On Mission or Clueless
I am with a group of policemen in a business office. A note has just come in about an urgent matter. A female officer is reading the note, but instead of reading it, she is having extreme emotional reactions. I get frustrated with her and yell at her to just read it our loud.
We begin the mission in a loose group and are walking to our destination. We have a female straggler and I am concerned she will not catch up to us.
Even though I am still aware of the urgency, I find myself in bed with an attractive woman.We are fooling around and play arguing over the blanket. We are not fighting over who gets it, but it is warn and we are fighting over who it gets pushed onto. The scene changes but the two of us are in the same orientation on the lawn in front of a restaurant window. A police officer leans out the window and tries to take charge of the scene. He pulls out his revolver and shoots the woman I am with. She is shot in the shoulder and I am near panic and am thinking about how we are going to report this. A second officer, who is black, leans out the window and intends to take care of all the confusion. He pulls out his automatic and shots her dead in the heart. I am confused, shocked and dismayed but still remember the mission and continue walking to our destination.
Even with the sense of urgency I decide to stop at an empty donut shop. I go in and go behind the counter. I get a glazed donut by reaching into the display case and am very proud of myself. The shop is now full of people and I decide I want another one. There is a hanging mass of sweet rolls and such hanging in a big mess. Another office is beside me and has his eye on a danish in the middle of the mess but is uncertain on how to proceed. There is a waiter next to us and I work how how to pay him with cast and no change so I can proceed with the mission rapidly. I announce my justification for needing a second donut and shout I have not eaten and need sugar NOW!
I proceed to the destination and notice my truck parked outside. My partner is inside and I talk to him while rapidly walking by. I tell him things are a big mess and we will need to cover our asses by making a lot of stuff up. I hear a small voice from inside and it is my young son. He was apparently in the truck. We all three proceed to the building in front of us. I tell my son I am going to an important meeting and he needs to keep a low profile.
We enter a school building and there are many people in the lobby. I begin investigating by heading down a hallway. It immediately becomes apparent that there is a group leader and I was basically clueless. She is a substantial black woman who is obviously in a position of authority. She tells us there is something very important she wants to show us and for us to follow her. She takes our group out of the building and into an open parking lot under the building. We are walking to the outside when the group sees a suspiciously acting young child moving rapidly outside.
He sees us and tries to run along a fence line. I tell them I will take care of it. It is my son I am now chasing. Just as I overtake him he lays down and becomes motionless on the ground. He all but disappears as he is naturally camouflaged in some way. I know exactly where he is because I was only a couple of feet away when he essentially morphed into a pile of brown sticks and leaves. I tell him I see him and to get up, not scolding him in anyway, but being emphatic. I call back to the group that I will handle the situation and take him over my shoulder to carry him to safety. As I am holding him over my shoulder he turns into an aluminium latter.
Notes: I am on day three of a water fast and doing well but my mind has been racing. I have lots of idea about preceding with the Pine Street Annex, but am unsure exactly how to proceed. As soon as my head hit the pillow I started dreaming. This dream was complex and multifaceted. I reviewed it many times before opening my eyes and fully waking. I kept forgetting parts and having new sequences introduced. May have been 10 or 20 minutes of review. Very encouraged by vividness of the dream and my ability to piece together the parts even after moving in bed (including removing an ace bandage on my knee). I want to go back to the Robert Moss class and take it over.
What does the dream want? For me to stay on mission? Is family more important? What would that mean in terms of a way forward?
Reality check: The blanket scene may be related to I was too warm under the covers when I was reviewing the dream before fully waking.
Bumper Sticker: Stay on Mission But Stay Aware of Your Surroundings.
Dreams to Action: Get focused on getting things done but stay intouch with those important to me.
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