The Failure

Friday August 1, 2018
2:2 am

The Failure

In the classroom/dorm I am taking a test in a theoretical math class. I am unable to answer any of the questions. It is not clear if I have not kept up or it is just beyond me. when it is time to turn in the test I tell the professor. I am asked to leave the class immediately, including packing up all my clothes that are in the classroom/dorm.

Going down the stairs, get in a fight. As I am leaving I get in an argument with one of the students. He ascends down the stair in the air. I make a gesture that show I could easily defeat him, but we have no contact. This is discussed explicitly.

Fireworks display.  As I am carrying all my stuff, I come to a fireworks display. It is very interesting and technical. One of the displays shots like a meteor thru the nearby pine tree tops. Two of them catch on fire briefly, but cause to immediate threat.

A cappella musical group. I then briefly participate in an a cappella group, but it becomes obvious that I can not really do that either.

Looking to buy the professor a cigar in the future. I very briefly see the professor, who I like a lot, buying a cigar from a tiny one man shop. I imagine getting him one in the future.

Notes: John and Carrie are visiting and are living a life well lived financially. He commented "your office looks like a bomb hit it." I thought, another bomb/failure in my life. The dream was very vivid, interactive and complex. The emotion of failure was weighing on me like a heavy weight. But my mood immediately lifted when I thought how clear the message was and that I had an outstanding invitation to talk about what dreams mean to me at the Rhine.

What does the dream want? For me to get off  my ass and work.

Japanese Tranquility

Sunday July 29
1L07 pm

Japanese Tranquility

I am casting a rod with majestic tranquility. For some reason the set up seems all Japanese.  Each moment is slow motion and fluid. I think to myself others should be doing this wonderful thing. I am then with a professor who has duplicated a very special Japanese liquor for his students. I see the bottle is amazing detail, it may have an elaborate label. He hands it to me and I realize it is very small, fits in the palm of your hand. I surmise that the ingredients are very expensive and imagine making a bigger batch myself.

Notes: I have a sinus infection and got to sleep very late/early in the morning.

What does the dream want? For me to meditate?.

 

The Kiss, The Cunning Race & The Quickie

Wednesday July 25, 2018
9:15

The Kiss

I am in an open naturally lit room with a beautiful woman, possibly my future wife. She is being romantically coy and playful. I pursue her about the room. We are moving in slow motion. I catch her, we embrace, our lips meet in a kiss that is the fulfillment and expression of pure love and emotion.

The Cunning Race

I am in an inside arena or it is very dark It feels like ancient Rome. I am in a prolonged foot race with an older powerful man, possibly Trump. Tobias is running in a second race, against the same opponent.  The races are long and complex. Trump appears to win both races, but he was not paying careful attention. We go to a device that has recorded all the activity. It is a relief because I was concerned that the details would be lost to my faulty memory. I had doubled back several times and Tobias had consistently chugged away even though it appeared he was losing badly. Tue reconciliation device showed that I had won my race and that Tobias has won many of his laps, they were each counted separately. I had been carrying a small bundle that Trump coveted. It was to go to the victor of the race. He demanded it. I obliged and scratched his chest with a bundle of sharp twigs that I had been carrying in my hand the whole time. I said you can have it and scratched Trump across the chest, it was poisonous.

The Quickie

I am gong through a series of similar scenes in a hotel or large multi roomed building. There are different friends in each. I keep making derogatory statement about the military and how bad they are. Each time a military officer is just out of ear shot. I am trying desperately to catch up with my lover.  Time is running out. We finally meet with only moments left. We have an immediate single movement full penetration embrace. Sexual completion is immediate.

Notes: I have been working on renovating the basement and have reached a satisfactory point after a lot of effort and procrastination. I was awoke from the drams happy and energetic.

What does the dream want?  The Kiss: There is always hope for romantic fulfillment. The Cunning Race: Persistence is the key. The Quickie: Stick to your goals.

The Invaders

Saturday June 23, 2018
9:47 am

The Invaders

I am part on an invading army.  It is not a bloody invasion, but a "civilized" over taking of a lrge population. I as tasked with coordinating the details of complete assimilation of a village. I have begun the effort but my commander, a woman, is not pleased. She says I am being to strict. They are resisting.

If I want to get all of the real information/secretes from them i need to be kinder and then they will open up. She demonstrates this to me on a fresh group. I feel frightened.

The invasion and manipulation theme persists through several awakenings over 2-3 hours.

Notes: The idea of Persistent Theme (PT)s occurred to me as I was waking, but I think I I had a different term.  I need to revisit my keynotes section to look for key themes or ideas.

What does the dream want? Not at all sure. Being kind for a deeper sinister purpose. I see this in politics but it does not seem particularly relevant to my life.

The Inspection

Wednesday June 21, 2018 5:04 am

The Inspection.

I am with some other fellow soldiers. We are on a large brand new military housing complex.  [common theme] out job is to inspect the facilities. As I walk up to the building I will be inspecting I understand only one soldier lives in this large building. He some how found himself isolated while following all the rules.

I am now inside large monochrome off white apartments. I am inspecting the kitchen. It is very sophisticated and somehow the whole part of the room I am in iri is an elevator.  I am trying to figure out the wall controls when I realize that you have to take the whole part of the room to the third floor before you can get to the second floor. I puzzle that while is is very innovative after a while it would be a major pain in the ass to slowly go the the third floor every time you wanted to go just one floor up.  This was so fundamental that I couldn't understand how this could have been built in the first place. I wonder if I should report it. I then ponder that the whole I election is not well organized. We only have a piece of paper no forms or formal procedures.

I am now in another building basically gaming an unguided tour. Another soldier says we need to return to our assigned building. I need to pee. There are toilets in a very open area.  A woman is working in the area and when I ask if I can use one she says no.  I am now rushed to get back but am uncertain bow to get there. I ask directions but need to draw on a class wall with an orange pen to get the big picture. I try and erase the drawing but it is permanent marker on brand new glass. I need to rich off an contemplate the likelihood of being found out later. In wake up needing to pee.

Notes: What does the dream want? I find myself in a large organization (American society) but am alone, unclear how to proceed, frustrated and need to pee.

Right Here Right Now

Sunday June 17, 2018
12:04 pm

Right Here Right Now

I am waiting outside to enter a game. Others are standing in line, it seems to me someone may be butting in line. Larry Jacobson, from High School. When I get in, there is a series of tasks I need to perform. I am almost done and realize my left hand is severely wounded.  There is a huge open gash that I examine very closely [hyper detail]. I can push small bones back into place. There is no pain and I don't know how I got in this condition. I consider completing the tasks, but realize I have completed all but one so I go outside for help.

I meet up with a couple of friends and we go to get medical  help. The medical people are far away and hard to find. We are told they are on an emergency. I scream "This is an emergency, right here, right now!" I wake.

Notes: Before I went to sleep I asked to get insight into how I can start good diet and exercise. As I was thinking about the dream the idea of Dream-T's came to me. The first one will be....

RHRN
Right Here Right Now

Red Letters (RHRN larger) on black T-Shirt. 

What does the dream want? For me to get healthy Right Here Right Now.

Newbie Guard

Saturday  Mat 24, 2018 6:45 am

Newbie Guard

I am a woman that is relatively new at her position. I am not fully trained and can only perform perfunctory duties. I am working with a few others. We are maintaining some kind of boarder.  Our work is very important.  It is not clear what we are keeping out.  The work is complex and potentially dangerous.

I partially wake and have plenty of time to reenter and review the dream, but is has been going  on for a long time and is difficult to discern what is going on. The setting is industrial.  There are dirt floors and simple American frontier furniture.

Notes: Day 4 of 30 consecutive journal entries.  Just took supplements and hoping to go lucid.  Working on "Who am I now" reality checks.  Being a woman was a major dream sign.