The Polar Bear Flush

Wednesday January 31, 2017
2:01 am

The Polar Bear Flush [Prophetic]?

I am having a relationship with a polar bear. I am surrounded by bright light and soft fur. Suddenly Ii am flushed down an ice cavern from a fluid coming from the bear. I am swept down and down and stop deep in a cavern. I begin to ascend, considering the close call, and a much bigger stream (while clear it comes from inside the bear) sweeps me deeper and deeper. I am going to drown or be trapped in the ice, I wake in a panic.

Notes: I had a similar dream fragment recently. As I wake I think, does Cindy want to "flush me", end the relationship? I then remember the pending decision whether to sink more money into the Thompson Apartments. The big risk is the septic system. Flush the toilets, flush my profits.

What does the dream want?  Sell now or find a way to test and deter the septic system failing.

Epic Dream on Campus

Thursday
8:02 am

Epic Dream on Campus

1. I am finishing a dark mysterious run with the track team. We emerge from running in the jungle. I feel fully engaged, curious, amazed by being so physical.

2. New equipment arrives. I am looking through the last of the new jerseys. They are a shell with soft linings for running in cool weather. Long sleeve with slight v-neck. I see size 12, then 16. I am trying to figure out what the sizes mean. Size does matter, I pick a jersey I think will fit Cindy. I also geet purple running shoes. I reflect for a moment and can not remember the two things I am doing - or picking up are.

I discuss with Cindy the selection I have made for her. She says she may be less interested in running and may have something else in mind.

3. I am sitting at a long table outside with the team. I introduce myself to a team member. I ask him about the salt crystals all over our skin. Is it safe? He starts explaining and then launches into a dramatic expansive performance (like a Broadway production). When it is over, I comment to another team member that I still do not know the answer to the question.

4. I am mulling over joining the team with one of the members. He goes over all the logistics, emails, etc.that are required. We are discussing the leadership style of the team leader. He is inspiring but very loose. I decide to join.

5. I am in a car with Cindy and two other women.  She is yelling at me for something.I hold her shoulders, look her in the eyes and say we love eah other and don't need to argue.

6.I am with an old female friend. He leans over to kiss my cheek and I move an kiss her lips. She comments that Cindy has been challenged to deal with me. I realize that this is a very different perspective than my own.

7. I am waling up hill following other team members on a winding route through campus.  I am not only joining the team but am going back to school full time. I am elated with the decision even though there is lots of uncertainty.

8. In the middle of my elation I find myself inside a building. The climb is over. Some of the team are exiting the building to the right - they are going outside down a long flight of wooden stair. I am uncertain to stay inside and turn to the left or follow them down and to the right. I realize I do not remember where I am or where I am going. I wake sad and confused.

Notes: Elated that I could remember the dream so well (so many scenes) I wake feeling lost and confused immediately afterwords I a feel elated, cheerful and fully engaged.

What does the dream want?

• treat Cindy better
• do more exercise
• embrace new directions with unknown challenges and solutions.
• join a team
• be mindful- do not let myself become lost and confused.
• Dream more!!!
• Get back into email

The Ordeal [Explicit]

Thursday January 25, 2017
10:50am

The Ordeal

I am talking with a gang member, I am the leader. He tells me another leader has officially challenged me to an ordeal for leadership. The governing rules are arcane. Every potential leader is in a predetermined matrix of succession. It will take 20 years for the match to take place. It will involve mechanical devices and anal sex.

Notes: Variations of this dream persist for several hours. I am surprised at its persistence.

What does the dream want? Primary change in the way I run my life. Change now or be fucked in the ass at the end.

White Dwarf Inspector/Destroyer (Big Dream)

Tuesday January 16, 2017
8:00am

Incubation: Please offer help on my way forward

White Dwarf Inspector/Destroyer [Big Dream]

I am gleefully angry in mad dwarf waiting in line to enter a large modern estate. I am with someone, it may be a robot.I am passing a concrete bollard, designed to stop cars. I demonstrate the destructive power of my flail, by striking and demolishing the structure. Everything is white. My clothes, my flail, the house exterior and interior.

The house is very modern, minimalist and elegant with all right angles and furniture built into the architecture. I have used my flail in the past to demolish much of the house. As part or reconstruction? The owners are home. I am joyfully anticipating the strategic destruction of the house by striking key structures and supports.

I hesitate and decide it is too beautiful to destroy. I wake grateful but puzzled.

Notes: I have been up very late, after 4:00am. I am contemplating being broke and needing to talk with my wife about finances and our relationship. I have been procrastinating the conversation.

What does the dream want?  Don't blow up my marriage. I have been considering divorce as an extreme option. Part of me has been trying to destroy my marriage by knocking at the foundations, financial stability/money. My shadow wants me to fail, to not be loved.  I need a plan to let this option go.

Extraordinary Efforts, Soul Revival

Saturday January 6, 2018

10:39am

Extraordinary Efforts

I am in the bedroom of a strangers house. There is a father, a son and a grandfather. They are working diligently on reviving a pet fish. The tank is laid out in many pieces and each is being attended to. The fish is on the floor as one of the pieces. I am looking very attentively at the proceedings. When the father turns to look at me I apologize for entering his home unannounced, he dismisses it and our attention returns to the fish and its tank apparatus. 

The grandfather explains that when they purchased the fish they had to sign an agreement to keep it alive at all costs. The father says if they knew it would take this much effort, they may have not gotten it to begin with.

The son is largely a spectator and is playing with something else. I tell him that I have an idea for something that would be a lot of fun. It is a self contained set of toys that is in a box with a handle. I explain that we launch it from a balloon and it lands next to Jordan Lake. I lift the box and it is very heavy. The whole enterprise is fairly impressive. 

Notes: The dream was very rich in detail. I woke in the night and started to read Robert Moss's Way of the Dreamer. It is amazing. My future?

Beware Virtual Reality

Friday January 10, 2018
10:11

Beware Virtual Reality

I an watching an interview and self reflection of a man in a room There may be others, it might be me, but it is a character I do not recognize. I am examining my virtual memories to try and figure out a technical problem. I am having some success. But my attention comes back into the room I realize the actual cost of the new technology. The loss of contact with "reality". Later I imagine a room full of young people all with VR headgear on and no idea of what is actually going on.

Notes: I am concerned that if I become lucid in a dream with an abstract or missing background I may be unable to escape.