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Sunday, February 23, 2020

The Old Station

Sunday February 23, 2020 9:30 am

The Old Station
I am in an old building. It is very funky and hard to tell even what its intended purpose is. There are two old guys working and living in it. I go through a series of related dreams before I finally wake.

There is a a huge structure attached to the building that is unstable. At one point it moves, as part of its original function, but it is very unstable. As I go back and forth into the dream, I decide it is a crane and that the structure may have been a radio station. We are cleaning up the mess and sorting out old junk in the living space. At other points there is a woman and scenes outside the structure. While I am confused as to exactly the structure is, I like it a lot and wake happy and energized.

Notes: Initially the dream made no sense, but seems to be a very fitting parallel to my own life. Its purpose is unclear, it is old, things that used to done are now stiff and possibly dangerous to move, affection is infused into the structure.

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What does the dream want?  Rehab these houses (The Inn at Loon Lake and The Pine Street Annex) as I rehab my life. Discover purpose through action, not just contemplation. A fundamental part of my life is communication.

Reality check: What was confusing and vague is now clear and obvious. In a variant of an old movie title You Are What You Eat, You Are What You Do. So do good works.

Bumper Sticker: Right Action; Right Mind

Dreams to Action: Keep going. Be careful. Be organized.







Thursday, February 20, 2020

The Vegas Glitter Queen

Thursday February 20, 2020 10:15 am (Partially lucid, hyonogoggic)

The Vegas Glitter Queen
I am watching a young woman perform. She is in along limousine. She has arrived at her destination and is preparring to exiting the vehicle and make an entrance. There is no immediate special event, but she has planned every moment. She has on fabulous makeup and her outfit is black with many sequins. Her top is a short jacket with lapels that are stiff and stick out. She has crisply styled jet black shortly clipped hair. She is wearing shoes that she bought two pair and discarded one of each to get the look she wanted. She steps out and checks herself out in a full length mirror at the entrance to the venue.

I am talking with the driver as we are both impressed with the level of effort and skill that has gone into her preparation. The driver is a friend I know in waking life, D.G. We both want to help. There is a small step stool that I put one foot on and it slides across the front floor of the vehicle until I am at almost full splits (a move that would put me in the hospital at the moment). We discuss a GoFundMe page for her. I am trying to get a good look at her face to figure out who she is. I am also very curious about her motivation and ask her about it.

I see her face clearly but do not recognize her. She tells me that her motivation is to show her kid how you can become anything you put your mind to. An astronaut,a a scientist...whatever.

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Notes: Not as intense as full lucid dream, but I was aware I was dreaming and making decisions; "I want to see her face and "why is she doing this?" Similar to scenarios created by Robert Moss in his class.

What does the dream want? For me to become my fully expressed self.

Reality Check: No so much...but pay attention for synchronicity.

Bumper Sticker: Manifest Destiny

Dreams to Action: Get snowmobile & electric piano? Or is that spending shadow?

FYI: The hypnopompic state (or hypnopompia) is the state of consciousness leading out of sleep, a term coined by the psychical researcher Frederic Myers. Its mirror is the hypnagogic state at sleep onset; though often conflated, the two states are not identical. The hypnagogic state is rational waking cognition trying to make sense of non-linear images and associations; the hypnopompic state is emotional and credulous dreaming cognition trying to make sense of real world stolidity. They have a different phenomenological character.

Hypnagogia, also referred to as "hypnagogic hallucinations", is the experience of the transitional state from wakefulness to sleep: the hypnagogic state of consciousness, during the onset of sleep (for the transitional state from sleep to wakefulness see hypnopompic). Mental phenomena that may occur during this "threshold consciousness" phase include hallucinations, lucid thought, lucid dreaming, and sleep paralysis. The latter two phenomena are themselves separate sleep conditions that are sometimes experienced during the hypnagogic state.
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The word hypnagogia is sometimes used in a restricted sense to refer to the onset of sleep, and contrasted with hypnopompia, Frederic Myers's term for waking up.[2] However, hypnagogia is also regularly employed in a more general sense that covers both falling asleep and waking up, and Havelock Ellis has questioned the need for separate terms.[3] Indeed, it is not always possible in practice to assign a particular episode of any given phenomenon to one or the other, given that the same kinds of experience occur in both, and that people may drift in and out of sleep. In this article hypnagogia will be used in the broader sense, unless otherwise stated or implied.

Other terms for hypnagogia, in one or both senses, that have been proposed include "presomnal" or "anthypnic sensations", "visions of half-sleep", "oneirogogic images" and "phantasmata",[3] "the borderland of sleep", "praedormitium",[4] "borderland state", "half-dream state", "pre-dream condition",[5] "sleep onset dreams",[6] "dreamlets",[7] and "wakefulness-sleep transition" (WST).[8]

Threshold consciousness (commonly called "half-asleep" or "half-awake", or "mind awake body asleep") describes the same mental state of someone who is moving towards sleep or wakefulness, but has not yet completed the transition. Such transitions are usually brief, but can be extended by sleep disturbance or deliberate induction, for example during meditation.[citation needed]

Frederic William Henry Myers (6 February 1843 – 17 January 1901) was a poet, classicist, philologist, and a founder of the Society for Psychical Research.[1] Myers' work on psychical research and his ideas about a "subliminal self" were influential in his time, but have not been accepted by the scientific community.[

Myers wrote a small collection of essays, Science and a Future Life which was published in 1893. In 1903, after Myers's death, Human Personality and Its Survival of Bodily Death was compiled and published. This work comprises two large volumes at 1,360 pages in length and presents an overview of Myers's research into the unconscious mind.[26][58][59] Myers believed that a theory of consciousness must be part of a unified model of mind which derives from the full range of human experience, including not only normal psychological phenomena but also a wide variety of abnormal and "supernormal" phenomena.[58][59] In the book, Myers believed he had provided evidence for the existence of the soul and survival of personality after death. The book cites cases of automatic writing, hypnotism, mediumship, possession, psychokinesis, and telepathy.[60]

Friday, February 14, 2020

Biohazard Sales Call Morphs Into Real World Wisdom

Friday February 14, 2020 9:00 am

Biohazard Sales Call Morphs Into Real World Wisdom

I am with two other technical sales team members, both males, on a sales call.  I know my team and have met the client in the past. We are in the city and when we come to the site it is down the bottom of an old beautifully architecturally designed hole. It is very large (most of a block), tiered in to a narrow square bottom and laced with plants and water. I comment on how all the infrastructure of he city is still below the facility and what a great idea it is.

The client outlines his need. It is about creating a system to tract information as items are dynamically being manufactured. We get a rough idea of the problem and take a break in a small room for our team to put together an initial solution. When the client returns one of my technical sales reps support guys begins explaining our tech. The description is dry, monotonous and boring. We go for a break.

We leave the facilities and on our way back the others are slow an aimless when it is time to cross the street. I yell at them to hurry. There is an additional technical team member that I recognize that come back with them. I find this curious.

Back int he facility the client gives us a practical test. I am handed a test tube frilled with blood to analyze. As I am carrying it down long drab dirty office hallways the tube leaks and blood is dripping into my hands. I am concerned that the sample will be lost and  I will fail the test. I see drops of blood at various locations in the crowded offices in the hallways.  I also wonder if this is just a test. With each iteration I get more focused and more professionally responding to the emergency.

I go from panicked reactionary to focused professional. Ultimately I refuse to accept the sample and call for help to assist the woman trying to hand it to me. I call for her to get face protection as well.

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I wale fully, use the bathroom and return to the dream. I start using some of my developing dream interpretation skills I am learning in Robert Moss's class. I start to imagine how it could have been. Just because the building is old, doesn't mean there can be modem clean glass enclosed spaces with proper levels of safety protocols to support the work.

I then begin to think about what the dream wants and applying it to my waking life. I think about the task of putting a digital piano into the old upright in the Inn. I am not thinking as much as listening.  I imagine a better approach and again run through the scenario several times. I end up with several very practical approaches. I even reject some possibilities as not the best approach, even it I am taking more than one simultaneously.

1. Get cash with max I am willing to pay.
2. Talk to Bob and Natalie about who they know in NYC  that could help.
3. Talk specifically with Natalie about the Roland FP-30
4. Talk with Paul. Watch Raleigh Craig's list and be prepared to overnight cast to NYC or Raleigh.

Notes: The original series of dreams likely too 30+ minutes. When I woke and went back to bed, it took about 15 minutes before finally waking/getting out of bed to record the dream. I was feeling pretty good about my efforts in dreaming and my waking life. Also feeling good about my initial results with the trigger point message ball...it may get me walking and exercising again!!

Tuesday, February 11, 2020

The Black Cave of Would Be Enlightenment

Tuesday February 11, 2020  12:15 pm (regular supplements)

The Black Cave of Would Be Enlightenment

I am with several people in a large cave that has been excavated for use as a psychedelic hot bath center. Every surface is black stone and wet. There is a large tub carved out of the stone in the center of the room. There are hoses laying around and things are not well organized. I am working with a woman to help get thing working properly.  The leader of the center is in an altered state, but acts more like he is drunk. There is a woman who has paid for an uplifting experience and she is not doing well. At one point she is in the tub with him gently treading water with bewildered look on her face.

Motorcycle Angel
I leave the facility and make my way down a narrow winding crowded street with walls that join one building to the next. I come to a scene where there is a small group of motorcycles  returning from a ride. I notice of the bikers is a very petite woman. I search her out and we talk abut her bike. It is old and funky. Very low to the ground and has numerous welded attachments to the frame. Including a set of wings that are almost falling off. She is trying to put her bike away but it will not stand up. Another woman biker is trying to put some hay bails to steady the front wheel. I am sitting on the bike and ask why she doesn't have a kickstand. She apparently doesn't know what one is.

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Guru in the Square
 am now in a large open public space. There are many people crowded into the square. It looks, feels and smells like it count be in India. Every is the color of curry. They are preparing for a great spiritual leader to appear and lead some sort of event. It is very crowded and I am getting bumped around. A man stops to help me. After getting me somewhat situated he asks, so you just showed up here? I look just off the stage I am laying on and see the side is very steep and has many people sitting on the narrow steps formed by the retaining wall.

I  move around essentially by crawling. I see things only inches ahead of me and I discover a woman who seems to be selling small bags and trinkets. It surprises me and I look over what she has.

Notes: The dreams were especially vivid and sensual. Common when I use choline & galatamine. I am at a transition point at Loon Lake. Just finished the big push and now have a month to do steady state improvements on the house.

Reality check: Searching for enlightenment/a purpose all too common a theme in waking life. Motorcycle angle is a major fantasy. The disappointment with gurus and the like is also a repeated waking experience. 

What does the dream want? Not clear to me at this point. Quit being so random in my search for spirituality. In everything else for that matter. 

Bumper sticker: Angels are among us.

Dreams to action: Be more in the world.

Monday, February 3, 2020

The Maddening Scientist

Monday February 3, 2020 4:30 am (edit)

The Maddening Scientist
I am in my apartment. There is an irritating noise coming from outside. It is a small regular knocking at a very precise place in the wall. I am with a friend. We investigate. There is a small room right next to my apartment that that there seem to be mysterious experimentation going on. They share a single wall. It's like they are inside a closet in my house. The noise is extremely regular and irritating. It is like the tell tale heart or Chinese water torture. I can feel each knock at the wall.

We are concerned about the seemingly nefarious activity. The dream spills into a segment where the scientist needs to drive to a second location. Now I am driving or in a car with Nathan. I see a very small brick house next to mine that is touching both houses it is packed between. I have never seen this house. I imagine the neighbor (who is also suspect) has cleaned up some thick growth that has now revealed the house. The image is expressly clear and in focus. It is a brick bungalow with a small front porch and two supports holding up the roof that slants to the front of the porch, with three stairs coming to the front walk. There is no room for the house. The windows would be looking into the neighbors. windows.

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I am now back in the hallway of the apartment. The irritating noise is still going on but my mood is more jovial. The door occupationally opens to the lab and we see many people in white lab coats crammed in there. We assume they are students. One of them is very cute. My friend proposes I talk with her. I tell him there is nothing preventing him from doing it. He does and brings her to our table. I act nonchalant and begin small talk. I wake still  irritated at the noise but more relaxed. As I wake I realize the sound is real and coming from my CPAP machine. Water has condensed in the air tube and is gurgling very regularly.



Notes: I was immediately amused after waking, but really irritated and sometimes scared during the dream. It is so early I am taking supplements and doing WBTB.

Saturday, February 1, 2020

Murder at the Station (edit)

Saturday February 1, 2020  5:20 am

Murder at the Station

I am in a facility with several others. There is something terribly wrong. I am protecting myself from others or I am pursuing them. We may be astronauts or someone in helmets with face shields. I am trying to lock myself in my room, but a woman, also in gear gets close. We struggle, I kill her.

I wake upset, but not that upset.

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Notes: My furnace is acting up, the house is at risk of freezing. My time line for work on the house is getting squeezed. I have been up for a couple of hours screwing with he furnace and watching TV, I'm going back to sleep. I am going to incubate going back into the station to find out why there is violence.