Dark Tower

Thursday Sep 27, 2018

Dark Tower

I have been in an ongoing fight for several dream segments. Our small group is climbing the steps in a tall dark tower.  My enemy and nemesis, a young woman and myself. We are now in almost total darkness. I am covered in dark oil and am sliding across the concrete flood at an amazing speed.  As my hands and feet touch the slick deck it is like ice skating.  I can glide really fast in the dark. I circle around and come up to my enemy. I raise my sword, he comes into a ray of sunlight as my blade descends. It is the girl! I scabbard my weapon and woke up angry and afraid.

Notes: this is day three after the dream. It persisted in my memory for three days.

What does the dream want? For me to be careful.  Possible upper limit or other self sabotage.

Seminal Lucid Dream, Intimacy, Creativity & Knowledge

Saturday

2 Gelantamine, 1 Choline

Incubation:

"Grant me calm clear awakening in my dreams so I can gain insight, knowledge and wisdom."

Intimacy, Creativity and Knowledge (three short discrete lucid Dreams)

Intimacy: I am with a young woman. I  instantly look at my hand and it has small stumpy fingers. We are talking but there is an air of physical and emotional intimacy. I wake.

Creativity: I am moving, possibly on a train. I have a flute pressed to my lips.  I hold up a hand to discover it deformed (yea! I'M lucid). As I am playing it I am changing the physical attributes of the instrument.

Knowledge: I am in a small brightly lit room with posters and places to sit and work. I am getting a tour of the facility and how you use the resources. Most importantly, the man, in his 30's? with dark think hair and a beard, assures me he be available for questions. I am aware that I do not want to take too much of his time out off respect.

Notes: Amazing.  This may work yet.  This was after I perfect day of trout fishing with Mike. I am hoping the incubation with be the key going forward. It was not perfect, but very close to the one I came up with as I was doing Wake back to sleep. I will use the supplements for a while, but then cut them back, bit by bit.

Lost Duffel

Monday August 13, 2018
10:50 am

Lost Duffel

I am traveling with a group. We are moving around a lot. We come to a stream. The water is bath tube warn and very shallow. A well manicured lawn come to the edge of the water. I want to fish, but the others are already moving on. I go inside to use the bathroom. When I return I can not find my duffel. I have misplaced it or it has been stolen. A female tells me the others are waiting.

Notes: Woke up frustrated and ashamed.

What does the dream want? For me to get in sync with others for me to be independent.  I choose B.

The Failure

Friday August 1, 2018
2:2 am

The Failure

In the classroom/dorm I am taking a test in a theoretical math class. I am unable to answer any of the questions. It is not clear if I have not kept up or it is just beyond me. when it is time to turn in the test I tell the professor. I am asked to leave the class immediately, including packing up all my clothes that are in the classroom/dorm.

Going down the stairs, get in a fight. As I am leaving I get in an argument with one of the students. He ascends down the stair in the air. I make a gesture that show I could easily defeat him, but we have no contact. This is discussed explicitly.

Fireworks display.  As I am carrying all my stuff, I come to a fireworks display. It is very interesting and technical. One of the displays shots like a meteor thru the nearby pine tree tops. Two of them catch on fire briefly, but cause to immediate threat.

A cappella musical group. I then briefly participate in an a cappella group, but it becomes obvious that I can not really do that either.

Looking to buy the professor a cigar in the future. I very briefly see the professor, who I like a lot, buying a cigar from a tiny one man shop. I imagine getting him one in the future.

Notes: John and Carrie are visiting and are living a life well lived financially. He commented "your office looks like a bomb hit it." I thought, another bomb/failure in my life. The dream was very vivid, interactive and complex. The emotion of failure was weighing on me like a heavy weight. But my mood immediately lifted when I thought how clear the message was and that I had an outstanding invitation to talk about what dreams mean to me at the Rhine.

What does the dream want? For me to get off  my ass and work.

Japanese Tranquility

Sunday July 29
1L07 pm

Japanese Tranquility

I am casting a rod with majestic tranquility. For some reason the set up seems all Japanese.  Each moment is slow motion and fluid. I think to myself others should be doing this wonderful thing. I am then with a professor who has duplicated a very special Japanese liquor for his students. I see the bottle is amazing detail, it may have an elaborate label. He hands it to me and I realize it is very small, fits in the palm of your hand. I surmise that the ingredients are very expensive and imagine making a bigger batch myself.

Notes: I have a sinus infection and got to sleep very late/early in the morning.

What does the dream want? For me to meditate?.

 

The Kiss, The Cunning Race & The Quickie

Wednesday July 25, 2018
9:15

The Kiss

I am in an open naturally lit room with a beautiful woman, possibly my future wife. She is being romantically coy and playful. I pursue her about the room. We are moving in slow motion. I catch her, we embrace, our lips meet in a kiss that is the fulfillment and expression of pure love and emotion.

The Cunning Race

I am in an inside arena or it is very dark It feels like ancient Rome. I am in a prolonged foot race with an older powerful man, possibly Trump. Tobias is running in a second race, against the same opponent.  The races are long and complex. Trump appears to win both races, but he was not paying careful attention. We go to a device that has recorded all the activity. It is a relief because I was concerned that the details would be lost to my faulty memory. I had doubled back several times and Tobias had consistently chugged away even though it appeared he was losing badly. Tue reconciliation device showed that I had won my race and that Tobias has won many of his laps, they were each counted separately. I had been carrying a small bundle that Trump coveted. It was to go to the victor of the race. He demanded it. I obliged and scratched his chest with a bundle of sharp twigs that I had been carrying in my hand the whole time. I said you can have it and scratched Trump across the chest, it was poisonous.

The Quickie

I am gong through a series of similar scenes in a hotel or large multi roomed building. There are different friends in each. I keep making derogatory statement about the military and how bad they are. Each time a military officer is just out of ear shot. I am trying desperately to catch up with my lover.  Time is running out. We finally meet with only moments left. We have an immediate single movement full penetration embrace. Sexual completion is immediate.

Notes: I have been working on renovating the basement and have reached a satisfactory point after a lot of effort and procrastination. I was awoke from the drams happy and energetic.

What does the dream want?  The Kiss: There is always hope for romantic fulfillment. The Cunning Race: Persistence is the key. The Quickie: Stick to your goals.

The Invaders

Saturday June 23, 2018
9:47 am

The Invaders

I am part on an invading army.  It is not a bloody invasion, but a "civilized" over taking of a lrge population. I as tasked with coordinating the details of complete assimilation of a village. I have begun the effort but my commander, a woman, is not pleased. She says I am being to strict. They are resisting.

If I want to get all of the real information/secretes from them i need to be kinder and then they will open up. She demonstrates this to me on a fresh group. I feel frightened.

The invasion and manipulation theme persists through several awakenings over 2-3 hours.

Notes: The idea of Persistent Theme (PT)s occurred to me as I was waking, but I think I I had a different term.  I need to revisit my keynotes section to look for key themes or ideas.

What does the dream want? Not at all sure. Being kind for a deeper sinister purpose. I see this in politics but it does not seem particularly relevant to my life.