Procrastination + Black and White

Procrastination

I am with a group of friends/coworkers. We identify a list of 5 increasingly complex tasks. The first and simplest one may be cooking pizza.

I analyze the requirements in detail and in the order they need to be done. At some point I stay concentrating on appearances more that actually getting the jobs done. I precisely stage things so it looks like I have gotten a lot done and  right in the middle of finishing up then I watch TV waiting for their return.

Notes: As I awake I am surprised at the combination of ingenuity and deceit. 

What does the dream want? For me to get shit done.

Reality check: Planning to doing ration way too real.

Bumper sticker: Plan don't sham

Dreams to action: Clean the fucking house!!!

Black and White

I am passing in and out of the dream state. I am having a very distinct physical and emotional experience but it is very difficult to fully understand. 

I feel my body is in two states that are directly connected like two sides of a coin. But the connection is nonphysical but is an integral part of my bring. There are two aspects and they change as I reenter the dream but the essence is the same.

There is "me" and a black person. It is not black vs white, just that there is an aspect of my being that is a black person. I can feel the connection between the two sides of myself as tiny points on the surface of my skin. When nearly awake at some point I think they may be bug bites (I have many recent ones). The more awake I am the less sense it makes. The more in the dream state the more real I feel in precise physical sensations. 

I awake amazed and curious. 

Notes: It went well beyond dream logic into dream sensation. Especially the blending of waking physical sensation, bug bites, and the physical sensation of the connections between the two aspects of myself.

Reality check: I often wonder how I can bridge the gap between me and blacks. Maybe I just need to go deeper in myself.

Bumper sticker: You are what you fear.

Dream to action: Quit wondering how do they feel and ask how would I feel.