The Charred Office

Friday Mar 23, 2018
12;57 pm

The Charred Office

I am walking  through my office or my apartment. Everything has been burned, but not completely destroyed. All the things have been melded together and are all black.  I am not upset, more curious.

Notes. Day 3 of journaling 30 days in a row. I ha the same dream very recently. In the earlier version I was looking to see if the fire has solved a problem I was having. I wanted everything to be seamlessly jointed together.

What does the dream want? [Depending on the context of your dream, to see fire in your dream can symbolize destruction, passion, desire, illumination, purification, transformation, enlightenment, or anger] I need to purity and transform.

The Empty Hospital

Thursday 22, 2018
10:00 am

The Empty Hospital
I am walking down the street, there are three of us. We may be pushing a grocery cart or stroller. There may be a baby. It has the feel of being a street person because we are in the process of walking a fair distance. We have a destination in mind, I am leading us.

We are stopped by the police and questioned. I explain out circumstances and we go on our way.

We are getting very close to our destination and there is a blockage along side the road. We stop to rest and are confronted by the police, different ones, again.

I tell the officers that I used to work just around the corner and I know right were I am. They are not impressed. There is apparently a large drugstore just around the corner, close to where I used to work at the hospital. When I mention the hospital there faces take on a demeanor of respect and we are fine again.

We are now in the hospital. we are in a large room with a high ceiling and I as talking with a friend, a woman, I used to work with. The phone rings and I am trying to pick up the call. It is an old fashioned single line phone and the call won't go through. My friend has me take the call on the multiple button master phone and I begin to talk to my friend in England, Carole. We work through the confusion of why I am answering the phone, she needs to arrange for a large meeting place, it is not clear if she has business with the hospital.

My friend at the desk explains that the building is empty except for her and will be for some time. I tell Carole the circumstances and say the space will be no problem. I tell her all the hospital people will back in a week or so, but my friend shakes her head "no" with no explanation because I am still on the phone. I wake up.

Notes. Day 2 of 30 journaling days in a row. Had too much too much to drink last night, but still realized if I had asked "who am I now" I would have realized I was in a dream. Do this 10 time+ today.

What does the dream want? The major themes include career, respect, family responsibility, the employment insecurity in the wider public. I need to not be walking down the stree like a homeless person.

Wednesday
March 24, 2018
11:07 am

Reconfiguring My Office

[Snippet] I am in my office. I am working on slight changes to my computer system. There are three identical computer components. They each have two parts, a body the size of a glasses case and a small external part that attaches with the wires arranged in a specific pattern. I am consolidating the configuration.

There is a large circular water tank close to or in my office.

I am now outside the office with a friend. I have asked him to drop by and make sure the wires are connected properly. We are moving things into the office building. I am in a good mood and am singing. I hit a particularly note as we are going through some revolving doors.

Notes:  Day 1 of 30, post every day.

The water tank may be important. Emotions?  I have had dreams where water played a significant part before.  An earlier part of this dream was about water, possibly odd creatures in a pool.

What does the dream want? I could just be missing working with Charles (getting directions on how to o something right). If my emotions are in a tank...it is deep and clear...dive in? Examine? Live with as a part but separate part of me?

Early Morning Exploration [Lucid]

Tuesday: First Day of Spring

3/20/2018

2:10 pm

Early Morning Exploration  [Lucid] [S: Choline, Galantamine, Vervain] [SSILD]

I am suddenly exploring the back of my house (not my real house) in the early morning. Everything is extremely vivid and detailed. I instantly know I am dreaming. I look down at my hands and the end of my fingers are missing...yea!   I decide to explore and fly just above the ground. I make it around the corner and decide to go back to make sure I know how to get home. It is very early in the morning and there are no people around.  I go over a fence and am looking into the back of a cafe. I am concerned about entering without permission. The scene starts to fade and I consider trying to spin...the dreams ends before I can do anything to prolong it. 

Notes: Wow. It has been a long time since I have had a lucid dream. This was very intentional and very exciting. I had a very vivid non-lucid dream earlier in the evening.

[S: Choline 1500mg (3 tablets), Galantamine (8mg (2 tablets), Vervain, 1240mg (3 capsules)

[SSILD] Senses Induced Lucid Dreaming. Cycle thru sight, sound and touch after 5 hours of sleep.
http://howtolucid.com/senses-initiated-lucid-dream-ssild-technique/

Saw detailed green hypnogogic images. Had a mist over them. then got crystal clear and very detailed "design| I recreated them when I went back to sleep later, but no 2nd lucid dream.

Similar, but more like worked metal. 

What does the dream want? Not at all sure. Need to research interpretation of lucid dreams. 

It's All in the Details

Wednesday
3/7/18  10:30 am

It's All in the Details

I am paying very close attention to on how to finish a rounded surface, possibly a circular wall. There are no others objects in view. I am trying to make the smoothness of the wall perfect with one last pass, with some sort of tool. Each time I pass it is better, but not perfect. I try many slightly different techniques, never quite satisfied.  This dream repeats multiple times for I guess over an hour and then I go back into it for at least 30 minutes after briefly being awake.

Notes: I was going to dismiss it at mundane, but it persisted so long I felt I needed to write it down.

What does the dream want?  FINISH THE APARTMENT RENOVATION! Is there more? Don;t get bogged down in perfection....get things done.

The Pitcairn Man

Sunday February 18, 2018
9:50 am

The Pitcairn Man

I am living in a small sunny home that opens in the back onto ancient fields of grass with rows of stone. I am an adult but living with my mother [not a woman that I recognize when awake]. I make several trips to the fields and am discussing the origins of the rows of mostly flat stones that run in long rows parallel to the back of the house. They form gentle tiers sloping down as they get further away. They were made in ancient times for a specific purpose, that may still be a mystery.

Two men come to the house. We go to the back and again discuss the stone rows. The men are very menacing and directly threaten me and by implication my mother. I am frightened and do not know how to protect myself. I decide to invoke The Pitcairn Man. It is dangerous and there may be extreme violence, but he will take care of the threatening men.

I go in the house, my mother is asleep on the couch. I climb in next to her and pull over the cover. I am anticipating a quick and violent encounter for the strangers. Nothing happens immediately but I still have faith that The Pitcairn Man is coming to take care of business.

I am now walking down the street outside the house. The two men are arranging things in their vehicle. They have been hired to dig a precise hole in the ground. It may be a grave, they may or may not know the purpose of the hole. I tell them their job is going to be shorter than expected and will only last two days. I also instruct them to dig a second hole in the ground.

As I walk away I think the hole is to become their grave. They are complaining between themselves that if they knew the job was so short they may not have come.

I am now walking back to the house, there may be a gate on the left side of the house that I am considering entering and going into the back. I am surprised that nothing has happened yet but am still very confident that The Pitcairn Man will act soon. I wake.

Notes: All the scenes are very clear and bright. I feel fear in the dream but I am neutral when I wake. It strikes odd that the Term "Pitcairn Man" is so specific and I have no idea what it is.

What does the dream want? There is something very threatening to me and my family that will be taken care of by invoking an ancient power. I have been researching vipassana meditation retreats. It is a 10 day meditation retreat that is reported to be very difficult but powerful.  Is this encouragement to do it?


Vipassana Meditation
https://www.dhamma.org/en/vipassana

Vipassana Meditation. Vipassana, which means to see things as they really are, is one of India's most ancient techniques of meditation. It was rediscovered by Gotama Buddha more than 2500 years ago and was taught by him as a universal remedy for universal ills, i.e., an Art Of Living.

Pitcairn Island

Settled in 1790 by mutineers from the storied H.M.S. Bounty, Pitcairn Island is one of the British Empire’s most isolated remnants, a mystical hunk of rock that was largely ignored until 1996. Then Pitcairn’s secret was exposed: generations of rape and child molestation as a way of life. Delving into the South Pacific island’s past, the authors chronicle its 10-year clash with the British legal system, which ripped apart a tiny society.

The Disappointing Revelation

Thursday February 8, 2017 [Big Dream]
10:48 am

The Disappointing Revelation

I am with someone who is slowly revealing to me a series of special objects that they have collected just for me.  They each have special significance, but the last is the key to my future. A pair of colorful bedazzling treasures precede the final gift. They are turquoise with shinny tiny mirrors. I am amazed at their beauty. The last special token is revealed. It is an over sized artist paint brush. It has a brown unfinished wooden handle and round tip.

My immediate reaction in the dream is huge disappointment and sadness. I have tried being a visual artist. I have no talent. WTF.

Notes: When I wake I realize the dream may not be literal (duh!). If a brush is the most important think right now, may it is the brush work I need to do at the Thompson Apartments. Maybe it is not being an artist, it is completing a commitment, reach a level of financial security and get on with my life.

Or....and....maybe I should revisit my artist expression side. When looking for a picture of the brush in the dream I found a watercolor brush (Silver Brush) site that insipred me to consider painting dream scrapes in water color.

What does the dream want?

1. Finish Thompson apartments. Sell them. Be smart with my money. Cary on.
2. Explore becoming a water color artist painting dreamscapes.
3. Pan-American motorcycle trip expansion.  Combine Lucid Dreaming, Guns and Art as part of the trip. Guns only in the US.

Note: The Pan-American Highway is a network of roads measuring about 30,000 kilometers (19,000 mi)[2] in total length. Except for a rain forest break of approximately 160 km (100 mi), called the Darién Gap, the road links almost all of the Pacific coastal countries of the Americas in a connected highway system. According to Guinness World Records, the Pan-American Highway is the world's longest "motorable road". However, because of the Darién Gap, it is not possible to cross between South America and Central America with conventional highway vehicles. Without an all-terrain vehicle, it is necessary to circumnavigate this terrestrial stretch by sea.