Lollapalooza House (Semi-Lucid) (Needs Interpretation)

 Took regular supplements

I am in bed trying to go to sleep when Rory pulls me out of bed with my sheets onto the floor. There is very loud strange noises and vibrations going on in the house. I imagine it is something like an earth quake. I see my roommate Morgan in the hall, but she can't put two words together. I yell at he, what is going on!!! As I make my way down stairs the house is filled with people, wall to wall, The is music coming in from the outdoors, but very loud. The closer I look the Stanger things get.

I say yes and they comment to be careful (implied not to get too high) They comment about not necessarily needing to mix it with their snot. I moderate my hit and go back inside to go back upstairs to find Rory and possible Cindy. I am briefly laying down and looking very closely to the person lying next to me, they are going back and forth from being a brunette guy to a blonde girl. As I walk through the crowd I realize I now have pants on. I stop and yell, this is a public announcement. Anything you want, just manifest it!

I wake amazed at how vivid and close to full lucidity the dream was. I had even inoculated (right word?) the idea of having a dream with Rory in it, where we could be lucid together.

Cadillac Convertible Converts

Sunday 10:30am

I'm in a large red Cadillac convertible. It is brand new and I feel like I stole it. I am in heavy traffic and my lane is narrowing. My car is now being scraped on both sides.. one side by the  railing and the other side by ongoing traffic on my left. As I try to negotiate my way out I see that there's a bicycle parked to the right just before the lane merges. I go to move the bicycle and an officer tells me that that's an official bicycle blah blah blah.  I wake up stressed, fearful and frustrated.

I return to the dream.

At first I try to solve the problem by driving more strategically. Then I remember it's a dream  and I can do anything I want.

When I look ahead and see that the lane is becoming constricted a steering device emerges from the steering wheel and the car morphs into a flying machine. Rory is in the seat next to me with the wind blowing his ears. He has on an elaborate seat belt that is very effective at keeping him safe.

When we stop to pick up an elderly friend the passenger door opens. The entire seat comes out on a railing and allows them to sit back comfortably on the seat before it retracts safely back into the car. Likewise, Rory jumps to the back seat, his seatbelt is initiated with a magnetic connection that then becomes secure as we fly away enjoying the warm open breeze. 

Notes: The final dream was the result of many iterations. May have taken an hour or more. Such is life.

What does the dream want? Open up my mind to want I want or need, not just what I think is available. Don't stress over artificial constraints coming from others.

Reality check: This is how I perceive trying to succeed at my job/life. Given a very limiting set of constraints and struggling.

Bumper sticker: Feel the joy of manifesting what others think is impossible.

Dream yo action: Get paid well for being creative, passionate and taking Rory to work.

The Vulnerable Hesitation Sword Fighting Technique (needs interpreting)

 Thanksgiving Morning

I am in a vivid pristine room engaged in a life or death sword fight. My opponent and myself are well matched and both are very accomplished. We are trading blows, feints and various ways to overcome each other, but neither of our defenses are being penetrated. I get an idea to make a full swing attack on his face and neck, but stop completely still just for a split second. My thinking is that the fierce attack followed by a pause will create a brief hesitation of confusion that I will exploit. I am pleased with myself for the idea and how this can only be used once. It is a testament to how complete my knowledge and skill are.

Not Ready for the Test

I am with a large group of people we are milling around outside. There is a large event that is about to happen. I'm very relaxed and I'm looking through a large plastic bag that has been been prepared for each of us. I sit down at the table and begin to be organized and realize something is missing from the bag. It's missing a bottle of drinking water.

I go up to the organizer he has a whole table full of miscellaneous supplies and I ask about the missing water. He finds another bag that someone has not claimed and gives it to me. As I go through it I realize it doesn't have what I need either.

We're all sitting at picnic tables and begin giving instructions on how to start a test. I'm distracted by looking for my missing water bottle. I'm walking around looking in bags that we all have. I see a duffel that looks just exactly like mine but when I look at it all of the things inside are not mine.

I sit back down to the table to begin the test and realize that I've been fooling around while they gave the instructions and I'm not sure what to do.

I tell my friend that I now want to take a portion of the test that I hadn't signed up for. I rush away and get on an ele elevator to go to where I need to register. I'm not sure I have the money I might need as well.

And now outside looking at a physical challenge that is part of the whole process. I need to do something high in the air either on a tree or up a phone pole something complex. There are two long poles that everyone has to design a way to get up. But my poles are short. And I'm trying to devise a way to lash them together so that they will still work but it looks unlikely.

Notes: I was just reminded about the possibly homeless person I met at the trailhead to the Jack rabbit trail last night. He was looking for water. He seemed very polite but likely mentally ill. I went to the fusion market and got him two bottles of water and some beef jerky. Life is weird.

What does the dream want? Well it's a little too obvious. I need to get organized and complete in a timely manner all the applications for new work.

Reality check: when I was first and remembering the dream it seemed completely random but the reference to the water is very obvious. I need to meditate, calm down focus and focus.

Bumper sticker: Be Here Now.

Dream yo action: Finish the eye Adirondack health application. Everything else will flow.

Pinocchio Syndrome

I am working really hard to get to know about another person. The learning process is structured and supported by others. I go back and forth from the one being studied to the one studying. It goes beyond just gathering information to communing in some way. 

I am drifting in and out of sleep but returning quickly to a similar scene. I am now with one of the characters being studied.  They are becoming agitated and are struggling in some way. I scream at them, stop...you are real!

I feel the shock of realization and it wakes me, startled. I go back into the dream, partially conscious and realize dream characters have been brought to life thru study and direct mental communication. 

Can I do this with a romance? Conjure a girlfriend?

Notes: Woke curious and fascinated, slightly scared. 

Foot Rape (adult)

I am chasing a naked young woman. We are Kung Foo fighting in the air. I strike her lower body with my naked foot. It penetrates her body. A pointed appendage appears and is about to enter her and kill her. The alarm starts and I hit the snooze. 

When I return there are now three appendages but they are gentle and seductive. The atrial fight has morphed into a dance. 

Notes: When I first awoke I was alarmed but my emotions morphed with the scene change.

From Hunter to Prey

I am with a group of mixed gender youth. I become the angry pursuer intent on harm. Then my emotions morph into one who. Wants to protect the intended victim. I am now the frightened venerable one. But the instant I become aware of my plight I am empowered with the strength, speed and power of an accomplished dodger. The change is visceral and instant. 

Notes: I reviewed this dream many times before fully awakening. The initial dream was very brief and almost  nothing but emotion. 

The Love of My Life

What does this mean? 

"The Love of My Life"

1. The true love one that got away or is still my gal. 

2. The Love right now in my life. 

Board Feet

I am in a large enclosed space with other men performing a task or working on a large project, like a railroad..

I have Just discovered and am trying out a physical manipulation that intrigued me. There is a platform or wall made of wooden boards, similar is dimension to 2x4's. I have found out they fit on my feed and I can move them perfectly to fit like the final pieces of a jigsaw puzzle. I go back and forth lifting my feet with boards attached and placing them exactly where they got over and over. I am doing this before I fully wake to remember the process. I wake satisfied I remembered but am clueless. 

Notes: It was another case of mechanical dream logic. I work something out in a dream but upon waking it makes no sense or is no even possible.

What does the dream want? For me to complete a repetitive task? Use my feet to solve a problem?

The Woodworkers Assistant (Uninterpreted)

I am working in a shop that does custom woodworking. I'm an assistant to the primary woodworker. We are talking to a couple about a custom job. We are primarily discussing it with the husband. We come to an agreement and start the work.

It is complicated and has multiple repetitive pieces. The majority of the specialized pieces look similar to small Japanese hand fans. I asked my boss if he needs help with some of the repetitive work. We seem to agree but I'm not doing any of the actual work. The customer comes in to check on the progress and it is taking longer than expected. He asked for an additional small change that my boss agrees to but he also charges more. The man asks to get a break on the price because it was already expensive. The boss says no, very definitive but neutral. I comment to the man that he can be challenging to work for as well.

There are additional periods in the dream where I am checking on the status of the order. Is now taking much longer than expected. There's another discussion with the customer where my boss says there will be no extra charge because I quoted a fixed price. You further explains that's why it's why he's not flexible on pricing up front because things always come up. There's a general feeling of confidence on all parties.

They're at least two or three cycles of checking on the status and I wake before the project is done It generally feeling good.

Notes: Just got fired from MLA. 

The Spinning House Dislodges the Bees (Help?)

I am in my house on a beautiful sunny day. I see neighbors returning from a walk out back. Suddenly the entire house starts spinning on its axis but not too violently. There are other family members in the house and I explain to them that Cindy occasionally used this technique to clean the house. In fact the house usually settled back down with little or no damage. I comment that there is some damage being done, but it is very minor, like a tree limb being broken outside.

Suddenly a lot of dry leaves and other natural debris is shaken loose from under the fireplace mantle piece. All of the interior wall space is lined with bees. They immediately start to swarm all over the inside of the house. 

The situation does not seem fire, just a practical emergency. I run to our upstairs bedroom where relatively few beers have made and get I to the room and close the door. Another family member seems to have followed my leaf.

I wake physically alarmed, but not particularly upset. I try to reenter the dream for clarity. All my thoughts are very practical, like weather to use a big bomb or a shopvac. 

Notes: This dream was very  bright and vivid.

What does the dream want? I have no idea.

Visiting the Rural Poor

I am visiting some people out in the country that I have never met. I am in a very modest house, basically a shack, and I'm looking out the windows through some curtains at some others coming in. We kind of look back and forth at each other but can't really get a good look. When they come in we say hello and some comment is made about the back and forth.

I'm talking to a couple and the man is helping the woman through a doorway. Both of her legs have severe issues. They are skinny and bent and she shouldn't actually be able to walk. Power reflect on the condition of my leg which is incredibly minor compared to her condition. Whereas before I was feeling sorry for myself.

Someone asks for a donation and is passing around a jar with money in it. I see they're all $1 bills and take some cash out of my pocket and are picking out the $1 bills to put in the jar. The guy next to me sees a $10 and pulls that out. There may be an issue later with other people also asking for money.

One of the guys there says he's playing at a festival and then I should come back and see him play. I said that sounds great when is it. He says he's playing at 4:00 in the morning. I think and possibly, there's no way I can do that and go to work.

There is a brief scene in a later segment that gets graphically sexual. It only lasts a moment. Even in the dream it seems out of context.

The Reluctant Thesbian

It was a large group of people and we are at some sort of event. We're two other men and myself we've been assigned a small skit or piece of a play. Two other men have most of the dialogue. As we rehearse our parts I don't understand mine it doesn't make any sense. I have one or two words lines at a time and I am supposed to be flirting with one of the men as if I am gay and his status is uncertain. I can't get my mind around the idea. I am so stumped by the idea that I can't memorize my lines even though they all boil down to just a few words. We get closer and closer to the time we're going to have to perform and I have no idea what I'm going to do. I fret over it over and over again and yet still never memorize even a single line or queue. We are minutes away from performance and I still haven't decided what I'm going to do.

Notes: I come in and out of the dream and easily return to the dream but I'm just as stuck each time. I'm going to think of stupid I am but I don't just spend the time memorizing the lines.

What does the dream want? For me to consider my future sexual partners?

Reality check: I'm not struggling with my sexual orientation but I am definitely struggling with my lack of sexual intimacy in my life.

Bumper sticker: in theater there are no small parts.

Dreams to action: I have no idea.

Motorcycle Gas Line Repair After Being close at College Event

I am with a group of people just after an event on a college campus. You're leaving the event and finding our way home. I am an older person not one of the kids. I get separated from the people I am with and I'm looking for them.

As I am walking through the crowd looking for the people I've been separated from I make a comment using the n word. And then almost bump into two very large black men with neck to ankle leather coats. I comment on how attractive they are. They smile and offer me advice on where to go. I ask if there's a place where people might gather if they get separated and head in that direction.

I increasingly feel but I'm not going to fight your people I came with. I find myself on a motorcycle a pair of motorcycles with me and Paul and I'm still trying to find my way home. The landscape has gotten very remote industrial and it's very late at night. I come to a passageway through a fence but it looks almost impassable. There is sand and debris. I have made it through the barrier and we are on the street but now my motorcycle is having some sort of mechanical problem. I get off of it and look. I have Paul hold a light it's where the fork meets the center of the front wheel. But there is gas leaking out. It's not just dripping it's coming out under pressure and squirting a couple of inches. I reach my fingers down and I can feel how the pieces go together. It's like muscle memory. The leaking gas has cleaned all the parts and I rearrange them in a way that I can tell just by the feel it's perfect. There's a bolt that has come separated but is somehow still attached I tighten it up and the repair is perfect. But now we are low in gas in a remote area but at least everything is mechanically sound. I wait with a significant feel of feeling of accomplishment at having repaired the bike.

As part of waking I realize that if I do get another motorcycle I will have to do significant repairs myself. You can't be riding a motorcycle and not know how to repair it.

Notes: It's 6:00 in the morning I really need to get back to sleep because I have to work today and then pick Alex up at the airport and then work again tomorrow. Feeling good that I remembered the dream in such detail and getting it recorded and then going back to sleep.

What does the dream want? It is telling me that I am achieving some level of competence and some of it is based on past experience. But as also telling me it's easy to get lost. Literally.

Reality check: I'm considering getting a motorcycle that would be a used one that a friend is repaired. Imagining he will do all the mechanical work we will rent it and I will just ride it. Not realistic. What have to do at least the basic maintenance.

Bumper sticker: No free ride

Dreams to action: Continue my mental physical and technical knowledge gains. Be realistic about what I'm capable of doing.

After the Fall

I am part of a group of American soldiers after the war to end all wars. We are inside a large budding that still stands but everything is chaos coveted in dist. 

We are  fantasizing about selling a tank to someone and what we would do with the cash. They would inquire about security and we would day just come and get it. 

A small group of us is outside in the dark when am open keep with two people in it drive down the narrow street. We are desperately trying to find shelter but the buildings are abandoned but intact. There is no where to hide. I tell them to stay together or we will never finding each other again. 

The two men in the jeep stop, get out carrying a stuffed overnight envelope. A rumor circulates they are trying to deliver a plan to reorganize the world. It is obvious it is too late and their is no place and no-one to deliver it to  Suddenly I realize I am a soldier, on duty and have nothing to fear. I step out of the shadows and say...how can I help you.

I wake energized and hopeful.

Notes: I consider rolling over and going back to sleep thinking my memory is so clear I will journal it later. Instead, I make this entry immediately.

Bus Stop Morphs into Party with Richard, Chris and Big Foot

I'm getting off a bus carrying a bag of groceries. I'm about two blocks from my house in Georgetown, but I don't recognize the area at all. I'm standing on a hill that is very sandy and difficult to even stand. I'm trying to adjust the bag of groceries but they keep falling out and the bag is ripping. While I'm standing there a car parks right next to me. It's very difficult for the car to maneuver in the sand as well. There are a lot of people walking past me and going into the house. I recognize one of them as an old friend from high school, Chris Brannigan. I call his name and he turns. I tell him how great it is to see him and it's a coincidence because I've just recently talked with Richard Gilman, a mutual friend of ours.

I am now in the house that I was standing in front of. There's a party going on. Richard Gillman is in the house and has been staying with Chris. I am surprised but take it in stride. As I'm wandering around the party a tall hairy - furry guy starts talking to me. He looks like Bigfoot. He's complaining about some minor thing and we are having a casual conversation of no particular consequence.

The party continues and I have another fairly innocuous encounter with Bigfoot. I wake fairly happy and amused.

Notes: I had time to name and thoroughly review the dream before I fully woke. I remember it clearly even after making a couple of phone calls before writing it down.

What does the dream want? For me to get my s*** together organizationally. But still have a good time.

Reality check: I definitely have organizational challenges at work.

Bumper sticker: anything can happen.

Dream to action: be more methodical about getting to know the kids at work, their backgrounds, details of their current status. 

Worst Guitar Jam Ever

I am in a venue like a wedding. There is an seasoned chill electric guitar player doing an instrumental. I pick up a guitar and start "playing along". I do not know how to match his melody, instead I strum and pick with loud distorted noise. I play the guitar so hard that after the song the strings are stretched out and dandling from the instrument.

He is  very kind and gracious and makes some suggestions for my improvement. I look at my guitar the strings are all stretched out and bulging out.

[Later segment] I am talking about doing it again, I am leaving the house on the way to another session, but realize that I am in my stocking feet and have to go back in.

Notes: No clue...take to dream group?

What does the dream want? For me to really learn to play the guitar...at 70? Or is it about pretending in general?

Reality check: Can't play work shit, but would not like do anything like this loud mess.

Bumper sticker: Can't play, stay home.

Dreams to action: Step up and join the group....work on it...daily.

Ideal Me (IM)

I am the Ideal Me.

IM

Naked Goddess

I am with a group of people, mostly family. It's possibly set in an old Italian village. There is a woman who I recognize as someone I knew in college, Karen. We are preparing for some sort of event and she is changing her clothes. She is naked in front of me while she's changing but it's like I'm invisible. Her body is glowing from the inside like illuminated marble. I am old and she is still young. I'm slightly confused but she is so beautiful I'm more amazed than anything.

Later we are outside she is dressed and leaving for the event. She basically has not even recognized me.

Notes: This is a snippet of a much longer dream.

What does the dream want:? Not sure at this point.

Reality check: Between work and my dog walker I have many young women around me. It is quite the contrast.

Bumper sticker: Old farts are invisible.

Dreams to action: Get healthy.

Screw Up at School

I am walking through an outdoor event at a new school. There are small tables set up everywhere and a student running a group or offering product is at each table. I am waiting to talk to one of the kids who has some kind of technology that might that I'm interested in. I'm waiting for him to finish his conversation. As I do so I put two things down on his table. Something like a brochure and my cell phone.

I continue to wait very close by and then I see he's taking a break and puts a tarp over his table. I'm a little concerned and I'm walking around it picking it up to peek under. I walk around behind it and as I come around out front it takes me a minute to realize the table is no longer there he has left the event. I panic and realize I don't even know his name or anything about him. I start the problem-solve and think about asking some of the other vendors but everybody's in the process of breaking down. I wake up panicked.

Nores:  not an uncommon feeling for me after doing something thoughtless.

What does the dream want? Initially I had no idea but now I'm thinking I need to finish the sexual abuse training video for work. I have been procrastinating it's my only outstanding requirement other than getting a state driver's license.

Reality check: This is not an unlikely scenario for me but it doesn't click with anything that I remember or anticipate.

Bumper sticker: keep your phone handy.

Dreams to action: finish the course get your license !!!

3rd Assistant for Connected Hollywood Big Shot

I am riding in the back of a large limo with the world's worst driver. He is old sitting low in the seat in uniform. I am a low level assistant to  an aging rumored to be connected Hollywood actor. He may be Danny Devoto (at least 2nd occurance). We are smashing things and people on the road and the sidewalk several times on each block. I have a bird's eye view of our giant car pinning a tinny cart (I assume there is a person in it) against a wall and squwish it.q We then make a hard left turn from the right land causing what might be a fatal accident. The momentum of the car never stops. There is no mention of the destruction outside as we proceed to our destination.

We are preparing for a large production or event. My role is schlept things and run errands. Chaos also reigns in the facility/hotel. Everyone shows great deference to the actor and fear him. He is very demanding buy with a comic undertone. I screw up every errand and task I am assigned, but my job continues, like the limo. 

There are devices, costumes and other remnenents of old productions everywhere in the halls and rooms. I am looking for a device to help complete mopping the floors. I find and old device that is basically and open besuup metal box on a stick. It leaks the washing fluid that is used to clean the floor. It see it in great detail. When I wresdled it out to where it is needed, the floor cleaning has just finished..

At one point the actor tools in a skid filled with musical accessories. The are mostly flat metal object that are dented and obviously used. He explains we were told we got a bargain on them. They were an additional expense to the primary things we needed and it was not clear whether they would normally be included. 

I am getting the sense that my boss is not as dangerous as everyone thinks. I facility a phone call between two people that are close to the actor but he has not spoken to in years. I stay on the phone to eaves drop, they may hear my guffaw at one of their comments. There is a third party also long out of touch. It turns out they are speaking down the hall at an event. I take the phone into the event the sound is being broadcast. The phone becomes deadly silent. After a few moments the they hang up. I wake feeling sad and lonely.

Notes: Two scenes had hyper detail, like when going lucid. I woke without naming it and thought I had forgotten it. I may have been all of the three main characters. The chafeur, the actor and the observer/grunt.

What does the dream want? Fir me to clean up the chaos in my life.

Reality check: Way too many...

1. Destructive driver(James? Me?)

2. Chaos in facility...my house.

3. Over charged for old shit...yes

4. Missed old connections?

Bumper sticker: Petal to the metal reals havoc.

Dreams to action: Resolve financial and physical issues. Get relationships back in integrity. 

Brother and Sister Become Fashion Models

I am walking with my mother and sister. We're proceeding down a lovely road or path. It's a sunny day with the lights being filtered through the trees that shade the road. We are on a journey with a destination and a preceding at a moderate a definite pace.

We meet up with older family members. They may be my grandparents. When I see them they are Asian and it confuses me. I am not confused in the dream and just aware that their Asian and it's slightly lucid confusion. Although we are proceeding forward we meet up with them coming from the rear. Looking back they are joining us from a path on the left as we look backward.

We continue walking and one of the relatives is walking very rapidly walks past me and there is a flash of recognition. Is my aunt Edith. She looks very sharply and definitively into my eyes. She doesn't need to say anything to establish who she is. That flash is a very stark contrast to all the other characters in the dream and it's vividness and immediacy.

We continue walking but now my sister has a stop along the way goal that she hasn't told us too much about but she's very determined to go there. It turns to be out to be an outdoor arena. It's like Roman ruins it is old but in good shape. There's going to be a fashion show there that she's participating in. Suddenly I get the idea to participate as a male model. It's not just a fluke I have either practice or I've hidden talents in this area. I meet another male participant and he is obviously very accomplished. I am not intimidated at all and intend to really participate at the highest level.

Notes: I'm not sure if this dream is about me or my students at mountain Lake Academy. The dream is very vivid and colorful. I won't feeling very happy and supported. The flash of recognition with the spirit of my aunt Edith made me think about contacting the spirits that support me.

What does the dream want?  For me to work with my students in a dream group. For me to work on contacting spirits that are trying to help me. To go forward toward a goal but be willing to accept stops along the route.

Reality check: This journey supported by live family and possibly spiritual family parallels the work that my students are doing at mountain Lake Academy. The invitation for me to work with them in dream group is also obvious. As always, my own work is probably the most primal thing.

Bumper sticker: Dreams ≡  Life. 

Dreams to action: Make a dream journal with brief instructions at the beginning. Buy a copy of the lucid dreaming manual for the library. Make additional blank journals. Have them printed and available on Amazon. Sell them just above cost discount in bulk if possible. Ask for feedback from those buying the journals assuming they are teachers or others working with students in high school. Do some research this may already exist. Talk with Steve Burrell to see if he has any suggestions.

Rhapsody in Blue

 I am in an office environment. I have a task to complete, possibly some training. I am going to a work location but I am taking a motorcycle. There is a woman coworker driving, I am behind her. We move from a paved to a non-paved or smaller road and I ask her if she wants me to drive. She says yes and we pull over to switch. I am getting used to the controls because it has been a while since I have done this. I am having trouble with the throttle, which part of is located on the right side of the front wheel. (I didn't question it at the time). I am testing it and something seems loose/wrong. Right next to us an experienced rider/mechanic is giving me advice and gets me going with no repairs.

I am in a room, like a bedroom, with the young woman and we are listening to music on a computer that is on a bed. It is Rhapsody in Blue and I am turning up the volume so we can get fulling immersed in the music. It is mostly nostalgia for me because we don't have time to listen to the whole piece.  I am pointing out a favorite section that is coming up and fumbling trying to find the volume control that is a separate control on the right side of the keyboard on the laptop. It has been obscured by the sheets on the bed. I get it figured out.

We have another event to attend and we are discussing the timing. Her father pokes into the room. He is satisfied that all is well and we coordinate going to the next event that is at another location. There is some discussion about stopping by to get burgers for someone in the party, possible a child.

Notes: I awoke very happy that remembered the dream so well and that the audio was so clear and literally dialed in. The con tent was disturbing and also almost literal.

What does the dream want? For me to have a proper relationship with the dog sitter and not blow up my life and hers out of sexual desire. More importantly, she is a victim of sexual abuse (a learning module I am late going through on the computer and have lost the link)

Reality check: This is perhaps the easiest dream to interpret I have ever had. It is so close to "reality". I am ashamed by my behavior. I made a sexual innuendo about a work comment she made about helping seniors in the shower and later fantasized about having sex. wow.

Bumper sticker: Keep your hands on the wheel (The wheel was brought to my attention in the dream)

Dream to action: Be mindful of others trauma based experience. Sort out my sex/intimacy life. Get laid properly?

Drugs, Party and Car Theft

I am at the scene of a crime with family. We're all hanging out outside possibly from seeing a movie or something. There are many people out on the street on a nice summer evening. It becomes apparent that there are two cars that are being disassembled and essentially stolen in front of our eyes. One of the cars has all its windows busted. There's a gang of 5 plus maybe 10 guys. We're looking at the scene and they look at us threateningly and we decide to do nothing because it would be dangerous.

I'm at a large party that also seems to be outdoors. Again there are people all over and there's one person I'm talking to about drugs. He takes me out to a place in the parking lot where there's a whole series of packages lined up neatly. We start going through them and identifying different substances. They all have very sophisticated packaging. They are wrapped in cellophane with all sorts of bright colors and incredible detail. We literally stuff our pockets with handfuls of things and walk away.

Later I'm back at the same pile. It has all been reorganized and I'm with someone that is not familiar with it and now that I have familiarity I walk them through the detail of what's there and it's another very similar scene where we are going through package by package taking everything that we want and whoever is hosting the party has set this all up.

Notes: I woke fairly well rested but slightly anxious because I was supposed to meet Shirley to go garage sale shopping and to breakfast. Meeting her was on my mind when I went back to sleep about 7:30 and didn't wake up until 10:00. At the moment this dream seems to me more related to my work in the backgrounds of some of the kids I'm working with. Particularly one, Joel, who mimicked the hand off of a drug deal in the hallway. Eat a small wad of paper in his hand and was trying to get me to do a hand slap exchange. I failed miserably I had no idea what he was trying to do until after it was over.

It was very long series of dreams that seemed to be related. At one point I may have been dreaming for over two hours continuously.

What does the dream want? For me to sort out my use of drugs. Marijuana, Ayahuasca, mushrooms...

Reality check: Synchronicity. Soul Quest Ayahuasca Church of Mother Earth, in Orlando! https://www.ayahuascachurches.org

Bumper sticker: You are what you eat

Dreams to action: Check out ayahuasca in Orlando.

An Unlearned Lesson at the Candy Counter

I am in a large outdoor venue with friends. The event has just ended and we are making our way back to our cars to leave. Somehow I have been left with no transportation home and I'm considering hitchhiking.

I am making my way down a hill across the lawn and encounter a difficult area to negotiate. I analyze the land of land and make a decision so they don't get muck all over my shoes. I feel good about the decision and now back on the sidewalk.

I'm still trying to figure my way out and walk by a large architectural installation. There is an old area of very large sculptures and a more recent addition that are very tall and thin archways. Am I also looking ahead to my destination and see that there's a gap between where I am and where I want to go and contemplate jumping it. As I get closer I see that there is a walkway and that that idea was absurd. I am now right next to the archway and there is a young man playing with it. He's basically shaking it back and forth and while it's very tall possibly multiple stories it's just dry stacked stone and is wobbling. I asked him what he would do to improve the stability of the structure. He says add four stones. I discuss this with him and his parent and we mentioned that that would hardly be enough to stabilize it. We looked next to it and the huge old installation has large metal rods going back to stabilize it into the hill.

I am now at a very crowded candy counter and I've been separated from the people that I am with and was hoping to get a ride home with. There is an elderly woman working behind the counter. She's very nicely dressed. Something that would be stylish in the 1950s for mature woman. I asked for milk studs and then ask at their other options like milk dogs with something else. She says yes but she's uncertain of the price of the package and that that she can ask the management. I'm still hoping to negotiate a ride home so I say no that would take too long and say this in a way that is short and blunt, basically rude. I mentioned something about incompetence and immediately see that I have hurt her feelings. I mean  forward to look behind the counter and see that there are no prices marked on any of the candy. Aramark that the incompetence is not on her part but then part the people who set the stand up and expected them to remember the prices of all the items.

At this point I don't know if I'm dreaming or if I'm awake and just contemplating the situation. I tell her that not only is she not been incompetent but she's been very pleasant and helpful. At the same time I acknowledge that I have been rude and that the damage is already done. I compare it to running over someone's cat with a car and then apologizing. I've been in this situation more than once and every time I do it I feel like there's a lesson to be learned but I don't learn it. In order to truly learn it I would never be rude to another person regardless of the circumstances. It never turns out to be a good idea.

This thought turns into a contemplation of my new job that I will be dealing with lots of kids that are beyond rude likely violent in some situations. How the stress of modern life is made everything difficult. Reminds me of my encounter with the employee at Dunkin donuts. I think I did handle that well. We were waiting in line forever at the drive-thru and instead of getting angry I was more contemplative. When I got to the window I asked her if she was running the place by herself she said no but they were short-handed and couldn't get people to work.. she said the work was too stressful especially in the summer when there were crowds. I wondered to myself that work was so stressful here in the Adirondacks something is truly amiss.

Notes: Half dream, half post dream contemplation, back to dream?

What does the dream want? For me be prepared for the onslaught from the Mountain Lake Academy. Life goal...never be rude again.

Reality check: Being attached by kids will be challenging...rewarding?  Teach by example.

Bumper sticker: Being Rude is Never a good Idea

Dreams to action: My desires or beliefs do not entitle me to be rude, abusive or violent to others because they do not see the world as I do.

Hubris: The luckiest guy in the world gets really angry

I am with my family and we are entering a crowded movie theater. Is very popular and we're in a large crowd as we are working our way in the front doors of the theater. I look down and see a quarter on the ground, this happens to me often. As I've been down to pick up the quarter I realized it's part of several coins. Some bigger than quarters then bigger than silver dollar s then bigger than any coin I've ever seen. As I'm picking them up some one of my family I believe my nephew is standing next to me and is picking some up too but I'm grabbing most of them. I realize that they are layered and sheets of paper and there's some information on the paper. I imagine it's some sort of sales gimmick that somehow got dropped in this on the street. It's not just on the street it's like a little hole you actually have to lean over to get into it.

Gathering up all of these coins has taken some time and we are now late at getting into the movie. I'm following my nephew into the movie house but he is taking us around the side and we are coming in from the side and I realize that my wife has all the tickets and that everybody else is already gone ahead and we don't know where they are. In addition to that since we've come into the side if they're waiting for us in the front they're not going to see us. I'm distracted as I'm walking through the lobby by all of the offerings of soda and candy and I think about getting something. But I keep moving and ask where is the front door. I'm so agitated I almost shouted out in the crowd. I'm having difficulty finding the front door I'm confused about exactly where we are in the theater and I think get my phone see if they texted us. I tell Paul to do the same thing. I take my phone out of my pocket and it's like there's an old iPhone centered in the middle of my phone case it doesn't come close to fitting the case. I stare at it and I'm totally confused. I then realize someone has stolen my phone and replaced it with this joke. I've been realized the whole coin thing was not luck but a ruse and I was totally sucked into it. My emotions have gone from feeling really lucky to being stressed about finding my way to the seats to now being incredibly angry. 

I am back out in front of the theater. I am explaining to anyone who will listen what has happened and I am getting angrier and angrier. All of the coins have found their way into a pouch in my pocket and I pour them out and explain to people what happened. I shout why can't the police send a signal to the phone and blow those f****** up. After my explanation I'm picking up all the coins and putting them back in the pouch. I realize there's a second pouch next to mine that's also filled with coins and I wonder where that came from. I imagine that my nephew filled that one up at some point and so I just take it and pour it into mine. With all the coins in the pouch it barely fits I'm having difficulty pushing them into the pouch. There may also be a small metal object that is not even a coin that I've stuffed into the pouch as well.

As I'm standing there One of the people in the crowd ask Liam who is standing next to me, are you from here? Instead of answering he looks shy seems to be thinking about it somewhat confused and is mostly quiet. I butt in the conversation and say he's from here I've known him for 20 years. he might be slightly confused because he moved here from Wisconsin when he was young and still has family there.

I was so angry it woke me up. As I was half awake I was still angry about having my phone stolen and how expensive it was going to be to replace it. As I return to waking consciousness I realized it was a dream how foolish and what an ass had been in the dream. So my emotions went to embarrassment and shame.

Notes/Dream Sign: it is rare that a dream seems so real that it persists as I awake. That for ce was propelled by the intensity of the emotions. There were several distinct dream signs. The oversize coins, there were multiple stands in the movie theater for soda and what not. They were way oversized and they were way too many of them. The phone that have been replaced in my pocket was not realistic. It was like a miniature phone and totally exaggerated the difference between the size of the phone and the case. The scene jump from being essentially trapped in the theater not being able to find the front entrance to being outside again talking to strangers about my ordeal.

What does the dream want? With the subtlety of a hammer to the head the dream wants me to be less focused on money. This is very insightful in light of my new job. I've been very focused on the money because I've been under financial pressure. But the job is working with troubled young men and to say that the young men are more important than the money is beyond obvious.

Reality check: This is so like me I almost go back into a additional cycle of anger at myself for being such an ass. I even reflect on how I have been an ass and embarrass my wife on more than one occasion.

Bumper sticker: Chase the money miss your life.

Dreams to action: use the new job to get your finances to get my finances squared away and then get back to doing what's important in my life. Helping others.

Sailing Out of a CD Sale (Not interpreted)

I am on a warehouse store but the shelves are bare. I know I am at  CD sale. Most of the space is blocked off and empty. I am surrounded by large wooden display shelves with wide sloping surfaces. I ask if the sale is over and they confirm that yrs it just ended.  The the man I asked  consults with others I assume are the owners and .l says they will extend the sale for me for exactly 20 minutes. I say I will synchronize my watch but then reallize it is precisrly 3:00 so I won't need to. I am concerned I may be broke and consider being embarrassed if they keep the store open and I get nothing. 

Suddenly I an on a sailboat and am in a race with another boat. I shout out in stereotypical pirate talk. The other captain is pissed and says I am using the ten-o-nine code and swiftly passes me with a full head of steam. He smiles a sarcastic smile and statrs he was quite the bard in college. 

I am now in the bow of his ship moving quickly through a room filled with typical bedroom furniture. I am very motivated to show the captain I can adeptly navigate the obstacles by pushing against them. I am quite pleased with my efforts and awake happy with my efforts and with a clear memory of the dream. 

Multiple Dreams (not interpreted)

Hidden Power

I am observing and discussing power with another man. Long lines of equipment band provisions have been hidden in plain sight. They are military supplies. They are all controlled by a single woman. I just get a general image of her. Her image is dark with long glowing hair. Her power is direct, strong and based on energy or thought.

The Loss of Power

Several dream scenes later after waking and returning to sleep I am dreaming of the same woman. In just a few seconds I see her power fade away. There does not seems to be any external force effecting her. In a New York minute it is all gone.

Invention Pitches

I am part of a team doing street repairs in a neighborhood. We are repairing some advanced technology and represent a big tech form like Google. As we are working different neighbors bring us inventions they have been working on at home. The one I am most impressed with is demonstrated on something that looks like a chess board. It is a solid dark form that morphs into something thin and moves by itself onto another surface he is holding. It reforms into the original object. I am impressed with the solidity of the object and its textured surface. 

Procrastination + Black and White

Procrastination

I am with a group of friends/coworkers. We identify a list of 5 increasingly complex tasks. The first and simplest one may be cooking pizza.

I analyze the requirements in detail and in the order they need to be done. At some point I stay concentrating on appearances more that actually getting the jobs done. I precisely stage things so it looks like I have gotten a lot done and  right in the middle of finishing up then I watch TV waiting for their return.

Notes: As I awake I am surprised at the combination of ingenuity and deceit. 

What does the dream want? For me to get shit done.

Reality check: Planning to doing ration way too real.

Bumper sticker: Plan don't sham

Dreams to action: Clean the fucking house!!!

Black and White

I am passing in and out of the dream state. I am having a very distinct physical and emotional experience but it is very difficult to fully understand. 

I feel my body is in two states that are directly connected like two sides of a coin. But the connection is nonphysical but is an integral part of my bring. There are two aspects and they change as I reenter the dream but the essence is the same.

There is "me" and a black person. It is not black vs white, just that there is an aspect of my being that is a black person. I can feel the connection between the two sides of myself as tiny points on the surface of my skin. When nearly awake at some point I think they may be bug bites (I have many recent ones). The more awake I am the less sense it makes. The more in the dream state the more real I feel in precise physical sensations. 

I awake amazed and curious. 

Notes: It went well beyond dream logic into dream sensation. Especially the blending of waking physical sensation, bug bites, and the physical sensation of the connections between the two aspects of myself.

Reality check: I often wonder how I can bridge the gap between me and blacks. Maybe I just need to go deeper in myself.

Bumper sticker: You are what you fear.

Dream to action: Quit wondering how do they feel and ask how would I feel.

The Matrix (Supplement insights)

 I am walking through a series of events that at first seem endless and random. I am witnessing and participating in what may be a religious ceremony. Pairs of young women are being blessed/processed in a production line of pairs of participants. They are wearing highly stylized garb that makes them almost look like dolls.  Two-by-two  they are being brought to a higher level on a stage and being brought into the fold. The outfits where shaped like Russian stacking dolls but were more Japanese in style. The all looked identical. 

I am with some women and we are trying to locate our washed or new sheets and linens in a huge room. There are bundles stacked in piles wrapped in clear plastic to you can see the contents, But the sheer volume is overwhelming. I consider taking some bundles that I know are not mine.

I am walking through a series of synthetic leather consumer goods; Suitcases, wallets, purses. One after another. I am thinking, these are shinny but worthless and made very poorly. The line of fake leather goods morphs into a street scene. I am under an elevated road or railway like in downtown NYC. There are black vendors, mostly women working on what may be real leather goods sitting at sewing stations. I can see their skin glistening with sweat but they seem peaceful and productive. I glace to the left and I can see a regular inner city street scene with old parked cars and men mulling around in t-shirts. They are out on the street not under the shadowed elevated structure.

I am trying to get onto a crowded highway. Everyone has collected tons of the never ending consumer goods and are trying to pull their cars onto a jammed highway. Some people are just standing in the road the way someone might stand in a parking space to save it. I am trying to pull a car on the road but the wheels hake been stolen and I have only flimsy plastic runners supporting the vehicle.

Notes: I went in and out of this series of dreams for some time. It was so seemingly pointless and repetitive I considered not naming or evening trying to remember them. I named it the matrix because it dawned on me the reputation and hopelessness was the whole point.

Notes on supplements from Carl in Dream Study Group: While he has often found them effective, especially galatamine, his experience is that the experience my feel limited or artificial. It's as if the dream is an effect of the drug not something from inside your subconscious or from a higher source.

What does the dream want? For me to have a life above and beyond a worker/consumer.

Reality check: Way too real for most of us.

Bumper Sticker: You can't purchase your way to happiness

Dream to action: Build a life built on helping others, embracing nature and living sustainably.

Timing is Everything

Timing is Everything

I am at a street fair or some large gathering of folks outside in my neighborhood. I am trying to perform a trick or demonstration. It is a physical feat that involves hooking up to something like a chin up bar pulling myself up by also have briefcase or something in my hand. I'm explaining in great detailed people how this needs to be done.. I'm particularly interested in the kids watching the longer I take to explain the more of them that are drifting away and are no longer paying attention. And then get an additional insight that makes me explain and practice a piece of the trick about the hook hooking onto the bar or some such thing. This point there are no longer any children or their parents watching.

Saving the Veterans

There's a small group of veterans standing in line. I am walking past them and realize no one is paying attention. I also realize just by paying attention they can be saved. I think about them and somehow the group is identified and released. It's almost like a highlight cut and paste operation.

Notes: not sure if this is significance but I'm realizing a pattern where I remember dreams early from the night keep repeating them to remember them but then don't remember ones later where there should be more of them. Might have something to do with my sleep pattern while I'm waiting for my new CPAP machine.

What does the dream want?  The veteran's dream it was very brief and fairly obvious. For me to figure out a way to help veterans regardless of what happens with this job position.

When I went to name the dream and came up with timing is everything that seems obvious as well. Get things done when I need to get done.

Reality check: I certainly need to get things done and timing is becoming critical.

Bumper sticker: Do it now.

Dreams to action: Get going right now.

Multiple Dreams (Lucid w/suppliments)

Camouflage (lucid w/supplements)

I am debating getting out of bed to get a blanket. My wife volunteers to bring me back one, but I get out of bed anyway. I see a blanket but get distracted by a feather keepsake. I take it back to bed with me. As I am settling down I notice the feather is being blown around by my fan and I am worried it will be damaged. It blows next to another natural object, a small tree branch/leaf thing (dream logic) and I notice they have the exactly same coloring. Light brown on the outside with white in the center. I realize the bird the feather came from is perfectly matched to be camouflaged in the tree the branch came from.

I go back into dream and go full lucid briefly while looking at white pills on floor. I have very vivid detailed view of the tiny objects on the floor and turn my hand around and flex my fingers to demonstrate I am in a lucid dream. The lucid part ends quickly but does not wake me up.

Hospital Waiting Room (partially lucid)

I am cleaning up the room and it is starting to get wet (windows are leaking?) It gets wetter and wetter and eventually there is a couple of feet of water all over the room.  I am cool because I know it is a dream. 

I walk outside the room into a dark hospital hallway and decide to not go there because it will likely be dark and scary. I see a kitten climbing up the metal door (I notice this is strange). I bring him in the room. While playing with him he briefly speaks. Most of the others in the room are not particularly moved by this.

Dream Characters from Another Dream are in the room briefly. They acknowledge they are from another dream and two of them start to make out. I am jealous. 

Sorting Storage Dish Lids

I prepare a  stew that has been stored in plastic bags. I package them all up in storage containers for others to take home but struggle with morphing lids. The woman homeowner is spraying plants and it gets on the food. There are dubious ingredients in the spray. 

( I tried to go back to sleep and visit with the character from It's Just Us dream. No luck.)

Notes: First dream was experienced as reality until I briefly woke. I thought I had not yet gone to sleep. First lucid dream in a long time. Thank Charles for asking about my dreams. Also several audible conversations. That's a new welcome feature. Would be particularly helpful when I contact a guide.

What does the dream want? For me to keep journaling and working on my dream skills. Beyond that, hard to say.

Reality check: I was in my bed. Thought about getting out for pain pills. Was very surprised to realize I was dreaming.

Bumper sticker: Listen to your dreams

It's Just Us

 I woke suddenly with a vivid image and voice in my mind. Its just us. I was with a woman who shouted this at me as something explosive woke me in the dream.

Notes: While the entire dream was shorter than a GIF, it was very vivid and audible. Several things struck me. There is someone willing to talk to me in my dreams...a guide? The implication was that together we are very powerful. I was very excited for continuing to improve dream interactions.

What does the dream want? For me to embrace the power of my dreams and possibly a guide.

Reality check: I was having a job interview in the morning for St. Joe's. On the night shift. Seems related.

Bumper sticker: I can do anything with help.

Dreams to action: Go Lucid!!!!!

Long Dream in Mexico

 I am in a small town in Mexico. I am talking to my family on the phone and am trying to encourage them to come visit. I can't pronounce the name of the town. It begins with an A. I try and pronounce it knowing it's a hack job, but maybe someone else with better Spanish will figure it out. I am working in a high end jazz bar. I tell them it is very expensive but worth it. I'm dressed in very nice clothes and walk outside jewel garden. I immediately stick my hands directly into the dirt tell myself this is what I really want to be doing.

Well in a different small town dressed really poorly. A guy and a girl arrive and the girl says up and start singing really nicely. Then she's American. One of the guys is winter comes over to me and asked me to sit down in front of her so that the crowd will gather in front of her. I ask one of the waiters if it's OK and I start to organize bringing a table and a chair over to sit in front of her. I start walking  and star climbing up steep natural walls that take me over a bridge to another part of town right next door.

I am in another  small café there are lots of people in there eating most of them very young. there is a small group is all eating exact same thing that looks very interesting. it's a giant oversized piece of chicken something that's white not sure what it is. The owner and cook is preparing a treat for a very small child it looks sort of like an ice cream sandwich but instead of being cold it's hot gooey white stuff in the middle and he's twisting it all up in the air but in the end it makes a perfect pattern and the child with a child's not interested. so he is it to me and I accept it but I realize that there is a third piece missing something orange like mango any says he'll work on that as well.

I'm in the same café still outdoors but I'm climbing up the walls. Later I come back now familiar with the walls when a car or some sort of vehicle is crossing the bridge  is going to come so close it may crush us.  It's all moving very slowly. With the girl or another girl I climb up the wall to a ledge where we will be safe.

I am now out driving like in the desert across the bridge and I look back in there is a tremendous torrent of water going under the bridge. The bridge is still intact and there's a very small amount of water what the amount of current that might be in a normal Ford. I tell myself that it won't be dangerous and I drive back across the bridge or at least begin to.

Notes: Google dream is incredibly vivid and highly saturated bright colors like oranges, yellows and umber. I am amazed that I can review long stretches of the dream before fully wakening. Then I have to  fully wake to pee. It has been two hours and I am awakened by an alarm to give me time to go swimming. This is a lot of detail after two hours. Woke in a very good mood, happy, energized.

What does the dream want? For me to see my family more. take risks, but plan them or scope them out. Get more sunshine.

Reality check: I an considering taking a risk by working the midnight shift. C=I am checking it out and doing preventative measures.

Bumper sticker: Calculated risks bring incalculable rewards.

Dream to action: Plan, take care.

Dezekiel Smith

 I am abruptly in front of a young black man. The space is unnaturally  bright light, all the walls/space are white. His face and complexion are perfect, like CGI. He pronounces very emphatically...my name is Dezekiel Smith. He is telling me that I need to make sacrifices and give things away. His tone is like he is preaching.

I go back into the dream later, his appearance is more natural, his tone more conversational.

Notes: The visuals were like I was using supplements. Super intense and vivid, as was the voice. This was an early dream but the onyx one I remembered.

Wharf does the dream want? I have little or no idea...I have been striving for a long time to communicated with black people...my answer from the dream world?

Reality check: None.

Bumper sticker: Tell it like it is

Dream to action: Try and invoke him in future dream...keep an eye out for similar name.

Kiss to Kiss Off

I'm in a building with a young beautiful woman. We are excited like teenagers and sneaking into a room and start making out. It is very sensuous.

Very shortly after this encounter I find myself in a room with a young man. He is black I may be black. We begin to get sensuous. Our encounter is mutually oral.

Notes: I feel like I was cheating on her and have no idea why I would do that. Especially immediately after an encounter with her.

What does the dream want: for me to get my heart together.

Reality check: had given up on any real intimacy with my wife but she recently said she missed me and she loves me. Just as I am committing to a job 800 mi away.

Bumper sticker: Love the one you're with: not so much.

Dream to action: get your f****** s*** together.

Don't be an Asshole

 I am hanging out with a large crown of high school kids. I may be a parent/chaperone.  I reenter the dream and am still with the group but am now inside. Everyone is preparing for a second longer trip to an event somewhere else. There is a lot of discussion and people are getting ready. I see Julia nd ask where Cindy is. She has left and that will leave me to continue for a long time without a break.

I complain to Julia that this is not making me happy and all I have done is care for other people all day. I am typically too loud and embarrass her. I ask if she can find me a tooth brush to freshen up.

There is an extended scene where we are taking decorations that have been made and are hanging from the ceiling n a room. We are taking them down and trying to identify who has made them and will be taking them.

Notes: Rory ate my CPAP mask. I've been grumpy already (in pain a lot and stressed). Glad that I remembered the dream, but hated the idea of the dream.

What does the dream want? For me not to be an asshole.

Reality check: I can be an asshole and recently was to Cindy when down on sleep, rushed (late) and in pain. Not an excuse...an opportunity.

Bumper sticker:     Don't be an Asshole

                                     Like I can Be

Dream to action: Practice not being grumpy...preload with proper sleep and meditation and a well balanced life.

Searching for Coffee in a Hospital (w/Suppliments) Use in Dream Group

I am working in a hospital, (feels like it may be for eating disorders) but it feels more like an office job. I have been in the dream in the hospital for a while, maybe multiple days. Now I am looking for a cup of coffee and am walking through the facility.

My first encounter is with someone I know on staff, we exchange looks but for some reason she can not meet my needs. Then while looking for a bathroom I am confused by the information on a door ( it is covered with a bulletin board and lots of overlapping notices) I open the door into a patient's room who is nearly naked in bed with their back to me. Her body is emaciated, I back out quickly embarrassed. 

As I walk down the hall another patient is eliminating (some pee/poo combination) on the carpet and her mother is following her trying to stem the problem and clean up at the same time. I am now outside the building and an briefly talking to a patient in a wheelchair who is accompanied by what is likely a relative.

I find myself at the top of a series of stairs needing to get back down. They are all under construction. I tentatively put my weight on a flimsy roof trying to circumnavigate the route, but think better of it when it gives with just part of my weight. The main wooden staircase is completely impassable, I go to my right at what seems to be stone. I am encouraged but again find it blocked. I wonder why they would put all the the stairs under construction at the same time.

Notes: When I first awake I am frustrated. I can remember noting and am desperate to remember something...this would be my second day in a row with No Dreams Remembered and after asking a direct question, Should I take the midnight shift job at St. Joes? Suddenly, most of the dream comes back, even though I failed to review and name it before fully awakening.

What does the dream want? For me to take the job. My biggest reluctance is the potential risk to my health. If it is bad, I can quit/transfer. What I need to to really get to know the folks I aim to be helping. Maybe the whole idea is a bad one. Jump in, find out. 

Reality check: Many. My whole life is under construction. I am looking a a cup of coffee (often literally) while people are suffering. Time to get focused.

Bamber sticker: Emulate "Saint" Shirley. Mission first.

Dreams to action: Get Vets in my house, get the job, evaluate and go forward.