Monday Apr 9, 2018
11:00 am
The Party (Going to an orgy with my wife)
The Party Gate (Being a Scofflaw)
I am at the the rear of a large house party. They is a gate in a tall fence being manned. I am with Cindy and decide to crash the party She is reluctant to enter and I go around front with an intention of coming back to get her.
In the Party
I am walking through a large lavish house with many people lounging around in various states of undress. It is basically a huge house party orgy. I am looking at several interesting women but do not engage with anyone. I meet up with Cindy. She is very energetic and super sexually charged. I think it must be speed. She tells me she has no feelings for me. I say we should divorce and I get a $1M. Once I get that out, I calm down and continue the conversation. I am willing to become a cuckold and use my small penis and a "pointer" for others who are well endowed. I then tell her I really love her and we should be able to work something out.
Women Talking
While waling around the party I am standing next to a small group of women who are topless. On of them is likely pregnant and has young breasts with very long nipples. I state at them and notice at one point she has put small band aids over them but the have lipped to the side.
The Official Entry Gate Into the Pary
I am watching as a long line of men and women are making their way into the party. They are being questioned and then let in. The men are hyper masculine like German Vikings. Some of the women are submissive. But as they are let in they change into chill party goers.
The New Camper's First Day
Fucking the Game Board
I am milling around a group of campers. I am not talking but in some way communicating with a being next to me. It is short and likely not human. We are both working at a game that goes up the wall. There are elaborately carved interactive wooden characters and devices. They all work together like a dynamic puzzle. I take my dick out and start manipulating the game. I manage to have interactions all the way up the wall. It releases a model boat carried up by balloons. It rises slowly to the ceiling where I see other similar crafts. The is how you win the game, others have done so earlier.
Going Through my New Camper Special Items
I an going through a one-on-one new camper orientation with a male councilor. There are several items were are going through one by one. They are all odd and unique. There is a map and he tells me I will need to find the river. I panic because I can not find the map for a moment. I grab at a pile of things meant for the next camper and knock them over. The counselor is exasperated with me. I then realize that I already know where the river is because I have been to the valley before, actually several times.
Notes: Day 20 of 30 consecutive days of journaling. [S: Choline 2 tabs x 500mg, Galantamine 2 tabs x 4mg, Vervain 2 capsule x 360mg] Too much to interpret all, but picked two items that stood out. Definitely get a boost from the supplements, just not certain lucidity.
What does the dream want? Two items of many: For me to really work something out to return intimacy to my marriage. To return to being more in touch with my emotions (the river).
