am relieved when I see the larger parent close by. The parent is only a couple of inches tall.

Might not be so happy if they knew it was pee!

Notes: The scene in the hot house was particularly colorful and vivid. The whole affair had a comic under pinning. I woke delighted that I could remember such a long detailed funny dream.

What does the dream want? For me to quick lying to Cindy about weir stuff I'm doing? For me to be more concise when I'm talking to people? Wait...when I woke the water was off in the back bathroom at the Inn. Was this a mundane prophetic  dream...I'll say yes. I only came to this conclusion when remembering one of the eight keys to dream interpretation.  Oops..Nine Keys..

1. Feelings 
2. Associations 
3. Reality Check 
4. Reentry 
5. Dialogue
6. Tracking Yourself 
7. Symbols
8. What Part of Me?
9. Enactment 

I need to review these.

Sales Meeting Awards

Saturday December 14, 2019  9:30 pm

Sales Meeting Awards

I had a series of dreams in the same location. (common theme) In one of the last scenes, I aw with a very attractive, professional voluptuous tall blonde. She may be my boss. She is discussing what type of award I should get. I am feeling good, but then she gets very emphatic and tries to explain something urgent and/or important to me. Somersetting she is not happy with. I can not understand her words. An accent? Not English?

I tell her I am distracted by the slight irregularity in her teeth, very sexy. Felt good about award, less good about borderline sexual harassment.  Maybe over the line.

Notes: Very bright and clear. Like on a supplements.

What does the dream want? For me to carry on fixing up the Inn but pay attention to what else is going on.

Gun Fight & The Sales Meeting

Sunday December 8, 2019 10:50am

Gun Fight
There are two of us. We have different weapons, guns. Mine is a Savage. My male opponent is
a colleague but we are trying to discover which weapon is superior. He has tried to kill me at least twice. I explain to him, we really don't need to kill one another to discover what we want. I am dispassionate.

The Sales Meeting
I am in a large group business gathering. I am the leader of a sales team in a larger organization. My group, 6-10 is gathered around a round table in a very small room. I am leaning in the doorway to talk with them. A young confident woman wants to speak and I tell her we are staying on topic for a bit. I am telling them the information we are sharing is based on research that is at least a few years old, at best. We need to be open to making our own discoveries and not depending on the second hand insights of others.

It is becoming apparent that our results are not good. I am in a large room with people sitting in different sections. My boss is sitting center of the room behind me. I walk over to chat. She asks how the other team members are doing. She can see them sitting to er left, two or three in a small team. I walk over to these guys, I can talk to them as they are in the front row of their section. They ask if the boss is freaking out. Everyone looks calm. I tell them I referred the boss to them.

The main talk is about to start. There are seats right up front in the first two rows. The seats are small leather backless stools perched together. I am behind someone who is about to enter the front rows are sees how close the seats are to the speaker. They immediately back out into me and go to sit further back. I go right to the front center. It is only inches from where the main speaker will be presenting.

I am buy a table where some of my team members are starting to react to the increasingly bad news. One man (red hair and a beard?) is under the table violently puking, now the dry heaves. I offer him a towel.

There is a character also associated with my team, but is independent. He is a dancer and dance teacher. It is very short, possibly a dwarf. He decided to get some of the group together and teach them some new moves. They are practicing in the halls and rooms. Several of my team members are following him around, smiling, dancing. I comment to someone standing next to me how smart he is to launch into these physical routines. At some point I sense  he is stressed himself, but carries on.

(Playing on Spotify while I am writing this..."simmer down please")

Notes: First dream was much earlier in the night. Did a good job of naming, reviewing and subsequently remembering.

What does the dream want? For me to relax in the face of stress and chaos. Seek and give advice. Take control, gently. Lead by communicating and by example.

Battle of the Alien Virus

Battle of the Alien Virus

Fight on the ice: There is a group on ice lightly covered in snow (like outside my door right now). We are not fighting but it is becoming apparent people are dropping, being killed by something.

Fight in the building: We are fighting, but it is not clear who or what we are fighting. We die and then return to the same scene. (Live Die Repeat: Edge of Tomorrow).

It is better each time we die: We return to the scene with increasing incremental clarity about how to react.

First fight with violence, then cunning and strategy. The winning strategy is not to fight harder or more violently. We need to step back slightly and finesse.

Realized the one I will love will not fall in love with me if I save everyone else: As I review the scene over and over and see a chance to intervene. There is a beautiful young woman who will not be part of my future if I save her now. I must sacrifice.

Nature of fighting..you die..eaten? zombie style: The deaths are violent and graphic.

Notes: This recounting was made by jotting down a few key ideas and them filling in a day or two later. Not perfect, but much better than just forgetting.

What does the dream want? Break it down. Focus on goal not details of my personal life. (Shit, that is big)

Throwing Chair at my Child, Could not be Denied

Saturday November 30, 2019.

Throwing chair at my son (not Alex)

I am in a house with others. I am angry and frustrated. There is a child, likely my son, that is crouching in a corner of the room. I do not recognized him in waking life. He is bald but is still smaller than an adult. I pick up a wooden chair. I examine the legs and then throw it at him. The legs come apart. I wake in horror, sadness and disgust.


Sundas December 1, 2019.

The man who could not be denied

I am standing in front of a massive ornate wall, a castle or a church. I am inside a thick black leather construction, not clothes, just a container. It is very stiff and has smooth metal studs at the end of evenly spaced little cones that cover the container that surrounds me. There is no articulation for arms or head, but I am standing.

There is no movement or activity. My mere presence demands a res ponce, allowing me to enter the castle. I wake rejoicing and happy.

Notes: There was an earlier third dream I failed to write down, about being very negative about my state of affairs, especially emotionally. Saturday evening I yelled at Cindy because she criticized my driving/parking. We talking briefly Sunday...her perception is that I am no better at blowing up than I have ever been. I am thinking the child was possibly me, no my son.

What do the dreams want? Learn to let anger go. I have a secret that will free me.

Dream Warriors

Monday November 25, 2019 11:15 am (regular supplements)

Dream Warriors

Scene one: The discovery
I am passing through the veil in the dream. I am coming back from another dimension or mental state. I am not moving, but have a new ability that I am trying to figure out. It is a special capacity that works in the other dimension.

Scene two: Traveling to gathering
I am with a small group, we are traveling, possibly by car. We are headed to a destination we are very focused on. There is discussion about these new abilities that we are all developing. We are also codifying our techniques enabling us to teach them to others.

Scene three: We are at the conclave waiting for the sessions to begin. 
I am in close quarters with a few others. We are standing in a tight space, like in storeroom with shelves or in a store in the isles. We know we need  to spread this knowledge and training to that others can be prepared. We are discussing how some individuals have been single out for discipline. They are the ones that we want to honor and engage with.

Notes: The dreams are significantly less vivid than usual with the supplements. I have smoked twice in the last two days, but none for the previous two weeks. The ability to go back into the dream and continue a plot is still working well.

What does the dream want? I am conflicted. I have spent a lot of time online looking at guns and hunting information. Trump is in the news continuously. I just read an article about the secretary of the Navy resigning because Trump intervened with the discipline of a Navy Seal that took pictures of himself with a corpse.

Interpretation one: The dream wants me to train for struggle in the next world. It will not be heaven, it will have conflict, just like this one. My fixation on arms is not about fighting on this plane, but about the next. Also, buy knowing about guns I will be interacting with many people that I currently perceive as enemies, but who should and could be my greatest allies.

Interpretation two: My subconscious has been overwhelmed with ideas about violence, dimension travel and conspiracy. Just playing it out in my dreams.

Earthquake Party

Tuesday November 19, 2019 2:30 pm (regular supplements)

Earthquake Party

I am at a house party. I am making my way through the folks mingling and hanging out. The house is in poor condition. The steps, the objects in the yard are all in disrepair. It is on a very steep hill and walking down into the yard is nearly as steep as walking down stairs or even a latter.

There is  young boy who says his name is John. He offered me an object I can not recall. As I make my way back up to the house the going is very difficult. I am climbing hand over foot when I realize the earth and objects in the yard are sliding down as I touch them. It is an earthquake! I am not particularity frightened, but more astonished.

Kiss and Grope Bar

I am meeting Cheryl (my 1st wife) at a bar/restaurant. She looks stunning and very sexy. It has been a while since we have seen each other. We quietly enjoy each others company for a good while. I then look into her eyes and we have a slow sensuous kiss.

I walk around the crowded multi-room club and encounter several women. They are more mature. I am talking very closely to one and am putting my knee between her legs as we talk. I may have done something similar to more than one woman.

Humphrey Bogart, Read me my Book

A beautiful woman (famous movie star?) and Humphrey Bogart are talking in a hole. It is a dark, wet and dirty rim of a deep hole, a well?. I descends down from a towering dark city of tall bleak buildings. They are discussing his writing. She tells him he is a great writer but he seems to only have a vague recollection. She offers or he asks for her to read some of his work. She begins reading to him.

Battle Bar

I am in a bar watching two young men very closely play a game. It is a live action battle between a tank and a soldier with a machine gun. They are each behind their weapon but only a couple of feet apart. They are firing repeatedly at each other. The projectiles are gooey small marshmallows. The one behind the tank seems very focused and determined. The one behind the machine gun seems indifferent, distracted, maybe drunk.

Steak on the Bar

I walk into a bar, possibly with Cheryl again. We walk up to the bar and there are a few pieces of steak neatly sitting in from of one of the seats. I consider eating them knowing it would be seen as weird. We sit down and get served by a female bartender. She gives Cheryl a drink that is very special. She lets me have a taste. It is caramel colored and is in a tumbler that is extremely thin.

Notes: I did a wake-back-to-bed and MILD  session. I woke at 8 am after about 4 hours of sleep. I did not wake up until 2:30 pm! 10 1/2 hours of sleep. I found it very easy to go in and out of the dream state, but no luck with lucidity, again!!!  I was very happy however, with thee ability to review, name and remember the dreams/segments. There were several very brief ones I forgot, but all-in-all, not bad.

What does the dream want? 4 our of 5 of the dreams where at a party or more specifically in a bar. I have spent way too much time in bars recently. Bur they do have something in common with bars. They are inhabited by people who seem familiar or in some way connected. The best time in bars or dreams is when I have conversations w/"strangers". Hummm...are the characters in my dreams and drunks in bars from a past life or separate dimension? When reviewing the dreams today I recalled other dreams that seem to have taken place in a similar location. Like part of a movie set or specific alternate reality location.

Dream Machine (nap)

Sunday November 17, 2019 5:25 pm

Dream Machine (nap)

I am coming in a out of the dream state. I am relieved because I can pick a particular type of dream by manipulating a machine. Like the bolt action on a rifle, I can slide a lever and get a result. When I actually awake I am disappointed, I was so sure it was true.

Notes: Want to become better at interesting dreaming during a nap.

What does the dream want? Maybe there is a dream machine? A way to almost mechanically decide what kind of dream to have. Humm...

Multiple + Mundane Prophetic

Saturday November 16th 10:15 a.m.

ADD Dating

There are four of us. Two young men and two young women. I'm one of the men. We're playing some kind of game. The goal is to remember all four of our names. I contemplate this as something very difficult. and then I just try to write down four names. I start with my own name very clearly written in script. I write David & but I can't remember the name of the woman that I am with. However I see how easy and immediate it is if I use a methodology.

There's a second part of the game I'm playing just with the same woman. I am trying to explain to her a concept and I say do you know how computers buffer information, what a computer buffer is? She says no. I realize my mind can do certain things very well that others can't do.

Military version of rolling over without waking up

I am between sleep and consciousness. I'm contemplating rolling over but do not want to come out of the dream state. Somehow I imagine it as a detailed military maneuver. I imagine detailed incremental pieces to the operation. The military aspect has to do with uniforms and machines possibly guns but it's all vague.

Mayhem in the house and field

I am in a class. It is a casual class we are on the floor. I have a yellow binder that I have been working in.. I finished one piece and edited it and handed it in. There's another piece that's handwritten and can barely be deciphered. I tell myself I will do it later. I think I refer back to it in another dream segment. In any case I just left it undone with the understanding that the binder has already been turned in that is too late. But also with the understanding that it probably doesn't carry much weight and will not be graded.

Cleaning the room while the water is still on. (Mundane prophetic)

I am trying to clean an amazingly messy room. Part of it is just clutter. But there is water that has been spilled or leaked on the floor and I'm trying to clean it up. I realize in the middle of the clean up that the sink is still running and there is a sheet that's in the sink is causing the water to leak out onto the floor while I am trying to clean it up. I turn off the sink and get back to cleaning up the room.

I go out to get a trash bag to start putting all the junk in from the room I am cleaning. I can't find them. I go to talk to someone, possibly the manager. He tells me there in a external closet and here's a key. When I go to open the closet the key is very complex. I have a very detailed few of the key mechanism. Has many moving parts and some surfaces that looks similar to the lock but I can't figure it out. I go and get help from the manager.

While I am cleaning the house I find a trapdoor and reach down into it. There are several neatly folded clothing items. They belong to Julia. I take some out to organize them. And leave others there thinking that she will get them later if she wants them.

I am outside trying to get some exercise by joining a game. Everyone in a large group is getting to play a game that they are wearing tennis shoes. I have no shoes and I contemplate getting hiking boots and how awkward that would be in playing the same game.

I am back cleaning the house and it is bizarre. There are all sorts of wild creatures, primarily. reptiles. Some of them look dangerous in their little nests they're crawling around. There's a small wildcat of some sort. I'm contemplating cleaning them all up with the rest of the debris and I realize that they may be pets. I think it might be Tom Lankford's pets up in my house or the house I'm living in.

I am feeling a time crunch in getting the house cleaned because there is an event that I want to go to. Some sort of performance possibly by a family member. I'm trying to calculate how long it's going to take to get there and how much time I have to clean the house. It gets very specific and I conclude that I have 2 hours until the performance. It will take an hour to get there. I have an hour to clean the house. I can possibly do it if I'm very precise.

Notes.  When I woke I was trying to be very organized about remembering my dreams while I was cleaning the room I was sleeping in. I knocked over a small thermos and spilled a small amount of water. I immediately recognized that this was a mundane prophetic dream about something that was going to happen or might happen. Got me very excited not because it was so important but because it was an example of Robert's mosses everyday prophetic dreams.

What does the dream want?

1. For me to be aware that I have specific skills. For me to know that I can do multiple things and to have a sense of urgency about getting things done.

2. To know but I can have prophetic dreams.

3. To strike a balance between time spent in the dreamworld in the waking world.

Lost and Found

Tuesday November 12, 2019 10:00 am

Lost and Found

I am bicycling with a woman. We have an assignment to contact two children in a neighborhood. It has to do with them making it to school. We find one of them but do not have the address on the other. We return to the school and I am looking for scraps of evidence about what the child's address is. I then start talking to a teacher who is very organized and has a list with everyone on it. I complement her on her origination.

I am contemplating how to contact the remaining child. If I ride my bike there then how am I going to transport the child? I consider the use of a car. At some point I realize the missing address is the same as the first one. They are siblings. I wake while contemplating the dilemma.

Notes: I am happy that this dream goes from confusion to clarity...big improvement.

What does the dream want? To let me know I am on the right tract with building the website for the inn and possibly with an approach to being more intimate with Cindy.

Nine Keys to Understanding Your Dreams (Moss)

Nine Keys to Understanding Your Dreams 
(Text adapted from Conscious Dreaming by Robert Moss. Published by Three Rivers Press.)

1. Trust Your Feelings 
Always pay attention to how you feel when you wake from a dream. Your feelings and bodily sensations may be your best guide to the relative urgency and importance of a dream, and its positive or negative implications.

2. First Associations 
In keeping a dream journal, you will want to get into the habit of jotting down your first associations with the dreams you record. What floats to the surface of your consciousness in the first minutes after waking may come from layers of the dream that have eluded, or from deeper levels of dreaming

3. Reality Check 
Compare what is going on in the dream to the rest of your life, including the life of your imagination. Always ask whether it is possible that any part of the dream will manifest, literally or symbolically, in physical reality. Though dreams are inner experiences, they often contain accurate information about external reality. In both subtle and unsubtle ways, dreams incorporate signals from the outside environments.

4. Dream Reentry 
Dreams are real experiences, and a fully remembered dream is its own interpretation. The meaning of a dream is inside the dream itself. By learning how to re-enter dreams, you will develop the ability to clarify messages about future events, resume contact with inner teachers, and resolve unfinished business.

5. Dialogue with Dream Characters 
One of the best ways to work out what your dream characters are telling you is to ask them. You can do this through dream reentry or simply by sitting down with a pad and pen, imagining that the dream figure is in front of you, and opening a conversation. Nine Keys to Understanding Your Dreams/Robert Moss p. 2

6. Tracking Your Dream Self 
Who are you in your dreams? Are you the protagonist or simply an observer? Are you younger or older? Male or female? How does the situation and behavior of our dream self compare with that of your waking self? The character who appears in all of your dreams, even if only as a witness, is you.

7. Symbol Exploration 
Although the dream source tries to communicate with us as clearly as possible, it must often speak in symbols in order to carry us beyond the limitations of the everyday mind. Symbols take us from what we know to what we do not yet know. You'll be inspired to track your symbols far and wide, and may discover that your personal dreams embody timeless myths from many traditions. Always remember that the best encyclopedia of dream symbols is your own journal, kept over time.*

8. "What Part of Me?"
Dreams make us whole. They show us the many aspects of ourselves and help us to bring them under one roof. This is why it is often useful to ask "what part of me" different characters and elements in a dream might represent. However, this approach is rarely sufficient since dreams are transpersonal as well as personal. If you meet a tribal shaman in a dream, that may be an aspect of yourself and an actual shaman. If you meet your departed grandmother, that is more likely to be Granma trying to communicate than merely a part of you that is like her.

9. Dream Enactment 
Dreams require action! You may take creative action, turning a dream into a story, a picture a collage.You may do some shamanic shopping, to get shoes or earrings your dream self was wearing or a sculpture of a deity you saw in a dream. You may use the dream as GPS on your life roads. You may accept dream assignments, seeking to translate that strange word or find that obscure place on a map of this world or another world. At the least, you can harvest a bumper sticker or action phrase from the dream that will help to move its energy into life.

Short Reminder List

1. Feelings 
2. Associations 
3. Reality Check 
4. Reentry 
5. Dialogue
6. Tracking Yourself 
7. Symbols
8. What Part of Me?
9. Enactment 

Confused in the Class & the Club

Saturday November 11, 2019 9:50 am

Confused in the Class & the Club (w/normal supplements)

I am in a classroom full of students. Class is just beginning and I am trying to get myself oriented. I have been struggling for a while to figure out what and where my next class is, the last of the day and maybe the week. I just can not remember and ask another student for help. She is one of three girls standing together. I explain my situation and have this helpless sad and pathetic look on my face. I tell her I have my schedule in my notebook, many inches thick, but I can not locate the piece of paper it is on.

The class seems to be divided into two sections, both of which are coming alive. There are staging some sort of production and I try and get out of the way but increasingly am pushed into a corner. I wake sad frustrated, almost devastated and then realize it is only a dream.

Notes: Listened to a chapter of Robert Moss's Dream Gates before going back to bed. Been having variations on this theme a lot.

Dream Enactment: (from Moss) Meditate on confusion.

Verse: 

Confusion makes me mad and leaves me sad. 

It turns me around and makes me frown. 

It strips me of direction and acts like an infection.

Most of all I am staid because I am so afraid.

Motorcycles & Mayhem

November 8, 2019 11:45 am

Motorcycles & Mayhem

I am having a n extended conversation with an android. The discussion is about eye focus and how we can shift micro focus during a conversation. (I need to look this up)

I am on a motorcycle ride wit others. We come to a very narrow turn and I stand the bike up almost vertically on its from wheel. I am balancing it to go down the narrow pass like a set of stairs.

I am on motorcycle riding fast and them slow way to at the end of a ride. There are indents in the road. It is not clear if I am slowing down because of the danger or just the designated end of the course.

Again, the bike is tipped at an extreme angle and almost dead stopped.

I am in a large indoor/outdoor party. Moving from one conversation/experience to another.

Patty is in a truck and she has stuffed all sorts of food into a purse. There are a couple of other women with her and she may be planning some sort of adventure. I wonder if I can go.

I come up to a beautiful tall redhead that is lounging on a sofa. I know her and get very close to her face. I can see every detail of her face and fine read hair. I am talking very intimately and may be slightly caressing her. The encounter is very sensual. She is slightly resisting and begins a lengthy discussion of how one of my eyes is focusing is a slightly different direct focusing on a different part of her face.

I am standing in line and telling a woman who may be a stranger that "I have got the New Orleans bug". It is a double entendre meaning I was bit by the bugs but am now captivated by its force of attraction.

Debbie is sitting or in a car and has a large piece of food in her mouth. She is fooling around and it moving it in and out of her mouth like a kid.

I am in my apartment. There is a meeting being held in another room and all the children, dogs and cats of the guests are my responsibility. It feels like fun.

I am sitting on a bucket, like I am going to poop, with my pants down. I may have started in a room but am now talking to a friend with no real concern about my situation.

Notes: Vivid, sensual, many segments. It feels like a series of dreams while on supplements, but none were involved. Yea! I woke being very happy with how many dream segments I was remembering. Second dream that Debbie was in within a week. Just short cameos, but very clear and memorable.

What does the dream want? For me to realize the plethora of dream experiences open to me. Also that I can have very sensual and vivid dreams without supplements.

Tuesday November 5, 2019 10:30 am
(took regular supplements after 5 hours sleep)

Fog of Dreams (Like fog of war)

I am in a series of rooms with many others. They are meeting rooms. The work that is being done is unclear. There is tech involved. I am looking an smart phones screens and the like paging through images that only make sense in the dream.

I am with someone in thew hallway and we are discussing his new office/recording studio. Similarly the details of the discussion only make sense in the dream. I wake with vivid images but unknowable goings on.

Notes: As I am waking up  I review the dreams and try and name them. I am unable. I can not articulate what they are about.

What does the dram want? For me to chill and not take supplements for a while? Introducing a new type of dream? Wants to shock me into awakening in the dream with massive dream logic?

Repeat Confusion, Clarity?

Monday November 4, 2019 9:15 am (Yea!, early...sort of)

Guy m Guy

I am in a gym or classroom, see a pretty girl and fantasize about booking up. My mate is watching through a window of a room next door and is pissed. I run into the room to "explain".

Native American Pilot

In a room taking with a flight commander over the radio. He is reminding me of the need to tell him just before my next take off.

I blast off with no warning, again. There are a series of straight pencil marks on the table and a new one appears as I take off.

I ask the commander how that was, he responds politely that  is was perfect. He then explodes info a controlled screaming tirade that I did not give him proper advanced notice, again! I then discuss with him an arcane procedure that allows a depositor to take over a bank. He is not getting it and I refer him to an article for info and validation.

Clueless in the Classroom

I am in a classroom waiting for a class to start. I am daydreaming and the class fills up and I have no seat. I get angry, throw my paper and pen across the room. The pen has come apart and the guy I almost hit with it asks if I need another pen. I say I am OK and move to another part of the room.

There is an open chair but it turns out to be next to an air vent and I cannot hear. The teacher is discussing an upcoming final test I am completely unprepared for. There is a vote on who will proctor the test. I do not participate because I can't hear. It was a no-duh result because everyone wanted the same teacher. When asked to explain the result the student next to me said this guy allowed you to smoke weed if you were done before everyone else.

There is some discussion about rape and I am surprised.

Notes: I have had this dream so many times. Especially when not watching my finances. Like now.

What does the dream want? For me to focus. Just realized this is an impediment to lucid dreaming. Feeling sorry for myself. Then thinking it is just an excuse and I just need to meditate more. Enough to change my brain structure. No biggie!

Random Thoughts: Looked up use of Native American. It sucks. most folks just want to be called by their tribe. Makes sense, but not workable. Like so many things American.

Lost and Found

Sunday November 2, 2019 11:30 am

Lost
I am in my home office. I am looking for some files. I look in one drawer. And then in another. I see some leftover evidence of files but not what I'm looking for. I get up from the desk and go to the room next door looking for my bed. There's someone else sleeping in the room. I go to another room same thing. I get the idea I am in the wrong apartment. I leave the apartment and start walking around. I go from one building to the next. From one environment to the next. And I can't find my way.

I'm trying to find my way out of a very large room and complex to the street outside. At one point a stranger stops me and asked me if I can give him directions, I tell him I cannot and continue on my way and finally make it to outside. I don't recognize the streets I don't recognize the buildings. I figure if I make it around the next corner I will make it to some place I recognized. but no matter where I go I'm someplace that looks sort of familiar but not correct. I wake up confused. It was similar to a false Awakening. In the dream I was very convinced that this was real.

Only in it for me. (fully volitional, made many decisions, partial lucidity?)
(X-rated over rated)

As I am getting dressed I'm putting on a funky combination of clothes. I don't have any money and do not have a lot of options about how I am dressing.

I am in a somewhat upscale restaurant. I feel under-dressed and have no money but order food anyway. The waiter is trying to be kind and spills some wine in front of me on the floor and pretends that it was his fault and is going to get me a new bottle of wine.

I get up from the table and start walking around the restaurant. I am cognizant that the waiter is coming back with my wine and feel a sense of urgency. there are many people in the restaurant I see Debbie sitting in a booth by herself. I sit down we are very glad to see each other. She comments she likes my clothes. I tell her that my dress it's sort of a costume.

Her husband comes back, someone I do not recognize, we say something about knowing each other but did not let on the depth of our relationship.

I'm making my way back to the table and possibly the same waiter bends down to clean my shoes. He uses a spray bottle they are sued shoes and it is odd to have them being "shined". I feel guilty because I don't have any money to tip him.

I am now wondering around other parts of the complex. It is much higher end. I find myself in a salon that is empty. It is very elegant and obviously for the very rich. I see a pair Lindt round chocolate candies.I pick them up and start eating them and bump into a young woman who is working there as a beauty person. She looks at the candies and says hello Mr. Lindt. She assumes that I am super rich. I immediately begin to take advantage of the situation and assume the role of a completely self-absorbed super rich person.

I start taking her clothes off and begin to sexually force myself on her. She's performing oral sex and I am forcing her to the point of discomfort. I then proceeded to take off the rest of her clothes. She has a very elaborate costume on. I find a pair of scissors and start to cut off her pants and underwear in multiple layers all at once.

At this point there are other people in the room there's a very focused mature black woman. She's looking into a locker that she's got someone locked in. She has been pursuing them and is staring at them. And I feel like that could be me. she tells me however that she's not pursuing me.

There are a couple of other people in the room as well and all of them are watching and even helping me disrobe this young woman. I then have full-on intercourse essentially raping her. Possibly ending with anal sex. Very sensual. (Something I have wanted to do in a lucid dream, or thought I wanted to)

I then start to make my way out of the facility trying to escape without paying. I am a mess and I'm looking for a shower. I can't find one and find a sink where I wash my face. My clothes are disheveled. I am nude from the waist down. As I start leaving the immediate salon the young woman is desperate and is following behind me hoping to still be paid.

I am able to cover myself by closing my robe. I am making my way down a long staircase case feeling like a thief. Next to me appears two people dressed like courtiers. They're carrying something like a carpet between them and it is covered in gold coins. One of them falls off I pick it up with the intention of giving it to the young woman. They somehow fall down the stairs making coins go everywhere. I reach my hands onto their carpet and grab two big handfuls of gold coins and stick them in my pockets. I still have the intention of giving it all to the young woman. I wake up basically disgusted with myself.

Playing in the Hood (Lost and found)

I am in a car in a parking lot with Julia. For some reason I tell her I am going out for a minute and leave her in the car.

I find my way through several buildings in a convoluted apartment complex. There is a large abandoned building with a steep access and broken windows. I climb down to explore. I get into some very dicey situations with nails sticking out of old wooden planks and I'm careful but nearly poke holes in my feet. While I am doing this there are a couple of young black men/boys watching me and are impressed with my dexterity and skill.

They continued on through the building and I follow them. The route turns out to be very treacherous and challenging but doable. At the end there is a very deep hole that we have to climb out of. I am contemplating how I'm going to manage it and one of the young men reaches down, takes me by the hand and pulls me out with a smile on his face. I am taken with how much fun it was interacting with people I do not normally interact with.

I remember Julia is in the car and start to find my way back. The apartments are very complex and look familiar but somehow I'm still well oriented. I remember very specifically how the parking lot I left Julia in is oriented next to my high school. I see the school and make my way on.

I am looking down a deep hill as I am making my way back and I'm amazed at how beautiful the landscape is. There is a deer that is running really fast from right to left and he slams into a man and his dog and knocks himself out. The dog is semi-conscious. As I am leaving I see that the deer is starting to recover.

I looked down at myself and my clothes are covered in mud and dirt and I reach into a pocket in my sweatpants and find my car keys. I think I was very stupid for almost losing them but feel confident that everything is okay now.

I'm climbing over some cars to make my way back. They are covered with snow and I need to slide down to the bottom. It works out well without me damaging anyone's car.

I get back thinking that Julia will be pissed at just sitting in the car for so long but she is engaged in some sort of game with a bunch of younger children in an interior courtyard of the same large complex of shoddy apartments. 

I wake happy that I was now found.

Note: I took my regular supplements. It had such an amazing effect I am curious as to why sometimes the effect is profound and sometimes it seems like almost nothing. I listened to a substantial part of Robert Ross's book and including some meditation techniques before going back to sleep. I had woken up with about 3-4 hours of sleep.

After the full immersion sex dream I was still feeling not good. I tried to go back and induce a more spiritually based dream and find a dream mentor. I've essentially given up on the idea of sex in dream. When I woke up from the second lengthy dream I was disappointed that I couldn't control the dream environment but then realized that I had had a long complex dream was feeling pretty good.

What does the dream want? I think it wants to demonstrate but having sexual encounters in my dream are really not satisfactory. if I'm going to have a sex life I need to do it while awake with real relationships with real people. Another possibility, is to have consensual sex only. Or even, sex controlled by the female. 

The dreams about racial interactions that are positive are fairly self-evident. The bookends of being lost at the beginning of the dream sessions and then being very well oriented at the end were also very satisfying and instructive. Have the right goals and you will know where you are, literally.

Wow.

Halloween Dream

Thursday October 31, 2019 3:30 pm (dictated immediately after dream)

Incompetent in the classroom with some hope

I am in the classroom with a large number of other students. We are in a large gymnasium. We are voting on who had the best project.

I asked if we can write the names down on the board so we can keep them straight. Teacher says no we don't need to do that. We vote and we all agree on the little girl. Someone we all know in like and is very funny.

Earlier in the dream. I asked one of the teachers when spring break is. I know it's immediately after we finish this project. She goes on a tirade about if they told her anything and the other teacher. They are both females. Apparently there's two groups of teachers the ones in the know and the ones that are kept in the dark.

One of the teachers that is running another group calls me over. I walk up the bleachers he has me a piece of paper with a bunch of information on it. It says that I need to prepare a talk. I scan it briefly. then he says no it was just a joke you don't need to do anything.

I am feeling out of sync with the class. I may have missed some time due to an illness. The teacher that gave me the assignment hands me his textbook which is in pieces. I glanced at it. You're very specific visual image of stones at a process where you put sand between the stones like mortar. I assume it's a civics tasks about building buildings and cities or something like that. I feel that if I had to over spring break I could read this text and have a clue as to how to answer questions on a test.

As I am waking I'm feeling much better prepared than I have in past similar dreams more incompetence and less clue about what was going on.

What now?

Notes : when I awoke I had no memory of the dream. I moved slightly and thought I had missed the dream. but I was able to basically go back into the dream slightly remember it in detail and even continued it slightly.

What does the dream want? For me to feel that I am getting better at organizing my life.

Chaos in the Garden + Harpooned Arm

Tuesday September 29 2019 @;45 pm
(Choline x1, Galatamine x2) WBTB, MILD, WILD  (lucid dream fail)

Dresses Hiked Up
There are several people in what feels like my home. They are in a vivid well lit room sitting, laughing, talking. There are two black women next to me. One has her dress hiked up and her vagina is so large and exposed it looks unnatural.

Chaos in the Garden
What seems like a continuation of the same dreamscape is taking place outside in my garden. There are several people, but one beautiful blonde is making very overt advances. We are trying to figure out how to hookup and things go crazy, in the dream and in "real life". As we try and find a secularized spot more and more people come into the yard. A group of women with Cindy arrive, but we persist in our desires. Glen Hellman comes in from side door and I consider telling him I need help and we do a threesome. I wake frustrated so close to a sensual erotic encounter.

My arms are very heavy and I believe I can go right back into the dream. This often happens on Choline/Galatamine. My arms are so heavy, I think they may be asleep so I move slightly. I then adjust my head sightly and loose the connection. Then a train comes by (my window is open), Dora barks, and then nudges me to get up. Is the real world conspiring to keep me from cheating in my dreams? Really!?

Harpooned Arm
There is a man in a pickup truck that is crashing into the water. His window is broken, but it seems it is just some sort of test. I am walking up the street an I see a severed arm on the ground. As I look more closely, the arm is harpooned from up the street and is reeled in. I follow the line and find a friend with his daughter. They explain that they were shooing for wall paper and just wanted the roll in his hand. It all seemed so logical at the time.

Notes: I went to sleep at about 2:00 am woke about 7:30. Perfect for a WBTB effort, so I took my supplements and tried to go back to sleep. It was difficult, I almost gave up and got up with the idea of napping later. I then went to sleep and didn't wake up until 2:30 pm!! I often sleep a long time with multiple returns to dreaming when I am on the supplements, but this was crazy. The lines blurring between wake and sleep were actually comical. The chaos in the dream being mirrored by the chaos in my room was very interesting.

What does the dream want? For me to not have sex in my dreams? Shit! We'll see.

Mundane Dream (Dream Continuity)

Sunday October 27, 2019 1:00 pm

Mundane Dream

(each segment was after a wake and return episode)
I am with a young woman (Cindy in later segments). We are leading a group of young children, (8-10 yrs old?). We are walking in a city during the day. There is the normal chaos with kids but nothing notable happens.

We come to a building and sneak in. There is a very small swimming pool and I go in with one of the kids. I show her how I can easily push off one end and glide to the other. I see myself clearly doing this.

We are now outside the building and I am discussing with Cindy how they have taken an old plain building and made it architecturally interesting by hanging new structure off of it. We discuss that it is a Canadian children's health organization that has had the work done.

I am on a hill close to the building on a bicycle. We are discussing another mundane aspect of the building. I am aware in the dream that it is boring/mundane.

Notes: This series of dreams went on from 8:30 am to 11:30 am! I kept falling back into the same dream space.

What does the dream want? For me to hone my skills at what I would now call "Dream Continuity".  I looked it up and put a link below.

Dream Continuity: Picking up where you left off (check out her books)
https://www.erinpavlina.com/blog/2006/09/dream-continuity-picking-up-where-you-left-off/

Multiple Returns to Same Dream Space

Friday October 25, 2019  2:50 pm

Multiple Returns to Same Dream Space

(Each segment is returning to sleep after briefly waking)

I am in a dicey urban/suburban neighborhood. Dilapidated single family homes are strewn with trash and debris. I am moving about, possibly on a bicycle. All the people are black. I am negotiating with someone about a dilapidated car. I am not concerned about my safety but am concerned about the welfare of the people I am encountering.

I am observing the relationship between a young black woman and a black man. It is just the two of them. The interactions are mostly emotional and conversational. It feels very loving and early on.

I visit  the same couple. The relationship is progressing. Something is changing about her, it is about her size. In the dream it makes perfect sense, when awake I can't figure out what is changing. (perfect example of dream logic)

A third time I am observing the couple. (Am I the man?). She is still growing in some way. It is very positive and heart warming.

Notes: Took my normal choline/galatamine supplements. Second day in a row. I also played with some techniques recommend in aYouTube video involving binalual beats. Had trouble with headset/ear buds. I need to work out how to listen to audio and still be comfortable enough to go to sleep.

What does the dream want?  Not at all sure.

Massive Lucid Sequence of Dreams

Thursday October 24, 2019  11:00 am
(Notes will be italics for a continuous recounting of the dream session)
Supplements: Choline (500 mg) x1, Galatamine (4mg) x2

I have not had any marijuana for several days (less than a week). I discussed needing to have more lucid dreams before going back to the Oasis with Edward in the afternoon. I was tired and went to bed early, 10ish. Woke up at 4ish. Watched 2-3 YouTube videos on lucid dreaming. Nothing really new, but focused on tip that 60% of subjects that did MILD, + wake-back-to-bed had lucid dreams within two weeks. I had decided earlier that I would keep a journal for two weeks when mediating 45 minutes per day and see what happens.

I woke after 5 hours of sleep, watched the videos and took the supplements. I then put on headsets and listened to a lucid dream induction. Too uncomfortable, so I decided to do my own induction. I used Gladys's Garden as the scene. I remembered and visualized in detail walking down into the garden. I also visualized laying down in the garden and falling into a lucid dream.

I woke frustrated that it did not work and then realized I had been dreaming vividly, just not self aware. Encouraged, I went back to sleep.

Sleep Clinic
I am in a sleep clinic, trying to have a lucid dream. There is a pretty woman with dark hair in the bed next to me and another working as a nurse, may have been the same person (dream hint). I am having no luck and keep trying to go back to sleep. They are breaking down the room for another use. The aids are gently rocking my feet trying to wake me up, telling it it is time to wake up. (just realized they meant wake up in the dream!!!).

Dream Discussion in the Dream
I may be talking to the woman next to me in the dream clinic. I have a detailed discussion on how to induce lucid dreams.

Amazing Blue Eyed Baby (lucid)
I am sitting on the floor with two toddlers, I may be one myself. I am staring into the eyes of one who has amazing huge multicolored eyes. They look like blue sky and clouds slowly shifting. I realized I am dreaming. I stay calm.

Wall Turns to Dust (lucid)
I come partially into consciousness, my arms are very heavy (always a good sign). I am in the same space with he children but my attention is drawn to the walls. The wall is a creamy color and morphs into a smooth chalky texture. It occurs to me that it is now porous and I press my body into it.

Going Into the Play
I am with a group, mostly women, waiting for a play to start. It is a special play that is being performed by children. The woman organizing the event reminds us of their efforts and herds us intro the performance with mild remonstrations.

Flying Black Mattress (Lucidish)
As I leave the theater I find myself on a small mattress completely covered in a black sheet. I am flying over the heads of people on street. It is a night city street scene, the folks on the street are various older black musicians. They see me flying on the mattress and smile knowingly as I go over their heads. (I had incubated the desire fly briefly before sleep)

2nd Flying Mattress Ride (lucid)
(After intervening dreams) I am again flying on the black mattress, but now I am in more control. I bank, twist and turn, mostly just holding on, but aware that I am flying in a dream.

Screeching Drawer (sleeping on my back)
At the end of my dream session I try and go back into a dream on my back (usually impossible). I am pulling a white plastic drawer out and hear that horrible screeching sound (like nails on a black board). I wale up amazed at the clarity of the audio in the dream.

A Young Gladys Moon Jones

Notes: Wow. Ask and ye shall receive.

Glady's Garden Induction

What does the dream want:
1.For me to quit taking marijuana!
2. Set up session at Oasis.
3. Meditate 45min/day for two weeks.
4. Order more galatamine.

The King Pin

Sunday October 20, 2019 1:30 pm

The King Pin

I am with a group of people who are working together to get a drug selling operation up an running. It is more like setting up an outdoor school event than a dark under world thing. We are working very hard and are about to open. There are two aspects to the business and I have concentrated on a new outdoor laid beck part of the business.

I have come to a table that is being run by one of the illegal drug providers. It looks like an old fashioned game of skill, It is all hand made wooden objects, some looking like thin bowling pins. I tell him I want to play. I imagine that it will be difficult, but he tells me I have everything I need to play.

The leader of the drug gang that is supplying us comes up to me to discuss how things are going. He is upset because his plans are not being followed. I tell him, to think of the business as a black box; You put in drugs and get out money. I said the money is flowing and there will be more to come as we implement his original plans. He is not satisfied and says he will now have to take over the whole business and push me out. All our hard work woad be for nothing. I kill him without thinking twice (sort of done off stage). I then seek out a reasonably intelligent and less belligerent gang member and ask him how he wants to work together.

Notes: I have had difficulty remembering dreams, so I am happy. Also, no marijuana for a couple of days...did that help?

What  does the dream want? For me to become a cold blooded killer? I doubt it. For me to be more focused and goal oriented...likely. To know that "I have everything I need to succeed."

Stealing The World's Greatest Work of Art

Monday October 28, 2019 10:30 am

Stealing The World's Greatest Work of Art

I am watching the stealing of the world's greatest work of art. It is a stature and there are workers with digging tools removing dirt from the foundation. It is a deconstruction project. I am viewing or experiencing the project from below.

Each time I return to sleep I am back int he same dream space and the efforts are further along. More destabilizing with increasing uncertainty of the projects actual end.

There is an increasing feeling of uncertainty about the endeavor. The eating away at its foundations has eaten away at the beliefs that the work represented. There is also an increasing feeling of instability and inability to resurrect it properly in a new location.

I wake feeling the emotional darkness of the project, but still amazed that I am three days running of long dream continuity sessions.

Prisoners (c 1519-34)

Michelangelo's Prisoners, or Slaves, were begun for the tomb of Pope Julius II but never finished. In its entirety – including the Dying and Rebellious Slaves in the Louvre and the statue of Moses on the final, reduced version of the tomb eventually erected in Rome – this constitutes the greatest unfinished masterpiece in the world. Yet Michelangelo did not leave things unfinished out of laziness. It is an aesthetic choice. The tragic power of these prisoners as they struggle to emerge out of raw stone is an expression of the human condition that equals Shakespeare's Hamlet. –

Notes: Contiguous dreams three days running. I looked up "the world's greatest work of art" and found this Michelangelo sculpture. It was only on one list, David and The Pietà were much more common. But, I found this one first.

What does the dream want? For me to travel the world in search of great art? Likely not. A warning about the destabilizing effects of destroying society's foundations? A cautionary tale of cheating or stealing?

Girl in a gay night club

Monday September 16, 2019  9:00am

Girl in a gay  night club

I am with a group of men, likely all gay. We go to a huge dark, labyrinthine, abandoned  industrial site repurposed without renovation onto a massive hook-up site. We are know by the proprietor and he come over. He talks with us, but I can not hear a word. Everyone is hooked up and I am faced with and expectant little guy who was obviously expecting to get serviced and proceeded to lie down, take out his erect penis and say, we have all night.  I start to jack him off.

I am now laying down against a wall with my arm around a very pretty you woman. She is not interested in me but I persist. Our location changes and we are in an overstuffed, chair her facing me with her legs wrapped around me. She is still not fully engaged but is letting me fondle and suck her breasts. Two guys come up and start taking to us.

One, who is particularly ugly and aggressive states that she is basically hogging an available guy and is pissed. My response is to go theatrically completely bazerk  and smash a tray filled with nails hanging from the ceiling. That splatter around the space. His response is to start angrily screaming. He grabs a light fixture handing from exposed wires and pulls it down. Sparks fly and there is instantly fire breaking out everywhere. We immediately  exit the building seeing hundreds pouring out from multiple doors into the urban city night.

Notes: Very vivid. The scene with the girl was erotic, very interactive and viscerally sexual.

What does the dream want? To demonstrate the state of my current sexual orientation and opportunities.

What does the dream want: Review my sexual desires?

Tree Frog Kitten

Wednesday August 14, 2019 Noon

Busiest Office Worker

I am in an office setting with Debbie. She just finished one task, closed the door and exactly as the door closed the phone rnag. I comment how amazingly, constantly busy she is.

Most Efficient Office Staff

I am talking with someone in the office about how incredibly efficient the office staff is. They work as a team and get so much done. They do twice the work as others would and have fun.

Tree Frog Kitten

I am watching the antics of a kitten. The scene is cartoon like The kitten is in a line of kittens circling around the room. The energetic one casually gets out of the line by walking up the wall a couple of feet and then butting into the line a few cats up.

Pissing in the Freezer

I am back in the office and helping to clean up. I piss in the freezer and then proceed to clean it up. In the end the freezer and everything else in the kitchen is very clean.

Multiple Awards/Gifts for Debbie

I am with someone, maybe the boss. They are preparring several items that are going to be presented to debbie for all of her good work. The is one large one, may be a special rock. It is wrapped and is put aside to give to her later.

Bump and Grind with the Black Secretary

I am working with Debbie's secretary. She is young, beautiful, black and very into me. She is touching me and pushing her chest into mine. We are talking about getting together is other circumstances because Debbie could walk in any moment and it would hurt her feelings. I can feel the bump of the secretary's vigina on my croch.

Notes: Have not have weed for a few days. I was able to remember and go back into the dreams even after moving slightly. This is the second dream where I can feel a woman's genitals pressing against me.

What does the Dream want? For me to work hard, with others.

Elvis in Carrboro

Monday August 12, 2019 1:00am

Elvis in Carrboro  (Choline 500mg, Galantamine 8mg)

I am with Cindy at some roadside event. I need to retrieve Alex, we are not far from home. I begin the walk and immediately have difficulty. I find myself on a street I do not recognize. I call Cindy (or ask out loud) do we have an eBay street? The dream is very vivid and detailed. I walk thru a line of bushes with gaps just big enough for a person.

I am returning in Cindy's car with Alex, but the going it rough. At some point I get to the bushes that a car won't fit through. I run into a cart full of things from a rummage sale. Somehow an electrical appliance comes on in some way connected to the car (maybe thru the windshield) The car turns over or nearly so.

I look up and the sky is amazing and beautiful. I say out loud, it look like a petri dish. I turn to tell Alex and when I look back ti has changed. As I look at it is changing rapidly. There are many shapes migrating rapidly across the sky and changing in shape and color.

There are several people milling around and I ask loudly for help. A man responds and then is briefly out of sight. I panic but he appears and come to the car. We know each other from past encounters, but we can't remember each other's names. He pronounces his and gives a phonetic reminder on how to pronounce it (Solevey?) He looks me straight in the eyes just inches away. Do we know each other from the ManKind Project, The Y? Yes, he says and Elvis too. I think to myself, must have been the Elvis parade in Carrboro.  I wake. Amazed yet frustrated I did not go lucid.

Notes: I had a pre-lucid dream the night before actually saying in the dream, "Am I dreaming.?" I believe part of me is screaming "wake up" in my dream. Maybe in my waking life as well.

What does the dream want? For me to wake up in my dreams and in my life. Wow.

How do I respond? First by adding this prompt to my dream journal. I Googled "how to listen to that small voice in your head." Meditation. Plus attention to detail. Plus, ask, be quiet, listen, and then follow the advice.  Commitment to action (Followed up in Burton 5.0) meditate 30 minutes a day from now on.

Wednesday August ,  2019 12:00pm

Un-stealing with Guns

I am part of a group of people all being coordinated for a large effort aimed at putting something back that was stolen. I am mostly an observer. A large vehicle is filled with several people capsizes and people spill out, unhert, but very ineffectual. 

I have a series of dreams falling in and out of this location. Repeated incompetencies with guns and poorly planned activities. 

Notes: Don't remember dreaming about guns before. Spent a lot of time on line looking at them. Discovered 6.8 SPC rounds. I want an AR chambered in 6.8. I should be a pistol/handgun first and get competent with it.

What does the dream want: For me to progress slowly (or not at all) on any gun purchase.

Medieval Carbonite Freeze

Friday August 2, 2019 1:00pm

Medieval Carbonite Freeze

Individual Protection Segment

I am in a large public facility that is a combination of a transportation hub and a hotel. I am processing myself and my luggage.

I am putting myself through a machine process that creates an ultimate protective unit. I am being converted into a solid box of thick wooden slats banded with a massive (4" thick) cast iron frame. The boards bulge in the middle as I am  converted into wood. The finished product  feels very safe, but very permanent. The result is a 3ft x 3ft x 6in solid piece of wood. As it comes out of the machine, it bulges up to a foot thick as my body is processed into the form. 

         

                                                Star Wars                   Individual Protection

Personal Belongings Segment

I am now standing in front of another  large machine that is designed to pack your bags. There is a large mechanical mechanism that starts with a massive lock.  I discover that it does not have a unique key, buy only a very heavy and unique way to turn the machine on. It takes everything in my compact bag and processes it into organized compartments.

I am helping an attractive woman with the machine, but her possessions are very numerous, poorly organized and not in one bag. She is working on getting them all stuffed into one bag.

We are watching the results from another younger woman whose very numerous possessions are being processed but are overwhelming the machine and becoming disorganized.

Notes: I awoke very happy that I could remember and name the dream elements. I went over the names numerous times before opening my eyes.

What does the dream wnat? Take it to the dream group. I feel like it is related to my struggling getting my shit together (income, intimacy, health).

Dream Life: Dreams ≡ Life

Friday July 12, 2019  1:00pm

Dream Life

Just changed the name of this blog from Carrboro Dreamers to "Dream Life." This change reflects my realizations on the interdependence of dreams and what we call real life or objective reality. I have expressed it logically as Dreams ≡ Life. (x ≡ y means x is defined to be another name for y)
I like to think of  ≡ as Super Equal.

The change of name also reflects that I will be journaling brief  life events in this blog as well. I hope to reserve the domain name,, DreamLife.net and use it going forward as a foundation for my dream work.

Found this image on the web, shout out to...

Kirsten Weinzierl

Blogger and Coach, Obtaining Bliss

https://www.dreamlifeisreallife.com/

Plan it Like a Military Operation

Sunday July 7th, 2019 8:30am

Plan it Like a Military Operation

I am on a campus with many people participating in a training operation for military aviation. I am the pilot in a team that has a very specific mission to perform. We are to extract a small package from the ground as part of the operation.

It is the night before the big event and we are getting together in our teams. I meet my two team members outside on the lawn with many people coming and going. We agree to meet later and finalize our plans.

I am walking around trying to find a good spot to meet and have some ideas based on earlier explorations, including into some places that are likely off limits. I am going through winding hallways, back doors and small nooks to find a place. I realize I don't know where my team members arte. I am now rushing all over trying to find the others. I see all the other grounds settling into their planning sessions. I begin to panic and feel like crying. I  realize the irony in crying at  military operation.

I wake, upset and disappointed. I reflect for a moment and try and reenter the dream. I realize that I can plan the whole operation myself. Including detailed scripts for each participant. Hopefully the others are doing the same. When we find each other we can compare the plans and make last minute corrections.

I wake the second time with a renewed sense or hope based on organization. "Plan it Like a Military Operation."

Notes: The immediate idea that comes to mind is to put a time on each todo item on my list.  Hard to get around. Shit! Being in a large institutional setting and not doing well is a common theme for me. Nice to see a happy ending. I was not able to fully rejoin the dream but greatly benefited from opening myself to the dream's agenda/theme.

What does the dream want? For me to get things done.

After tiny bit of research...from an article on What the Military Can Teach Us About Productivity

1. Make Your Bed

2. Be More Stoic
(The point is that “sometimes, no matter how well you prepare, or how well you perform, you still end up as a sugar cookie*… if you want to change the world, get over being a sugar cookie, and keep moving forward”.)

3. Find Your Battle Rhythm

4. Tackle Small Tasks Right Now (Less than 5 minutes)

5. Keep Going (A circus was two hours of additional calisthenics, designed to wear you down, to break your spirit, to force you to quit. During the training period everyone went to the Circus. The interesting thing, however, was that those students who were routinely invited to the Circus became stronger and faster: The pain of the Circus built inner strength and physical resiliency.)

Increasing Your Productivity 

(The military’s approach to productivity: To turn up and do the work, no matter what,)

* For failing uniform inspection, the student had to run fully clothed into the surf zone. Then, wet from head to toe, roll around on the beach until every part of your body was covered with sand… you stayed in the uniform the rest of the day: cold, wet, and sandy. The effect was known as sugar cookie.

Clueless at School

Thursday May 30, 2019  1:15pm

Clueless at School

I am getting dressed and preparing to go to college classes. I am wearing  a coat, commo bottom and some sort of shirt. As I review each class I realize I have barely gone to class and am clueless as to what is going on. I imagine the teachers perspective and don't see a way they can pass me, even if they wanted to. I woke feeling sad.

Note: This is a repeating dream theme I have had many times.

What does the dream want?  For me to get organized and productive. I felt much better during the day as I made plans for being productive. So far, done some shopping for things to organize the house but no real progress.

Climbing Party Street

Wednesday May 15, 2019 10:25am

Climbing Party Street

I am on a night on the town with a female friend. We are pub crawling, but it is exptime. Every step we take is climbing stairs and pushing through bodies pressed together in a continuous crowd. I recognize that I have been here before (pre-lucid?). There is something dangerously mystical about the place.

I loose my friend in the crowd. I find myself following Cindy through the crowd. She takes some turns and steps up that are impossible to follow and I lose her as well. I wake excited about dreaming after another series of dreams.

Notes: Excited by details and familiarity of the dream scene.  Want to go back to previous lucid encounters in a similar space.

What does the dream want? Know that I am lost in my loneliness. Hope for future dreaming.

Miniature Dreaming Facilitator

Monday May 11, 2019 12:25 pm

Miniature Dreaming  Facilitator

I am talking with a friend and colleague. We are handling and discussing the new Dream Makers (made up name after the dream) I just completed. They are like the regular models, but tiny. They fit in your hand.  We are joking what would happen if you deployed them like a regular one. An example was what would happen if you put one under a car tire. The normal one would act like a friction mat, the new tiny one would be a tiny joke.

It was not clear if the tiny ones would actually work under some circumstances. We were just making jokes about how silly they would be in many deployments.

Notes: Until I went to write down the dream, it was not clear how dream logic based the whole idea was.  It made perfect sense in the dream and for a while afterwards. I was clueless as to the absurd nature of the devices.

What does the dream want?  For me to get my act together and learn to lucid dream.

Roofless Facility in the Woods, Multiple Scenes Drifting In and Out

Friday May 10, 2019 (Dreams form 6:30 to 11:00a m)

Roofless Facility in the Woods
Multiple Scenes Drifting In and Out

I am walking through a large multi-room facility. It is on a hill in the woods. The walls are 10+ feet made of concrete. The floor is grass and slopes with the hill. There is no roof or ceiling. There are many people walking around. I am not part of the group.

I try and engage a man to see what is going on. I stand right next to him briefly. He is naked. He does not respond to my presence.

I see a man only inches away from his face. I am startled by the clarity.

I see a woman, possibly naked, She is next to a second person that looks like her but has steel mechanics on the inside of he muth. I get the idea that this scene is about suicide and become afraid.

I am in a bed with Cindy. We she is trying to call her parents. The call is not going through and I realize she is using the base unit to one of the devices that are scattered about the facility. Another piece clicks on top and it acts like a handheld computer of some sort. This realization makes me fearful.

I am looking at the crystal clear scene of a woman talking. I am very close. I realize I can not here her voice. As I drink back and forth into the dream I can hear her voice very distinctly. (I can remember it even now).

I wake from the series of dreams very upbeat and energetic.

Notes: 500mg Choline x1, 4mg Galatimine x2.  I am taking the clarityj of some of the scenes and the going back into the dream and hearing a voice (after requesting it) a precusor to a lucid dream.  NEED TO MEDITATE!!!

What does the dream want? For me to become lucid.

Failing at Medical School

Friday May 10, 2019\ 6:45am

Failing at Medical School

I am in school with several other students but have a close relationship with one of them. It i s mslr who is exceptionally organized in his note taking and multiple binder organization. He has laid them out on the lawn and has others helping with the sorting and assembling. I look at his approach and see how poorly organized my study habits are. I am contemplating quitting but need to see the program head who is very intimidating.

The leader's persona is very militaristic, he is more like a strict general than an academic. I am questioning my progress and whether is was a good idea to begin studying the program to begin with. I ask myself if I would go to me as a doctor. I think the answer is no. As I am stressing over the talk with the program leader I wake.

Notes: Clear memory of dream after waking. Feel like a failure, sad etc. Since I can be multiple characters in the dream, the super organization may also be part of me.

What does the dream want?  For me to move on with a new direction in my life?

Me Too Troll

Saturday April 27, 2019

1:30pm

Me Too Troll

I am talking to a young woman at a bar. I am leaning in too close and making here uncomfortable. She may be black. She leans around me and steel a kiss. She looks at me in total disgust. Long pause on her wrinkled up chin.

Notes: Very clear and brief.

What does the dream want? For me to get a real intimacy and sex life? (Start a sex therapy clinic. Use volunteer sex surrogates) 

Working Around the Facility (Vivid with Conversation)

Tuesday March 19, 2019 5:30[pm

Working Around the Facility

I an with my wife ordering something at a lunch counter. I have having an extended exchange with the  older man working the counter. I am being difficult. He responds efficiently but is obviously getting pissed. He comments at the end if I am always this way.

I am leaving the facility with a  young woman, I am young. Here father is with us. As we go by the last corner of the facility I see that a long log that supports a banner is no longer on the lip of the building supporting it. I hang upside down, move it back in place, but the other end becomes unconnected and falls down. Her father scowls. I wake.

Notes: The dream had a series of sequences. It was amazingly vivid and I remember hearing the conversation (last night in Dream Group I reflected to myself that i rarely have dream with sound.

What does the dream want?  For me to be less of a asshole. (Synchronicity...Just watched Tim Ferris's short video on the topic). The dream is encouraging me to get more into dreaming buy making them more vivid and multi-sensual.

Journey to Another Planet

Sunday February  24, 2019

Journey to Another Planet

I am with a group of people. We are trying to break into an enclosure on another planet. The door is a large wooden structure like in an old castle. And then banging on the same door but from the inside.

There are large numbers of people walking around. Whole atmospheres feels very repressive. There are these creatures that are sort of guards that punish you if you get out of line.

After dinner after an extended. Of time Adventure North out of the city. I am in a narrow winding tunnel. It's got holes in the side and I can see outside. There are strange creatures lurking about they do not seem dangerous. I keep walking for a long time and find myself in a new city. A paragraph

There are crowds of people that are being rounded up and processed for military service. I'm with someone and we are grab what in line. There is a small child with me that's two years old and they just drop it in the dirt and wet. And leave it to die.

I am now leaving the city but I'm in a car with three other people we are slowly driving through crowded streets observing strangeness.

I'm now back in the original city but I'm planning another excursion north. May even do it on a regular basis to see what I can discover. But ukulele if there is a place that is less repressive. However I'm aware of the dangers of being caught or in some way delayed in the tunnels either by others or by a natural disaster. Briefly considered trying to get outside the tunnels into the open areas not sure how dangerous that would be.

Notes: This dream was very long and went in and out of it several times even after going to the bathroom.

What does the dream want? For me to get out of my old repressive ways break new territory.