Incompetent, Aliens & Elephants

 Incompetent/Panicked

 I am in a group sleep-in sales competition. We are all trying to get a job with a big corporation and sleeping at the same facility in the process. It is the morning before the start of a big meeting. I need to shower, dress and still have time to write a report. i am running around trying to find an empty shower, choose to wear based on looking at the weather out the window and stop to have a discussion with one of the leaders.

I go shower after the discussion with my clothes and towel in hand, A tall fellow salesman is just finishing up, gets out and asks for my towel, I say no way, he keeps asking while standing nude in front of me with  a towel wrapped around his head. I finally throw a nice clean towel at him, he gives it back laughing. The shower is now taken. I wake screaming in frustration.

Notes: I was not literally screaming, but it felt like it. I have set an alarm for an important event and am aware of the time to the minute as I wake up and how detailed everything is. This is very close to a lucid dream. 

Aliens & Elephants

I am flying with a group of men/soldiers in a plane with open side doors. We see all kinds of movement on the ground below us. They look like humans, but somehow I know they are aliens attaching

I am now trapped inside a jeep-like vehicle with several people including a woman. There are several elephants attaching us and one is reaching into the vehicle trying to grab us.

Notes: These two dreams slide into each other. I notice while dreaming how vivid 

Law of the Ocean (Very short & vivid)

I am pulling up to a tall nondescript building with an all glass facade. I am driving a large sedan from the 40's or 50's. There is a sizable group of men waiting to get in? In a double row they pop up and down in small choreographed  groups. It is known that the building is filled with prostitutes.  The men proceed to rush into the building in single file ready for action. The last one in line is a young James Cagney. I vividly notice his thick wavy brown hair from the rear.

He is now sitting next to me and says clearly and audibly, "what we have here is the Law of the Ocean".

Notes: I wake feeling rested and vigorous. I move but am still able to return visually to the dream and recall details. I look up the phrase and found Law of the Sea, international agreements that apply on the world's oceans.

Naked and Starving (Needs Interpretation)

 Food Falling off paper plate

I am at a party in someone's house. I am loading food onto my paper plate and it drops to the floor under the weight of large pieces of meat. I go next door (right through an open section in the wall)  and get a hard plate to put under my paper plate to support the food. I look down and I have a large serving of something that looks like spaghetti formed like it would be under a hair net. The waitress/owner  is also holding a plate with the identical lump of food.

Search for food continues

I as crossing a large open space and a man is singing a long ditty that he may be improvising as we walk along, It seems to be relevant to the moment.

I am now observing an emaciated old man talking to a child that lives next door in an apartment hallway.  He seems to suffering/starving from continual food mishaps,

Apartment Nudity (later with several intervening dreams)

I am in my apartment and decide to leave. I find myself at a men's meeting and am carrying a toilet bowl in front of me, partially to hide my nudity, I think I may want help with the toilet. Oddly I have a pair of shorts I am holding in my hands as well. Cindy is also at the meeting with a female friend. I am slightly confused. 

I leave the meeting and find myself stepping very carefully through a bed of soil that has recently been finely graded and likely planted. The detail is very vivid (pre-lucid?) and the strings that define rows are very dark and only appear as I step on them,

I hear Cindy discussing a legal matter with a man on the street. Apparently a woman friend of hers has dropped our dog off at the apartment and left him unattended. The apartment is likely trashed. The man advises not to rush home and instead  consider the insurance ramifications of the situation.

Note: I incubated the idea that I wanted to remember my dreams before going to sleep. I reminded myself the review them before fully waking. This was pretty successful but still need to concisely name them instead of trying to remember all the detail. I woke up surprisingly late.

Religion Class

  (This is part of a long complex dream)

I am in a classroom and I just returned from a long journey. I’m trying to prepare myself for classes and I’m finding it challenging. I can sort of remember what my classes are but there are things that I’m not prepared for and things are moving pretty fast.

I leave preparing to go to one of my classes and find myself outside the door room of a class but I’m not sure what it is. There’s a long line of students that are slowly trickling into the class but they are all wearing elaborate costumes

At some point I realize that it is a religion class, although I had difficulty hearing when the teacher told me what the class was (his is not the first time that I’ve had difficulty hearing in my dreams). Not only do I realize what the class is about but I realize that I am now a parent and not a student. I’m in more of an observational role.

The the planned discussions start to unfold and I am observing from outside the class however I am communicating with at least one of the students, in the classroom.

Noah's Ark Theme

Notes: Dreams are now coming to me much more vividly and more often than they have been in quite a while. After I made my first entry into my dream journal in a long time. It was especially cold in the room last nigh.t Roy slept next to me and I felt very protected when I woke up

What does the dream want? 

Reality check: 

Bumper sticker: 

Dream yo action: 

Out of Control

 Saturday April 16th

I'm driving my car through a field slowly. I'm approaching a stream and the front wheels start sinking into the mud. I panic thinking I'm going into the stream. The car goes so far into the mud that it starts to turn around. I step on the gas and narrowly escape .

I am now in the city in a very tight alley. I go upstairs into a small restaurant. I am talking talking to 2 or 3 young kids. I'm trying to talk to a young girl and her brother is talking very fast and interrupting me. I suddenly realized that I left the car running and go outside. The car is in another location, possibly behind the building. It is very open. I look inside and the steering wheel is completely detached from the steering column. I am holding it in my hands. It is just a very smooth circle. The hub of the wheel that attached to the column is missing. As I start to wake I'm thinking about the dream so I can remember it and it is pretty obvious that the dream is about being out of control..

Notes: It has been a long time, two months, since I wrote in  this journal. Several of the latest  entries were uninterpreted.

What does the dream want? For me to get back in touch with my dreams and therefore back in control of my life.

Reality check: I am often a distracted driver, especially when starting up without my seatbelt engaged. This frightens and upsets Cindy.

Bumper sticker: Relax & steer.

Dream yo action: Never take the truck out of park without my seatbelt engaged and taking a deep breath.

The Sensuous Run

I am on a run with others. My senses are very attuned to my experience. I com to spot that drops off precipitously. I may be with John Cogswell. We are running on something like a college campus. We are running on well groomed grass. 

While the hill is very steep, I ptrceed done it without breaking my moderate pace. John may have been hesitant. While the descent is a bit harrowing I am being very careful yet confident. I am somewhat surprised at how fit I feel and feel joyful and exhilarated.

Thete is a group I am running with and I am keeping them insight. I run into Alex, also running. A make a mild joke to him whole we run together. It surprises the runner next to me and then I explain he is my son.

Are now slightly diverging with a clear battier between us, like a glass partition. I notice I don't see the trailing member of the group a head. I ask him if he is sure he know where he is going.

I wake with the joy of experiencing effortless running.

Noted: weather in the dream or now awake I realize how absurd it is to ask Alex if he knows where he's going. If anyone is lost it is me. I also realize that I was surprised in the dream that I was in such good shape, that is being slightly loosened as I was referring back to my waking self. 

Explode at Business Meeting

I am working with a group of people outside, possibly in a park. We are working through the details of a complex series of actions. Something like a political campaign. It goes on for some time there is a lot of interaction that increasingly feels irrelevant to me. I see someone walking towards the group and they signal that I have a phone call. I stand up quietly trying not to interrupt the meeting. I quietly signal them that I will be picking up the call in the process of leaving the group. 

A woman makes a comment about the call and warns me not to make too much noise so it doesn't interrupt the group. This angers me immediately. I'm thinking to myself but I made every effort to stay quiet and not interrupt the group and feel that's exactly what she's doing although she's saying it in a way that it sounds like it's my fault. 

I start shouting and having angry outburst and start listing all the ways that she is in surgery herself into my business and created a problem that didn't exist. While I am on this rant I can feel my lips sort of blabbering and I'm feel like I might be drooling. Yet this doesn't stop me I continue on my rant berating this woman. I wake exceedingly angry..

 

Notes:  While I have been taking online test for Price Chopper I've been getting very frustrated and had a couple of outbursts with someone else in the room. Well I don't know how big a problem this is I immediately reflected on my application at Fidelity and wonder if it's a good fit. The concern I have is that all the details are going to be frustrating it's not a good fit. There is a class that I can take independently online work through the process and see how I handle it. I also need to engage in ADHD counseling.

While searching for a picture I ran into this disturbing item, Intermittent Explosive Disorder (IED). Do I have it?

What does the dream want?  For me to chill and not over react to criticism.

Reality check:  Yup. Remember time we were driving at the beach going "the wrong way".

Bumper sticker:  Others opinions don't define me.

Dream to action: Get ADD Coaching.