Good vs Evil

Sunday Mar 25, 2018
11:30 pm

Good vs Evil: This is the firth consecutive day of 30 of journaling. I am trying to complete a process of getting all of the dark material our of a pattern.  Just as I finish, the entire pattern turns black.  I get the idea that dark forces or evil have just taken over.  I start the process again and the same thing happens. Each time the pattern repeats I slowly realize that evil is not that worse than good. It just be different.

This patter of dark vs light repeats for a few hours. I wake up one or twice an fall right back into it.

Notes: I was amazed at how many times I went back into essentially the same dream. I work at 7:00 am and again at almost 11:00 am, still having dream with similar themes.

What does the dream want? It is not clear to me any actions that I should take as a result of this dream.

Multiple Dreams

Saturday March 24, 2018 9:30 am
[w/same batch of Supplements]  4 of 30 consecutive days journaling.

Dragging Rope from a Car w/Charles: Driving with Charles. there is a rope dragging out side the car. When I asked him he said, maybe it is a mile back.  I get out and start retrieving the rope. It is temporally caught under the wheels over several moving cars. It is muddy in the lot I pulling the rope into. At some point I realize I will have a mile of rope in a pile and it will still not be organized.

Romantic walk around the City:

Cafe that is not open Scene: I am with a young woman. There is something off, I may be married. We go to a cafe. It is closed but the door is open. I talk with the two females employed and the owner, a guy. He say he is sorry he is close. He has just married another employee (I think he means married like a minister, he did the ceremony or juts the catering) The dream scene is dark and I am not sure I heard him right. I think about being old and hard of hearing.

Empty Store Scene: I briefly walk thru an empty boutique store of some kind.

Talk with Guide Scene:  I am talking with a guy who is supposed to give tourists advice. He tells me I should go to a software house across the city. I say it is likely closed and I need to leave soon. He goes in the back and may have an argument with someone. His female coworker comes and sits next to me. We discuss his strange behavior. She leans over me. She has large breasts and I gently caress one. I ask if it was OK saying I am lonely. She says its OK, but its not.

Dog show scene: I have been split from my fried for some time and am getting worried. I pick up my tablet and it has come apart. I pick up my phone and it is in the same condition. As I am contemplating getting home with out her, she arrives.

The is a dog show going on right next to where I have been sitting with the woman I groped. There are lines of dogs, like sled dog teams. They are all mixed breeds.  I see that one of the lead dogs has two heads.  When my friend arrives we go to look for it and find it. Right next to it is a very large lead dog. It stands up and is huge. It is as big as a lama.

The Charred Office

Friday Mar 23, 2018
12;57 pm

The Charred Office

I am walking  through my office or my apartment. Everything has been burned, but not completely destroyed. All the things have been melded together and are all black.  I am not upset, more curious.

Notes. Day 3 of journaling 30 days in a row. I ha the same dream very recently. In the earlier version I was looking to see if the fire has solved a problem I was having. I wanted everything to be seamlessly jointed together.

What does the dream want? [Depending on the context of your dream, to see fire in your dream can symbolize destruction, passion, desire, illumination, purification, transformation, enlightenment, or anger] I need to purity and transform.

The Empty Hospital

Thursday 22, 2018
10:00 am

The Empty Hospital
I am walking down the street, there are three of us. We may be pushing a grocery cart or stroller. There may be a baby. It has the feel of being a street person because we are in the process of walking a fair distance. We have a destination in mind, I am leading us.

We are stopped by the police and questioned. I explain out circumstances and we go on our way.

We are getting very close to our destination and there is a blockage along side the road. We stop to rest and are confronted by the police, different ones, again.

I tell the officers that I used to work just around the corner and I know right were I am. They are not impressed. There is apparently a large drugstore just around the corner, close to where I used to work at the hospital. When I mention the hospital there faces take on a demeanor of respect and we are fine again.

We are now in the hospital. we are in a large room with a high ceiling and I as talking with a friend, a woman, I used to work with. The phone rings and I am trying to pick up the call. It is an old fashioned single line phone and the call won't go through. My friend has me take the call on the multiple button master phone and I begin to talk to my friend in England, Carole. We work through the confusion of why I am answering the phone, she needs to arrange for a large meeting place, it is not clear if she has business with the hospital.

My friend at the desk explains that the building is empty except for her and will be for some time. I tell Carole the circumstances and say the space will be no problem. I tell her all the hospital people will back in a week or so, but my friend shakes her head "no" with no explanation because I am still on the phone. I wake up.

Notes. Day 2 of 30 journaling days in a row. Had too much too much to drink last night, but still realized if I had asked "who am I now" I would have realized I was in a dream. Do this 10 time+ today.

What does the dream want? The major themes include career, respect, family responsibility, the employment insecurity in the wider public. I need to not be walking down the stree like a homeless person.

Wednesday
March 24, 2018
11:07 am

Reconfiguring My Office

[Snippet] I am in my office. I am working on slight changes to my computer system. There are three identical computer components. They each have two parts, a body the size of a glasses case and a small external part that attaches with the wires arranged in a specific pattern. I am consolidating the configuration.

There is a large circular water tank close to or in my office.

I am now outside the office with a friend. I have asked him to drop by and make sure the wires are connected properly. We are moving things into the office building. I am in a good mood and am singing. I hit a particularly note as we are going through some revolving doors.

Notes:  Day 1 of 30, post every day.

The water tank may be important. Emotions?  I have had dreams where water played a significant part before.  An earlier part of this dream was about water, possibly odd creatures in a pool.

What does the dream want? I could just be missing working with Charles (getting directions on how to o something right). If my emotions are in a tank...it is deep and clear...dive in? Examine? Live with as a part but separate part of me?

Early Morning Exploration [Lucid]

Tuesday: First Day of Spring

3/20/2018

2:10 pm

Early Morning Exploration  [Lucid] [S: Choline, Galantamine, Vervain] [SSILD]

I am suddenly exploring the back of my house (not my real house) in the early morning. Everything is extremely vivid and detailed. I instantly know I am dreaming. I look down at my hands and the end of my fingers are missing...yea!   I decide to explore and fly just above the ground. I make it around the corner and decide to go back to make sure I know how to get home. It is very early in the morning and there are no people around.  I go over a fence and am looking into the back of a cafe. I am concerned about entering without permission. The scene starts to fade and I consider trying to spin...the dreams ends before I can do anything to prolong it. 

Notes: Wow. It has been a long time since I have had a lucid dream. This was very intentional and very exciting. I had a very vivid non-lucid dream earlier in the evening.

[S: Choline 1500mg (3 tablets), Galantamine (8mg (2 tablets), Vervain, 1240mg (3 capsules)

[SSILD] Senses Induced Lucid Dreaming. Cycle thru sight, sound and touch after 5 hours of sleep.
http://howtolucid.com/senses-initiated-lucid-dream-ssild-technique/

Saw detailed green hypnogogic images. Had a mist over them. then got crystal clear and very detailed "design| I recreated them when I went back to sleep later, but no 2nd lucid dream.

Similar, but more like worked metal. 

What does the dream want? Not at all sure. Need to research interpretation of lucid dreams. 

It's All in the Details

Wednesday
3/7/18  10:30 am

It's All in the Details

I am paying very close attention to on how to finish a rounded surface, possibly a circular wall. There are no others objects in view. I am trying to make the smoothness of the wall perfect with one last pass, with some sort of tool. Each time I pass it is better, but not perfect. I try many slightly different techniques, never quite satisfied.  This dream repeats multiple times for I guess over an hour and then I go back into it for at least 30 minutes after briefly being awake.

Notes: I was going to dismiss it at mundane, but it persisted so long I felt I needed to write it down.

What does the dream want?  FINISH THE APARTMENT RENOVATION! Is there more? Don;t get bogged down in perfection....get things done.