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Tuesday, April 28, 2020

Guilty Lying Thief

Tuesday April 28, 2020 7:00 am
Guilty Lying Thief

I am using crazy Rube Goldberg steering wheel setup while talking on phone. A truck veers to miss me and crashes. I move on, leaving the scene of an accident, unscathed and unnoticed? [Guilty]

As I am driving I consider turning myself in. Then I realize I am in a story (lucid dream?). So if I am in a story do I need to turn myself in or just wait and see how the story turns out?

I arrive at a school/college and am tremendously guilty and fearful I will be discovered. It is all over the news. I keep my head down an rapidly navigate the rest of the dream.

I am with a group working on cleaning and I as assigned to help with the floor. I see the edge of the soles of my shoes (look like slippers with soft soles) are muddy. I take care to wash off the dirt carefully (to conceal the evidence). I am very proud of my thoroughnes.

I arrive home or at a friends house, there are children about. We are preparing for a nap and I realize my shoes are still wet and am thinking about drying them with a towel, on the sly.

I am now in a busy hallway with students coming and going and in open rooms I can peer into. Everyone is working on various immediate tasks. As I am leaving the area for a space more secluded I am assigned a task by the principal/dean. It comes in the form of a note dangling in the air in front of me. I take it. It is a writing assignment. There is a fellow student/friend (black woman) walking with me. The assignment is based on a single word. She asks if I know the word. I say yes dismissively,  [Lying]but have uncertainties I do not express. As we are walking up some stairs and out the door I grab a paperback dictionary. [Thief]  She is still reading my assignment over my shoulder, playing with words out loud and announces something like Mocha Boca!


Notes: Very vivid. Woke up, used bathroom and returned still remembering the dream. Tried to reenter...only marginally successful. 

What does the dream want? For me to have more integrity.

Reality Check: May be about the stuff I am buying under the guise of real estate investment, e.g., nice knives,

Bumper Sticker: My guiding principle is this: Guilt is never to be doubted

– Franz Kafka
Dreams to Action: Give up my knives? Meditate on this...really meditate, 24 min+

Ideas from Dream Group Discussion: This dream is profoundly positive. What appears as a series of misteps are bumps along the path to be a better pereson. Should I dwell on the problems of the past or the direction forard. The one word that explains it all...it's simple. Hanging in front of my nose, like Groucho Marx', You Bet Your Life. Not necessarily easy, but simple. What is that word? Does it matter?

Say the secret word and win a hundred dollars.” | 100 Classic TV ...





Wednesday, April 22, 2020

On Mission or Clueless (For Group?)

Wednesday April 22, 2020 7:20 am

On Mission or Clueless

I am with a group of policemen in a business office. A note has just come in about an urgent matter. A female officer is reading the note, but instead of reading it, she is having extreme emotional reactions.  I get frustrated with her and yell at her to just read it our loud.

We begin the mission in a loose group and are walking to our destination. We have a female straggler and  I am concerned she will not catch up to us.

Even though I am still aware of the urgency, I find myself in bed with an attractive woman.We are fooling around and play arguing over the blanket. We are not fighting over who gets it, but it is warn and we are fighting over who it gets pushed onto. The scene changes but the two of us are in the same orientation on the lawn in front of a restaurant window. A police officer leans out the window and tries to take charge of the scene. He pulls out his revolver and shoots the woman I am with. She is shot in the shoulder and I am near panic and am thinking about how we are going to report this. A second officer, who is black, leans out the window and intends to take care of all the confusion. He pulls out his automatic and shots her dead in the heart. I am confused, shocked and dismayed but still remember the mission and continue walking to our destination.

Even with the sense of urgency I decide to stop at an empty donut shop. I go in and go behind the counter.  I get a glazed donut by reaching into the display case and am very proud of myself. The shop is now full of people and I decide I want another one. There is a hanging mass of sweet rolls and such hanging in a big mess. Another office is beside me and has his eye on a danish in the middle of the mess but is uncertain on how to proceed. There is a waiter next to us and I work how how to pay him with cast and no change so I can proceed with the mission rapidly. I announce my justification for needing a second donut and shout I have not eaten and need sugar NOW!

I proceed to the destination and notice my truck parked outside. My partner is inside and I talk to him while rapidly walking by. I tell him things are a big mess and we will need to cover our asses by making a lot of stuff up. I hear a small voice from inside and it is my young son. He was apparently in the truck. We all three proceed to the building in front of us. I tell my son I am going to an important meeting and he needs to keep a low profile.

We enter a school building and there are many people in the lobby. I begin investigating by heading down a hallway. It immediately becomes apparent that there is a group leader and I was basically clueless. She is a substantial black woman who is obviously in a position of authority. She tells us there is something very important she wants to show us and for us to follow her. She takes our group out of the building and into an open parking lot under the building. We are walking to the outside when the group sees a suspiciously acting young child moving rapidly outside.

He sees us and tries to run along a fence line. I tell them I will take care of it. It is my son I am now chasing. Just as I overtake him he lays down and becomes motionless on the ground. He all but disappears as he is naturally camouflaged in some way. I know exactly where he is because I was only a couple of feet away when he essentially morphed into a pile of brown sticks and leaves. I tell him I see him and to get up, not scolding him in anyway, but being emphatic. I call back to the group that I will handle the situation and take him over my shoulder to carry him to safety. As I am holding him over my shoulder he turns into an aluminium latter.

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Notes: I am on day three of a water fast and doing well but my mind has been racing. I have lots of idea about preceding with the Pine Street Annex, but am unsure exactly how to proceed. As soon as my head hit the pillow I started dreaming. This dream was complex and multifaceted. I reviewed it many times before opening my eyes and fully waking. I kept forgetting parts and having new sequences introduced. May have been 10 or 20 minutes of review. Very encouraged by vividness of the dream and my ability to piece together the parts even after moving in bed (including removing an ace bandage on my knee). I want to go back to the Robert Moss class and take it over.

What does the dream want?  For me to stay on mission? Is family more important? What would that mean in terms of a way forward?
Reality check: The blanket scene may be related to I was too warm under the covers when I was reviewing the dream before fully waking.
Bumper StickerStay on Mission But Stay Aware of Your Surroundings
Dreams to Action: Get focused on getting things done but stay intouch with those important to me.

Thursday, April 9, 2020

Before I Die

Thursday April 9, 2020 8:00 am

Before I Die

I am in an office in a discussion with a coworker. He expresses concern about me and wonders if I have been crying. I am taken aback and it takes a bit to sort out my feelings. I explain to him that Pap is dying and we want to see him more. Moving closer is not really an option, we haven't even fully discussed the situation as a family. Now that I am thinking through it, it is out of the question. But the "concerned" coworker seems to have inserted themselves into a conversation that hasn't even happened yet. I am a bit pissed.




Candy Chang is the artist and creator behind the public initiative ¨Before I die…¨ After losing a close friend to liver failure, Chang spent time contemplating her life and how she would like to live out the remainder of her days. After thinking about death, she had the idea that this surely must be a universal thing that many people contemplate – and she was right.
The original wall was put up on an abandoned building in New Orleans, Louisiana. So many people resonated with the wall, that Chang decided to make it a global art project. Now, more than 2,000 walls have been created in over 76 countries, with 35 languages.   https://urnabios.com/before-i-die-wall-global-art-project-inspires/

Notes: As I woke I realized I was in a dream, didn't move and tried to remember it, name it, etc. I think the detailed thinking was done during this part. It is very complex for a dream. The name "Before I Die" came to me as a title, even though the pending death in the dream was Pap's. I reflected on my future and again came to the conclusion that my path forward is uncertain. I don't want to die alone (emotionally), which is how I feel now.  When awake I realized I had a pretty emotional response to my coworker...likely some shadow going on, no definitely.


What does the dream want?  For me to align my soul with my daily activity.
Reality check: No one is dying...well lots of folks are dying of the Corona virus, but no one I know.
Bumper Sticker: It's A Good Day to Die.
Dreams to Action: Get my shit together, then talk with Cindy.

Sunday, April 5, 2020

Making it Perfect

Sunday April 5, 2020 12:00 pm

Making it Perfect

I am watching something being made out of wood. It is a block of wood that is very precisely shaped into a metal framework that puts a lot of pressure on it, but makes it very exact. I feel like the dreamer was female. I went in and out of multiple dreams over a couple of hours. While the  wood work was very precise it was apparent that I was not getting the technical details and was basically uninformed. It was like I was taking a short cut.

In another variation an eco-friendly device was being built, but again, I was not knowledgeable about the technical details.

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Not sure how this image is relevant...but it came up looking for "facile". Tricky word can be easy in a good way (keep it simple)  or a bad way (ignoring complexity).

Notes: Surprising dreams after getting high before bed. Being doing a lot of thinking and planning about woodwork. Including structural work on the foundation.

What does the dream want?  Do more research and start small on complex projects.

Reality check: Very close to ongoing concerns in my waking world. Could be close to literal interpretation.

Bumper StickerNot Facile, Keep it Real.

Dreams to Action: Keep going. Be careful. Be organized. (recycled from anther dream)

Sunday, March 29, 2020

Protecting the vulnerable

Sunday March 29, 2020  11:00 am

Protecting the Vulnerable 
I am trying to avoid a deadly infection that seems to be falling from the sky.  I am making my way down a wall. There is siding on the wall that moves and bulges out as I make my way to the ground and safety. It forms a moving small roof over my head that is keeping something falling from the sky from getting on me and killing me. I am a police officer. I also see individuals making the same journey. We are not working together and I see how each of us is more vulnerable by not trusting or coordinating.

The individuals trying to get to safety are Muslims and have a distrust of American authority. I see clearly how we must each coordinate the timing of our efforts to made our way down the wall. As we move and let each other know our plans the efforts are more successful.

Motivation Monday: Volunteers helping the self-isolated - WTX News

Notes: I've been watching an insipid Netflix series about a deadly virus in Atlanta. In the series people are shot for trying to enter or leave a hot zone downtown.

What does the dream want?  For me to thing about how I can help people in a time of crisis.

Reality check: Going on right outside my door. Can I do anything? Contact a church.

Bumper StickerSupport From a Safe Distance, but Support.

Dreams to Action: Call a local church, volunteer meal/food delivery.

Sunday, February 23, 2020

The Old Station

Sunday February 23, 2020 9:30 am

The Old Station
I am in an old building. It is very funky and hard to tell even what its intended purpose is. There are two old guys working and living in it. I go through a series of related dreams before I finally wake.

There is a a huge structure attached to the building that is unstable. At one point it moves, as part of its original function, but it is very unstable. As I go back and forth into the dream, I decide it is a crane and that the structure may have been a radio station. We are cleaning up the mess and sorting out old junk in the living space. At other points there is a woman and scenes outside the structure. While I am confused as to exactly the structure is, I like it a lot and wake happy and energized.

Notes: Initially the dream made no sense, but seems to be a very fitting parallel to my own life. Its purpose is unclear, it is old, things that used to done are now stiff and possibly dangerous to move, affection is infused into the structure.

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What does the dream want?  Rehab these houses (The Inn at Loon Lake and The Pine Street Annex) as I rehab my life. Discover purpose through action, not just contemplation. A fundamental part of my life is communication.

Reality check: What was confusing and vague is now clear and obvious. In a variant of an old movie title You Are What You Eat, You Are What You Do. So do good works.

Bumper Sticker: Right Action; Right Mind

Dreams to Action: Keep going. Be careful. Be organized.







Thursday, February 20, 2020

The Vegas Glitter Queen

Thursday February 20, 2020 10:15 am (Partially lucid, hyonogoggic)

The Vegas Glitter Queen
I am watching a young woman perform. She is in along limousine. She has arrived at her destination and is preparring to exiting the vehicle and make an entrance. There is no immediate special event, but she has planned every moment. She has on fabulous makeup and her outfit is black with many sequins. Her top is a short jacket with lapels that are stiff and stick out. She has crisply styled jet black shortly clipped hair. She is wearing shoes that she bought two pair and discarded one of each to get the look she wanted. She steps out and checks herself out in a full length mirror at the entrance to the venue.

I am talking with the driver as we are both impressed with the level of effort and skill that has gone into her preparation. The driver is a friend I know in waking life, D.G. We both want to help. There is a small step stool that I put one foot on and it slides across the front floor of the vehicle until I am at almost full splits (a move that would put me in the hospital at the moment). We discuss a GoFundMe page for her. I am trying to get a good look at her face to figure out who she is. I am also very curious about her motivation and ask her about it.

I see her face clearly but do not recognize her. She tells me that her motivation is to show her kid how you can become anything you put your mind to. An astronaut,a a scientist...whatever.

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Notes: Not as intense as full lucid dream, but I was aware I was dreaming and making decisions; "I want to see her face and "why is she doing this?" Similar to scenarios created by Robert Moss in his class.

What does the dream want? For me to become my fully expressed self.

Reality Check: No so much...but pay attention for synchronicity.

Bumper Sticker: Manifest Destiny

Dreams to Action: Get snowmobile & electric piano? Or is that spending shadow?

FYI: The hypnopompic state (or hypnopompia) is the state of consciousness leading out of sleep, a term coined by the psychical researcher Frederic Myers. Its mirror is the hypnagogic state at sleep onset; though often conflated, the two states are not identical. The hypnagogic state is rational waking cognition trying to make sense of non-linear images and associations; the hypnopompic state is emotional and credulous dreaming cognition trying to make sense of real world stolidity. They have a different phenomenological character.

Hypnagogia, also referred to as "hypnagogic hallucinations", is the experience of the transitional state from wakefulness to sleep: the hypnagogic state of consciousness, during the onset of sleep (for the transitional state from sleep to wakefulness see hypnopompic). Mental phenomena that may occur during this "threshold consciousness" phase include hallucinations, lucid thought, lucid dreaming, and sleep paralysis. The latter two phenomena are themselves separate sleep conditions that are sometimes experienced during the hypnagogic state.
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The word hypnagogia is sometimes used in a restricted sense to refer to the onset of sleep, and contrasted with hypnopompia, Frederic Myers's term for waking up.[2] However, hypnagogia is also regularly employed in a more general sense that covers both falling asleep and waking up, and Havelock Ellis has questioned the need for separate terms.[3] Indeed, it is not always possible in practice to assign a particular episode of any given phenomenon to one or the other, given that the same kinds of experience occur in both, and that people may drift in and out of sleep. In this article hypnagogia will be used in the broader sense, unless otherwise stated or implied.

Other terms for hypnagogia, in one or both senses, that have been proposed include "presomnal" or "anthypnic sensations", "visions of half-sleep", "oneirogogic images" and "phantasmata",[3] "the borderland of sleep", "praedormitium",[4] "borderland state", "half-dream state", "pre-dream condition",[5] "sleep onset dreams",[6] "dreamlets",[7] and "wakefulness-sleep transition" (WST).[8]

Threshold consciousness (commonly called "half-asleep" or "half-awake", or "mind awake body asleep") describes the same mental state of someone who is moving towards sleep or wakefulness, but has not yet completed the transition. Such transitions are usually brief, but can be extended by sleep disturbance or deliberate induction, for example during meditation.[citation needed]

Frederic William Henry Myers (6 February 1843 – 17 January 1901) was a poet, classicist, philologist, and a founder of the Society for Psychical Research.[1] Myers' work on psychical research and his ideas about a "subliminal self" were influential in his time, but have not been accepted by the scientific community.[

Myers wrote a small collection of essays, Science and a Future Life which was published in 1893. In 1903, after Myers's death, Human Personality and Its Survival of Bodily Death was compiled and published. This work comprises two large volumes at 1,360 pages in length and presents an overview of Myers's research into the unconscious mind.[26][58][59] Myers believed that a theory of consciousness must be part of a unified model of mind which derives from the full range of human experience, including not only normal psychological phenomena but also a wide variety of abnormal and "supernormal" phenomena.[58][59] In the book, Myers believed he had provided evidence for the existence of the soul and survival of personality after death. The book cites cases of automatic writing, hypnotism, mediumship, possession, psychokinesis, and telepathy.[60]