Can't make a sandwich

Trying to make a chicken sandwich. Can't get thru the process of preparing the meat. Completely clueless as I fumble with some chicken on a cutting board. Wake feeling hopeless. 

Three Dreams

 Can't Write an Essay Question

I'm in a classroom setting next door friend. We are responding to a prompt to write an essay or a paper. I'm completely at a loss. I ask him if he's having any luck and he seems to be proceeding. I can't even remember the original assignment. I ask him if he remembers Mini mobile something no response. I am left trying to respond articulate do an assignment I can't even remember. When I wake up I am anxious.

Swimming in Dangerous Shallow Pool

The scene jumps to the two of us swimming in a natural but bizarre pool of water. I am exploring and realize there are sharp stone /coral right under the surface. There are bizarre dangerous looking fish also. One of' them latches onto my foot it is not painful but I'm unable to pry it off. It is holding on with some mechanism like a crab or something. my friend comes over and helps me pry it off my foot.

Notes: I have been worried about going broke and more importantly failing at my veteran housing/support project. Woke anxious and afraid. Being in school is a common theme for me.

What does the dream want?  For me to let go of my old fears. No real evidence of this in the dream, just my waking take.

Reality Check: Need to do a lot of legal/paperwork I don't really understand

Bumper Sticker: Fuck the devil in the details

Dreams to Action: Clean up my legal act, like I just did my bedroom, one piece at a time.

Three Dreams (Needs Notes+)

The School Project

I'm working on a school project children been working on at home. It has something to do with designing a house. The parents all decide to review the project because there's been an extension to the deadline. When I go back over the designs they/we start changing them. There appear to be some quick easy and dramatic changes to the design are possible. The foundation of one house is sitting right one a stream and is made out of River rocks. With one sweep of the hand the foundation opens up and allows the stream to flow through. There seems to be a conflict between an obvious improvement in the design and the fact that the parent have made the change and not left the project done it was done by the child.

Notes: Lots of hints it's a dream. Start practicing reality checks again.

What does the dream want?  XXX

Reality Check: Directly related to finish work done by James and Scott. May also to related to the following Blow Up dream, as I often reacted to Cindy's criticisms of my projects.

Bumper Sticker: XXX

Dreams to Action: XXX

The Blowup + 

The Hamburger Stand

Cindy Patty and I are together patty's house. Cindy and I are talking about something but I am upset. She starts an elaborate discussion but it turns out to be a very calculated ploy to hurt me at my deepest core. I completely explode then announce I am leaving immediately. Buddies house is in the middle of nowhere is the middle of the afternoon I have no means of transportation, is ridiculous idea. I'm committed and start packing my things.

The Hamburger Stand

We are outside I'm looking at one of Alex's friends very casually sitting next to a big grill something cook on the grill. The person supervising the grill who is older is next doing. Everything is very quiet and uncrowded. Now we are in line at the food trucks serving the hamburgers that have admin cooking on the grill. We all have tons of quarters in our pockets that have come from either Cindy and or Me is not clear. There is a considerable line of people that we all know. One of them is someone who seems to have recently arrived did US has a thick accent when is quarters are falling out of his hands into the rocks at his feet. Someone comments to him that he's leaking money. Suddenly there are hundreds of people in line. is as if there was just a tour bus and everyone just piled out they are all now in line behind us at the hamburger stand. There are so many people that we are actually now standing in shadow 'cause there is a slight Hill and some very tall tourist that we are still waiting in line but now the business is gone from period

Notes:

What does the dream want?  XXX

Reality Check: XXX

Bumper Sticker: XXX

Dreams to Action: XXX

Working for the Boss

Working for the Boss

Doing the work

I am working at a site in an old wrecked house. I am very slowly walking around barely getting anything done. I am observing details of my surroundings very carefully. This feature of the dream continues she wrote several scenes. There is a guy I'm normally working for. I'm with a couple of others and we are all shuffling around doing work supervising

On the Street

Now I am with the big boss. He is a young black man with a big entourage including myself in a large open car. Pretty much everybody but me is black. There is a large open pit that looks like it might have been the foundation of a house. It is immaculately groomed. It's hard to say it's clean because it's all dirt. There is a man down in it and I pick a large bun I have and toss it down to him. Rather than toss it to him so he could catch it I just toss it into the pit next to him and he picks it up and starts eating it.

I'm walking around the area that there are many people almost shoulder to shoulder also slowly walking around. They are poorly dressed some only with old sleeveless undershirts, old pants and suspenders, reminiscent of pictures during the depression. But everyone is immaculately clean, down to their fingernails. I comment on it or at least think out loud about it. I make a comment and ask someone who's taking care of all these people.

At the Laundromat

I am in a laundromat pretty much everybody else is black women.  We are sorting through tons of laundry putting them in a very organized fashion but kind of over stuffing these machines. All the laundry is white. and not very soiled. I get the idea to separate out another load but there's really no place to put it. At one point the women are doing the same thing and then start putting tremendous amounts of laundry stuffed into these washing machines.

At the House Parity

We are pulling up to someone's house in the car. Looks like there are many people in the house in a lot of noise but we do a very elaborate job of trying to find a place to park. There are no other vehicles in front of the house, right off a city street. We wind up in the driveway just in front of the house.  There is not a shred of grass or trash in front of the house. Like much of the dream it has been immaculately swept clean but is very bleak. The yard is all asphalt and there is not real separation between the yard and the city street. Everything is black, there may be soil, it's hard to tell.  We go in the house it's crazy crowded with people everywhere. When I come in everybody else that was in the car has disappeared I can see one of the last people walking up ta steep curving set of stairs and disappearing.  I look around there's all sorts of people and party supplies lying around. I noticed one other white guy and I imagine sitting down and having a conversation with him and then feel that that would be really stupid.

Notes: My second day in a row of writing down dreams. I was glad to get multiple  pieces of a dream. Screams been very vivid with lots of hints it was a dream.

What does the dream want?  Clueless at first glance.

Reality Check: I've been spending lots of time cleaning out my very old house on plane street.

Bumper Sticker: ?

Dreams to Action: ?

Zen Miniature Golf

 Zen Miniature Golf

Wednesday January 13th of the new millennium , 2021

I'm in a deep luxurious woods. The forest is rich with trickling water,  ferns and luscious decomposed material on the ground. I am however in what appears to be a miniature golf course. Miniature in the sense of ways to move the ball around. It's all putting or small movements  The idea of a miniature golf course come from the way I am navigating it, there are no balls or clubs, just waling through a numbered path. Is actually quite expensive. Instead of working through a hole in an orderly fashion, you may get to a random step in be transported to a completely different location. The number suddenly goes from 3 to 11 in the next step. But exactly where I am e is unknown. I imagine that it's a closed system that I work my way through but all my attempts to logically go through the system are unsuccessful. I do not find it frustrating but very liberating. I have a vague notion that I've been transported here from the outside world that's all about money and obligations and business. The beauty of the forest is in nature and while having a task it is very random and unknowable.

While I'm experiencing this golf course game for lack of a better term, I'm also aware that there is a larger course. Something is not miniature anyway. Something that I may experience that will be much broader or much larger areas.

Notes: I went in and out of the dream several times and was able to name the dream and organize it a bit. I woke very happy and at peace,

What does the dream want?  For me to enjoy and be mindful of the journey I am on.

Reality Check: The deep forest is a place of deep healing and mystery for me. I have chosen to live in a forest, The ADK Park.

Bumper Sticker: Walk your path, don't expect it to be linear.

Dreams to Action: Stay on task while embracing the unanticipated.

Wild Ride in the ADK

 Thursday October 8, 2020   10:30 am
(Most beautiful day on earth.)

Wild Ride in the ADK

I am with another guy. He has been working on his car and we take it for a test drive. He is driving very fast. There is no real road, just a smooth grassy path that we are accelerating through and drifting around the turns. There is a clif on one side and beautiful woods, streams and ponds on the other. It is full summer and as we hurtle along I am scoping it out for fishing. I am looking for fish out of the water, as if this is normal. We are now on roller blades and I am tethered behind him still going at a very fast clip. I spot a large trout in a pond close to the trail. I am very satisfied that I can come back and fish later. I comment that this is so easy you could use it as a cab service.

Notes:  Packing to head north to work on th Pine Street Annex. Beautiful fall day.

What does the dream want?  For me to accelerate through my life with joy and enthusiasm.

Reality Check: I will be driving through all the phases of fall in just a few hours.Upon arrival i will need ti quarantine for two weeks.

Bumper Sticker: Embrace being a fish out of water.

Dreams to Action: Finish packing and GO!!!

Failed Final Exam in Science Class

Thurdsay August 20, 12:00 pm

Failed Final Exam in Science Class

I am cycling through a series of dreams that take place on a college campus. I am talking to my science class professor, a woman, about the final exam. It is complex and includes a workbook. I have a very large binder but I am desperately looking for something....the work book. I look in my desk and in a drawer that has things stacked from multiple people. I do not see what I am searching for get increasingly anxious.

I return to a discussion my teacher is having with another student, a mature adult, about the details of some reaction or material characteristics. I am wondering if this is relevant to the exam but decide that it is an unrelated technical discussion. 

I am now full on panicled and realize that I can not pull the unorganized mess I have as class notes into what it take to go forward. I give up, fail the class and awake depressed.

Notes:  Multiple dreams in and out of sleep, common theme..failure at school. 

What does the dream want?  for me to get more organized.

Reality Check: My life is NOT organized.

Bumper Sticker: Messy Room Promotes Messy Thinking

Dreams to Action: Clean office, Use white board organization, pay bills, meditate