Epic Dream on Campus

Thursday
8:02 am

Epic Dream on Campus

1. I am finishing a dark mysterious run with the track team. We emerge from running in the jungle. I feel fully engaged, curious, amazed by being so physical.

2. New equipment arrives. I am looking through the last of the new jerseys. They are a shell with soft linings for running in cool weather. Long sleeve with slight v-neck. I see size 12, then 16. I am trying to figure out what the sizes mean. Size does matter, I pick a jersey I think will fit Cindy. I also geet purple running shoes. I reflect for a moment and can not remember the two things I am doing - or picking up are.

I discuss with Cindy the selection I have made for her. She says she may be less interested in running and may have something else in mind.

3. I am sitting at a long table outside with the team. I introduce myself to a team member. I ask him about the salt crystals all over our skin. Is it safe? He starts explaining and then launches into a dramatic expansive performance (like a Broadway production). When it is over, I comment to another team member that I still do not know the answer to the question.

4. I am mulling over joining the team with one of the members. He goes over all the logistics, emails, etc.that are required. We are discussing the leadership style of the team leader. He is inspiring but very loose. I decide to join.

5. I am in a car with Cindy and two other women.  She is yelling at me for something.I hold her shoulders, look her in the eyes and say we love eah other and don't need to argue.

6.I am with an old female friend. He leans over to kiss my cheek and I move an kiss her lips. She comments that Cindy has been challenged to deal with me. I realize that this is a very different perspective than my own.

7. I am waling up hill following other team members on a winding route through campus.  I am not only joining the team but am going back to school full time. I am elated with the decision even though there is lots of uncertainty.

8. In the middle of my elation I find myself inside a building. The climb is over. Some of the team are exiting the building to the right - they are going outside down a long flight of wooden stair. I am uncertain to stay inside and turn to the left or follow them down and to the right. I realize I do not remember where I am or where I am going. I wake sad and confused.

Notes: Elated that I could remember the dream so well (so many scenes) I wake feeling lost and confused immediately afterwords I a feel elated, cheerful and fully engaged.

What does the dream want?

• treat Cindy better
• do more exercise
• embrace new directions with unknown challenges and solutions.
• join a team
• be mindful- do not let myself become lost and confused.
• Dream more!!!
• Get back into email