Failing at Medical School

Friday May 10, 2019\ 6:45am

Failing at Medical School

I am in school with several other students but have a close relationship with one of them. It i s mslr who is exceptionally organized in his note taking and multiple binder organization. He has laid them out on the lawn and has others helping with the sorting and assembling. I look at his approach and see how poorly organized my study habits are. I am contemplating quitting but need to see the program head who is very intimidating.

The leader's persona is very militaristic, he is more like a strict general than an academic. I am questioning my progress and whether is was a good idea to begin studying the program to begin with. I ask myself if I would go to me as a doctor. I think the answer is no. As I am stressing over the talk with the program leader I wake.

Notes: Clear memory of dream after waking. Feel like a failure, sad etc. Since I can be multiple characters in the dream, the super organization may also be part of me.

What does the dream want?  For me to move on with a new direction in my life?

Me Too Troll

Saturday April 27, 2019

1:30pm

Me Too Troll

I am talking to a young woman at a bar. I am leaning in too close and making here uncomfortable. She may be black. She leans around me and steel a kiss. She looks at me in total disgust. Long pause on her wrinkled up chin.

Notes: Very clear and brief.

What does the dream want? For me to get a real intimacy and sex life? (Start a sex therapy clinic. Use volunteer sex surrogates) 

Working Around the Facility (Vivid with Conversation)

Tuesday March 19, 2019 5:30[pm

Working Around the Facility

I an with my wife ordering something at a lunch counter. I have having an extended exchange with the  older man working the counter. I am being difficult. He responds efficiently but is obviously getting pissed. He comments at the end if I am always this way.

I am leaving the facility with a  young woman, I am young. Here father is with us. As we go by the last corner of the facility I see that a long log that supports a banner is no longer on the lip of the building supporting it. I hang upside down, move it back in place, but the other end becomes unconnected and falls down. Her father scowls. I wake.

Notes: The dream had a series of sequences. It was amazingly vivid and I remember hearing the conversation (last night in Dream Group I reflected to myself that i rarely have dream with sound.

What does the dream want?  For me to be less of a asshole. (Synchronicity...Just watched Tim Ferris's short video on the topic). The dream is encouraging me to get more into dreaming buy making them more vivid and multi-sensual.

Journey to Another Planet

Sunday February  24, 2019

Journey to Another Planet

I am with a group of people. We are trying to break into an enclosure on another planet. The door is a large wooden structure like in an old castle. And then banging on the same door but from the inside.

There are large numbers of people walking around. Whole atmospheres feels very repressive. There are these creatures that are sort of guards that punish you if you get out of line.

After dinner after an extended. Of time Adventure North out of the city. I am in a narrow winding tunnel. It's got holes in the side and I can see outside. There are strange creatures lurking about they do not seem dangerous. I keep walking for a long time and find myself in a new city. A paragraph

There are crowds of people that are being rounded up and processed for military service. I'm with someone and we are grab what in line. There is a small child with me that's two years old and they just drop it in the dirt and wet. And leave it to die.

I am now leaving the city but I'm in a car with three other people we are slowly driving through crowded streets observing strangeness.

I'm now back in the original city but I'm planning another excursion north. May even do it on a regular basis to see what I can discover. But ukulele if there is a place that is less repressive. However I'm aware of the dangers of being caught or in some way delayed in the tunnels either by others or by a natural disaster. Briefly considered trying to get outside the tunnels into the open areas not sure how dangerous that would be.

Notes: This dream was very long and went in and out of it several times even after going to the bathroom.

What does the dream want? For me to get out of my old repressive ways break new territory.

They Mystery of the Sea

Sunday December 2, 2018  5:45 am

They Mystery of the Sea

I am moving up the coast and becoming one with the sea.  As I drift in and out of consciousness I struggle with the danger and complexity of allowing my mind to settle in to the waves and rocks immersed in the undulating swells. If I am not careful I will be lost to the sea; Yet the seduction is irresistible; The urge to be one.

Notes: I have just returned from Seattle/Tacoma.  I was taken with Vashon Island. I am getting over a head cold and breathing with the CPAP can be difficult.

What does the dream want? For me to meditate with the sounds of the sea.

NRA Youth Camp

Thursday 4:00 p.m.

NRA Youth Camp

I am in a car with Mike. We are being shot at by two people. I have no weapons but am considering responding in some way. I am then close by in a camp with lots of young people. They are all training to use guns. There are two young men who appear to be identical twins but are slightly different.  I get out of the car and tell them we are going to run the numbers to discuss their gun use.

I am woken by the doorbell.

Notes: I have spent lots of time recently researching purchasing guns. The increasing number of gun attacks in the US is startling. We just finished midterm elections.

What does the dream want?  Other than the relevance of the topic, I have no idea.

Human and Animals RIP

Monday October 22, 2018

Human and Animals RIP

I aw walking around the grounds of a newly acquired piece of property. I am with a man who is shewing me the ins and outs. Dora is checking out a place she can stay that is protected from the other dogs. There are many walking any playing around. She can see out from underneath a bench or something similar. I am thinking of Weejee, but she is not here. As we stroll the man explains that this is a place where owners and their dogs can come after death. Somehow, they can come beforehand as well. There is a long discussion of how an area can be customized to suite the dog and owner.

I am in a room and working on several details of the interior decorations. I am aware I am preparing the space for future use.

Notes: I wake up at least twice and am able to return to the dream. Weejee has just died Saturday night the 20th.  She ran away from the sitter and died in a horse field while trying to get home. She was on a mission. She ran so fast Jenna could not catch her...supper trot.

What does the dream want: For me to know there is a time and place for everything. I now believe there is a heaven and dogs are part of it.  Not pearly white gates with judgement, just relaxed contemplative space between lives on Earth.