This serial incompetence beggars belief

Friday 12 29, 2017
9:38 am

This serial incompetence beggars belief

I am in a room with someone, possibly Cindy.  My clothes and things are all in a mess. I pull some out. 

I am in another room,possibly getting dressed for work. I am working in an environment where I need to meet a dress code. I do not have what I need and am unable to start work.

I am in a house. I do not own it. I am walking room to room. They are very small and I have set up a minimum of things to provide the basic comforts. I get hyper focused on the counter around a sink. I am trying to clean up some water that has spilled or is leaking. There is a problem with the effort.

Notes: These dreams interpret themselves. Hopefully I have reached bottom. I am considering physically approaching Cindy for intimacy. Need to start small. She has no interest, tricky. 

Unwanted Advance

December 25, 2017
9:00am

Unwanted Advance

I am riding in a vehicle. It is bright and sunny. There is a woman to my left, I know her, she may be the wife of a friend. He may be gone or dead. My marital status is unclear I lean in to kiss her. She is wearing a thin silk dress that is well above her knees. As I lean in I put my hand on her inner thigh. I am moving very slowly our lips are just touching. She looks me in the eyes and dismisses my advance.

She scolds me mildly and then mentions how she doesn't understand how I can afford to be their boss (she uses a strange word). It is understood we work on commission and are not currently getting any.

I am pissed and falsely indignant. I know she is right.

I am now eating in a public restaurant. The quarters are very tight and I am at a shared table. Some one is trying to sit next to me and is trying to get settled  by climbing over the seat. I briefly think it is ok because I know him. I think it is a friend I have eaten here with before, (possibly in a dream I had earlier). It is very uncomfortable how close we all are. 

I awake upset on several levels.

Notes: I am encouraged by how vivid and sensual the dream is and how well I recall it.  I am dismayed because of my current financial status  reminder in the dream and the fact that I can not have guilt free sex even while dreaming.

What does the dream want? For me to be financially productive and to have intimate relations with my wife.  Not encouraged by the Internet or by "cheating" in my dreams.

Real Sex

Tuesday December 16, 2017
1:00pm

Real Sex

I am in a house that is not mine. There is a young woman who is naked sitting in my lap. I am kissing and fondling her small breasts with protruding nipples. She says she is cold and I pull over a blanket to cover her and then work at getting my hand under the blanket to return to her flesh.

Notes: I woke very excited that my wish/incubation for sex in my dream was answered. I proposed that having happy ending sex in my dreams would free me from recent obsessions while awake.

Basketball

Thursday December 12, 2017
11:21am

Basketball

Basically the dreaded NDR  I am in a largely  abstract space planning for a test.  I then find myself on the space I have been making plans about. I am working on a team sport and I decide it iS basketball (I am trying to remember the dream by naming it.

Notes. This was an earlier dream. I woke up to an alarm and had no memory of the dream I was in. When I tried to remember "basketball" I could not remember any details  I t fells like dream logic that has dissolved many times when it sees the light of day.
Day 2 of 30 days of meditation and dream journaling.

Lollygagging

Wednesday
December 13, 2017
10:38am

Lollygagging

I am in a restaurant or other meeting place. I am talking with a woman, blonde, who has given me $2000. I am bragging about how I am basically doing nothing. She gets upset because she has fronted me $2000 for something and it appears I am just lollygagging  

There is a large table of people in front of me and the woman is at another table to the left. I start to pontificate that $2000 is actually a lot of money, especially in terms of how hard it is to get in the bank, saved. 

There is mild interest in the table next to me. I look and the woman I think I am talking to is not even at the table. I go over to the table and pick up a shipping bag of one of the women having lunch. She is older. I am trying to make a point with the bag about my story. She gets a bit flustered and starts asking specific question about the contents of her bag and did she get all the gifts she was promised. My story is irrelevant and being completely ignored. 

Notes: I will do 10 minutes of meditation for 30 days consecutively and write down my dreams for the same period. This is day one.

What does the dream want?: For me to get off my ass.