Dream Warriors

Monday November 25, 2019 11:15 am (regular supplements)

Dream Warriors

Scene one: The discovery
I am passing through the veil in the dream. I am coming back from another dimension or mental state. I am not moving, but have a new ability that I am trying to figure out. It is a special capacity that works in the other dimension.

Scene two: Traveling to gathering
I am with a small group, we are traveling, possibly by car. We are headed to a destination we are very focused on. There is discussion about these new abilities that we are all developing. We are also codifying our techniques enabling us to teach them to others.

Scene three: We are at the conclave waiting for the sessions to begin. 
I am in close quarters with a few others. We are standing in a tight space, like in storeroom with shelves or in a store in the isles. We know we need  to spread this knowledge and training to that others can be prepared. We are discussing how some individuals have been single out for discipline. They are the ones that we want to honor and engage with.

Notes: The dreams are significantly less vivid than usual with the supplements. I have smoked twice in the last two days, but none for the previous two weeks. The ability to go back into the dream and continue a plot is still working well.

What does the dream want? I am conflicted. I have spent a lot of time online looking at guns and hunting information. Trump is in the news continuously. I just read an article about the secretary of the Navy resigning because Trump intervened with the discipline of a Navy Seal that took pictures of himself with a corpse.

Interpretation one: The dream wants me to train for struggle in the next world. It will not be heaven, it will have conflict, just like this one. My fixation on arms is not about fighting on this plane, but about the next. Also, buy knowing about guns I will be interacting with many people that I currently perceive as enemies, but who should and could be my greatest allies.

Interpretation two: My subconscious has been overwhelmed with ideas about violence, dimension travel and conspiracy. Just playing it out in my dreams.

Earthquake Party

Tuesday November 19, 2019 2:30 pm (regular supplements)

Earthquake Party

I am at a house party. I am making my way through the folks mingling and hanging out. The house is in poor condition. The steps, the objects in the yard are all in disrepair. It is on a very steep hill and walking down into the yard is nearly as steep as walking down stairs or even a latter.

There is  young boy who says his name is John. He offered me an object I can not recall. As I make my way back up to the house the going is very difficult. I am climbing hand over foot when I realize the earth and objects in the yard are sliding down as I touch them. It is an earthquake! I am not particularity frightened, but more astonished.

Kiss and Grope Bar

I am meeting Cheryl (my 1st wife) at a bar/restaurant. She looks stunning and very sexy. It has been a while since we have seen each other. We quietly enjoy each others company for a good while. I then look into her eyes and we have a slow sensuous kiss.

I walk around the crowded multi-room club and encounter several women. They are more mature. I am talking very closely to one and am putting my knee between her legs as we talk. I may have done something similar to more than one woman.

Humphrey Bogart, Read me my Book

A beautiful woman (famous movie star?) and Humphrey Bogart are talking in a hole. It is a dark, wet and dirty rim of a deep hole, a well?. I descends down from a towering dark city of tall bleak buildings. They are discussing his writing. She tells him he is a great writer but he seems to only have a vague recollection. She offers or he asks for her to read some of his work. She begins reading to him.

Battle Bar

I am in a bar watching two young men very closely play a game. It is a live action battle between a tank and a soldier with a machine gun. They are each behind their weapon but only a couple of feet apart. They are firing repeatedly at each other. The projectiles are gooey small marshmallows. The one behind the tank seems very focused and determined. The one behind the machine gun seems indifferent, distracted, maybe drunk.

Steak on the Bar

I walk into a bar, possibly with Cheryl again. We walk up to the bar and there are a few pieces of steak neatly sitting in from of one of the seats. I consider eating them knowing it would be seen as weird. We sit down and get served by a female bartender. She gives Cheryl a drink that is very special. She lets me have a taste. It is caramel colored and is in a tumbler that is extremely thin.

Notes: I did a wake-back-to-bed and MILD  session. I woke at 8 am after about 4 hours of sleep. I did not wake up until 2:30 pm! 10 1/2 hours of sleep. I found it very easy to go in and out of the dream state, but no luck with lucidity, again!!!  I was very happy however, with thee ability to review, name and remember the dreams/segments. There were several very brief ones I forgot, but all-in-all, not bad.

What does the dream want? 4 our of 5 of the dreams where at a party or more specifically in a bar. I have spent way too much time in bars recently. Bur they do have something in common with bars. They are inhabited by people who seem familiar or in some way connected. The best time in bars or dreams is when I have conversations w/"strangers". Hummm...are the characters in my dreams and drunks in bars from a past life or separate dimension? When reviewing the dreams today I recalled other dreams that seem to have taken place in a similar location. Like part of a movie set or specific alternate reality location.

Dream Machine (nap)

Sunday November 17, 2019 5:25 pm

Dream Machine (nap)

I am coming in a out of the dream state. I am relieved because I can pick a particular type of dream by manipulating a machine. Like the bolt action on a rifle, I can slide a lever and get a result. When I actually awake I am disappointed, I was so sure it was true.

Notes: Want to become better at interesting dreaming during a nap.

What does the dream want? Maybe there is a dream machine? A way to almost mechanically decide what kind of dream to have. Humm...

Multiple + Mundane Prophetic

Saturday November 16th 10:15 a.m.

ADD Dating

There are four of us. Two young men and two young women. I'm one of the men. We're playing some kind of game. The goal is to remember all four of our names. I contemplate this as something very difficult. and then I just try to write down four names. I start with my own name very clearly written in script. I write David & but I can't remember the name of the woman that I am with. However I see how easy and immediate it is if I use a methodology.

There's a second part of the game I'm playing just with the same woman. I am trying to explain to her a concept and I say do you know how computers buffer information, what a computer buffer is? She says no. I realize my mind can do certain things very well that others can't do.

Military version of rolling over without waking up

I am between sleep and consciousness. I'm contemplating rolling over but do not want to come out of the dream state. Somehow I imagine it as a detailed military maneuver. I imagine detailed incremental pieces to the operation. The military aspect has to do with uniforms and machines possibly guns but it's all vague.

Mayhem in the house and field

I am in a class. It is a casual class we are on the floor. I have a yellow binder that I have been working in.. I finished one piece and edited it and handed it in. There's another piece that's handwritten and can barely be deciphered. I tell myself I will do it later. I think I refer back to it in another dream segment. In any case I just left it undone with the understanding that the binder has already been turned in that is too late. But also with the understanding that it probably doesn't carry much weight and will not be graded.

Cleaning the room while the water is still on. (Mundane prophetic)

I am trying to clean an amazingly messy room. Part of it is just clutter. But there is water that has been spilled or leaked on the floor and I'm trying to clean it up. I realize in the middle of the clean up that the sink is still running and there is a sheet that's in the sink is causing the water to leak out onto the floor while I am trying to clean it up. I turn off the sink and get back to cleaning up the room.

I go out to get a trash bag to start putting all the junk in from the room I am cleaning. I can't find them. I go to talk to someone, possibly the manager. He tells me there in a external closet and here's a key. When I go to open the closet the key is very complex. I have a very detailed few of the key mechanism. Has many moving parts and some surfaces that looks similar to the lock but I can't figure it out. I go and get help from the manager.

While I am cleaning the house I find a trapdoor and reach down into it. There are several neatly folded clothing items. They belong to Julia. I take some out to organize them. And leave others there thinking that she will get them later if she wants them.

I am outside trying to get some exercise by joining a game. Everyone in a large group is getting to play a game that they are wearing tennis shoes. I have no shoes and I contemplate getting hiking boots and how awkward that would be in playing the same game.

I am back cleaning the house and it is bizarre. There are all sorts of wild creatures, primarily. reptiles. Some of them look dangerous in their little nests they're crawling around. There's a small wildcat of some sort. I'm contemplating cleaning them all up with the rest of the debris and I realize that they may be pets. I think it might be Tom Lankford's pets up in my house or the house I'm living in.

I am feeling a time crunch in getting the house cleaned because there is an event that I want to go to. Some sort of performance possibly by a family member. I'm trying to calculate how long it's going to take to get there and how much time I have to clean the house. It gets very specific and I conclude that I have 2 hours until the performance. It will take an hour to get there. I have an hour to clean the house. I can possibly do it if I'm very precise.

Notes.  When I woke I was trying to be very organized about remembering my dreams while I was cleaning the room I was sleeping in. I knocked over a small thermos and spilled a small amount of water. I immediately recognized that this was a mundane prophetic dream about something that was going to happen or might happen. Got me very excited not because it was so important but because it was an example of Robert's mosses everyday prophetic dreams.

What does the dream want?

1. For me to be aware that I have specific skills. For me to know that I can do multiple things and to have a sense of urgency about getting things done.

2. To know but I can have prophetic dreams.

3. To strike a balance between time spent in the dreamworld in the waking world.

Lost and Found

Tuesday November 12, 2019 10:00 am

Lost and Found

I am bicycling with a woman. We have an assignment to contact two children in a neighborhood. It has to do with them making it to school. We find one of them but do not have the address on the other. We return to the school and I am looking for scraps of evidence about what the child's address is. I then start talking to a teacher who is very organized and has a list with everyone on it. I complement her on her origination.

I am contemplating how to contact the remaining child. If I ride my bike there then how am I going to transport the child? I consider the use of a car. At some point I realize the missing address is the same as the first one. They are siblings. I wake while contemplating the dilemma.

Notes: I am happy that this dream goes from confusion to clarity...big improvement.

What does the dream want? To let me know I am on the right tract with building the website for the inn and possibly with an approach to being more intimate with Cindy.

Nine Keys to Understanding Your Dreams (Moss)

Nine Keys to Understanding Your Dreams 
(Text adapted from Conscious Dreaming by Robert Moss. Published by Three Rivers Press.)

1. Trust Your Feelings 
Always pay attention to how you feel when you wake from a dream. Your feelings and bodily sensations may be your best guide to the relative urgency and importance of a dream, and its positive or negative implications.

2. First Associations 
In keeping a dream journal, you will want to get into the habit of jotting down your first associations with the dreams you record. What floats to the surface of your consciousness in the first minutes after waking may come from layers of the dream that have eluded, or from deeper levels of dreaming

3. Reality Check 
Compare what is going on in the dream to the rest of your life, including the life of your imagination. Always ask whether it is possible that any part of the dream will manifest, literally or symbolically, in physical reality. Though dreams are inner experiences, they often contain accurate information about external reality. In both subtle and unsubtle ways, dreams incorporate signals from the outside environments.

4. Dream Reentry 
Dreams are real experiences, and a fully remembered dream is its own interpretation. The meaning of a dream is inside the dream itself. By learning how to re-enter dreams, you will develop the ability to clarify messages about future events, resume contact with inner teachers, and resolve unfinished business.

5. Dialogue with Dream Characters 
One of the best ways to work out what your dream characters are telling you is to ask them. You can do this through dream reentry or simply by sitting down with a pad and pen, imagining that the dream figure is in front of you, and opening a conversation. Nine Keys to Understanding Your Dreams/Robert Moss p. 2

6. Tracking Your Dream Self 
Who are you in your dreams? Are you the protagonist or simply an observer? Are you younger or older? Male or female? How does the situation and behavior of our dream self compare with that of your waking self? The character who appears in all of your dreams, even if only as a witness, is you.

7. Symbol Exploration 
Although the dream source tries to communicate with us as clearly as possible, it must often speak in symbols in order to carry us beyond the limitations of the everyday mind. Symbols take us from what we know to what we do not yet know. You'll be inspired to track your symbols far and wide, and may discover that your personal dreams embody timeless myths from many traditions. Always remember that the best encyclopedia of dream symbols is your own journal, kept over time.*

8. "What Part of Me?"
Dreams make us whole. They show us the many aspects of ourselves and help us to bring them under one roof. This is why it is often useful to ask "what part of me" different characters and elements in a dream might represent. However, this approach is rarely sufficient since dreams are transpersonal as well as personal. If you meet a tribal shaman in a dream, that may be an aspect of yourself and an actual shaman. If you meet your departed grandmother, that is more likely to be Granma trying to communicate than merely a part of you that is like her.

9. Dream Enactment 
Dreams require action! You may take creative action, turning a dream into a story, a picture a collage.You may do some shamanic shopping, to get shoes or earrings your dream self was wearing or a sculpture of a deity you saw in a dream. You may use the dream as GPS on your life roads. You may accept dream assignments, seeking to translate that strange word or find that obscure place on a map of this world or another world. At the least, you can harvest a bumper sticker or action phrase from the dream that will help to move its energy into life.

Short Reminder List

1. Feelings 
2. Associations 
3. Reality Check 
4. Reentry 
5. Dialogue
6. Tracking Yourself 
7. Symbols
8. What Part of Me?
9. Enactment 

Confused in the Class & the Club

Saturday November 11, 2019 9:50 am

Confused in the Class & the Club (w/normal supplements)

I am in a classroom full of students. Class is just beginning and I am trying to get myself oriented. I have been struggling for a while to figure out what and where my next class is, the last of the day and maybe the week. I just can not remember and ask another student for help. She is one of three girls standing together. I explain my situation and have this helpless sad and pathetic look on my face. I tell her I have my schedule in my notebook, many inches thick, but I can not locate the piece of paper it is on.

The class seems to be divided into two sections, both of which are coming alive. There are staging some sort of production and I try and get out of the way but increasingly am pushed into a corner. I wake sad frustrated, almost devastated and then realize it is only a dream.

Notes: Listened to a chapter of Robert Moss's Dream Gates before going back to bed. Been having variations on this theme a lot.

Dream Enactment: (from Moss) Meditate on confusion.

Verse: 

Confusion makes me mad and leaves me sad. 

It turns me around and makes me frown. 

It strips me of direction and acts like an infection.

Most of all I am staid because I am so afraid.

Motorcycles & Mayhem

November 8, 2019 11:45 am

Motorcycles & Mayhem

I am having a n extended conversation with an android. The discussion is about eye focus and how we can shift micro focus during a conversation. (I need to look this up)

I am on a motorcycle ride wit others. We come to a very narrow turn and I stand the bike up almost vertically on its from wheel. I am balancing it to go down the narrow pass like a set of stairs.

I am on motorcycle riding fast and them slow way to at the end of a ride. There are indents in the road. It is not clear if I am slowing down because of the danger or just the designated end of the course.

Again, the bike is tipped at an extreme angle and almost dead stopped.

I am in a large indoor/outdoor party. Moving from one conversation/experience to another.

Patty is in a truck and she has stuffed all sorts of food into a purse. There are a couple of other women with her and she may be planning some sort of adventure. I wonder if I can go.

I come up to a beautiful tall redhead that is lounging on a sofa. I know her and get very close to her face. I can see every detail of her face and fine read hair. I am talking very intimately and may be slightly caressing her. The encounter is very sensual. She is slightly resisting and begins a lengthy discussion of how one of my eyes is focusing is a slightly different direct focusing on a different part of her face.

I am standing in line and telling a woman who may be a stranger that "I have got the New Orleans bug". It is a double entendre meaning I was bit by the bugs but am now captivated by its force of attraction.

Debbie is sitting or in a car and has a large piece of food in her mouth. She is fooling around and it moving it in and out of her mouth like a kid.

I am in my apartment. There is a meeting being held in another room and all the children, dogs and cats of the guests are my responsibility. It feels like fun.

I am sitting on a bucket, like I am going to poop, with my pants down. I may have started in a room but am now talking to a friend with no real concern about my situation.

Notes: Vivid, sensual, many segments. It feels like a series of dreams while on supplements, but none were involved. Yea! I woke being very happy with how many dream segments I was remembering. Second dream that Debbie was in within a week. Just short cameos, but very clear and memorable.

What does the dream want? For me to realize the plethora of dream experiences open to me. Also that I can have very sensual and vivid dreams without supplements.

Tuesday November 5, 2019 10:30 am
(took regular supplements after 5 hours sleep)

Fog of Dreams (Like fog of war)

I am in a series of rooms with many others. They are meeting rooms. The work that is being done is unclear. There is tech involved. I am looking an smart phones screens and the like paging through images that only make sense in the dream.

I am with someone in thew hallway and we are discussing his new office/recording studio. Similarly the details of the discussion only make sense in the dream. I wake with vivid images but unknowable goings on.

Notes: As I am waking up  I review the dreams and try and name them. I am unable. I can not articulate what they are about.

What does the dram want? For me to chill and not take supplements for a while? Introducing a new type of dream? Wants to shock me into awakening in the dream with massive dream logic?

Repeat Confusion, Clarity?

Monday November 4, 2019 9:15 am (Yea!, early...sort of)

Guy m Guy

I am in a gym or classroom, see a pretty girl and fantasize about booking up. My mate is watching through a window of a room next door and is pissed. I run into the room to "explain".

Native American Pilot

In a room taking with a flight commander over the radio. He is reminding me of the need to tell him just before my next take off.

I blast off with no warning, again. There are a series of straight pencil marks on the table and a new one appears as I take off.

I ask the commander how that was, he responds politely that  is was perfect. He then explodes info a controlled screaming tirade that I did not give him proper advanced notice, again! I then discuss with him an arcane procedure that allows a depositor to take over a bank. He is not getting it and I refer him to an article for info and validation.

Clueless in the Classroom

I am in a classroom waiting for a class to start. I am daydreaming and the class fills up and I have no seat. I get angry, throw my paper and pen across the room. The pen has come apart and the guy I almost hit with it asks if I need another pen. I say I am OK and move to another part of the room.

There is an open chair but it turns out to be next to an air vent and I cannot hear. The teacher is discussing an upcoming final test I am completely unprepared for. There is a vote on who will proctor the test. I do not participate because I can't hear. It was a no-duh result because everyone wanted the same teacher. When asked to explain the result the student next to me said this guy allowed you to smoke weed if you were done before everyone else.

There is some discussion about rape and I am surprised.

Notes: I have had this dream so many times. Especially when not watching my finances. Like now.

What does the dream want? For me to focus. Just realized this is an impediment to lucid dreaming. Feeling sorry for myself. Then thinking it is just an excuse and I just need to meditate more. Enough to change my brain structure. No biggie!

Random Thoughts: Looked up use of Native American. It sucks. most folks just want to be called by their tribe. Makes sense, but not workable. Like so many things American.

Lost and Found

Sunday November 2, 2019 11:30 am

Lost
I am in my home office. I am looking for some files. I look in one drawer. And then in another. I see some leftover evidence of files but not what I'm looking for. I get up from the desk and go to the room next door looking for my bed. There's someone else sleeping in the room. I go to another room same thing. I get the idea I am in the wrong apartment. I leave the apartment and start walking around. I go from one building to the next. From one environment to the next. And I can't find my way.

I'm trying to find my way out of a very large room and complex to the street outside. At one point a stranger stops me and asked me if I can give him directions, I tell him I cannot and continue on my way and finally make it to outside. I don't recognize the streets I don't recognize the buildings. I figure if I make it around the next corner I will make it to some place I recognized. but no matter where I go I'm someplace that looks sort of familiar but not correct. I wake up confused. It was similar to a false Awakening. In the dream I was very convinced that this was real.

Only in it for me. (fully volitional, made many decisions, partial lucidity?)
(X-rated over rated)

As I am getting dressed I'm putting on a funky combination of clothes. I don't have any money and do not have a lot of options about how I am dressing.

I am in a somewhat upscale restaurant. I feel under-dressed and have no money but order food anyway. The waiter is trying to be kind and spills some wine in front of me on the floor and pretends that it was his fault and is going to get me a new bottle of wine.

I get up from the table and start walking around the restaurant. I am cognizant that the waiter is coming back with my wine and feel a sense of urgency. there are many people in the restaurant I see Debbie sitting in a booth by herself. I sit down we are very glad to see each other. She comments she likes my clothes. I tell her that my dress it's sort of a costume.

Her husband comes back, someone I do not recognize, we say something about knowing each other but did not let on the depth of our relationship.

I'm making my way back to the table and possibly the same waiter bends down to clean my shoes. He uses a spray bottle they are sued shoes and it is odd to have them being "shined". I feel guilty because I don't have any money to tip him.

I am now wondering around other parts of the complex. It is much higher end. I find myself in a salon that is empty. It is very elegant and obviously for the very rich. I see a pair Lindt round chocolate candies.I pick them up and start eating them and bump into a young woman who is working there as a beauty person. She looks at the candies and says hello Mr. Lindt. She assumes that I am super rich. I immediately begin to take advantage of the situation and assume the role of a completely self-absorbed super rich person.

I start taking her clothes off and begin to sexually force myself on her. She's performing oral sex and I am forcing her to the point of discomfort. I then proceeded to take off the rest of her clothes. She has a very elaborate costume on. I find a pair of scissors and start to cut off her pants and underwear in multiple layers all at once.

At this point there are other people in the room there's a very focused mature black woman. She's looking into a locker that she's got someone locked in. She has been pursuing them and is staring at them. And I feel like that could be me. she tells me however that she's not pursuing me.

There are a couple of other people in the room as well and all of them are watching and even helping me disrobe this young woman. I then have full-on intercourse essentially raping her. Possibly ending with anal sex. Very sensual. (Something I have wanted to do in a lucid dream, or thought I wanted to)

I then start to make my way out of the facility trying to escape without paying. I am a mess and I'm looking for a shower. I can't find one and find a sink where I wash my face. My clothes are disheveled. I am nude from the waist down. As I start leaving the immediate salon the young woman is desperate and is following behind me hoping to still be paid.

I am able to cover myself by closing my robe. I am making my way down a long staircase case feeling like a thief. Next to me appears two people dressed like courtiers. They're carrying something like a carpet between them and it is covered in gold coins. One of them falls off I pick it up with the intention of giving it to the young woman. They somehow fall down the stairs making coins go everywhere. I reach my hands onto their carpet and grab two big handfuls of gold coins and stick them in my pockets. I still have the intention of giving it all to the young woman. I wake up basically disgusted with myself.

Playing in the Hood (Lost and found)

I am in a car in a parking lot with Julia. For some reason I tell her I am going out for a minute and leave her in the car.

I find my way through several buildings in a convoluted apartment complex. There is a large abandoned building with a steep access and broken windows. I climb down to explore. I get into some very dicey situations with nails sticking out of old wooden planks and I'm careful but nearly poke holes in my feet. While I am doing this there are a couple of young black men/boys watching me and are impressed with my dexterity and skill.

They continued on through the building and I follow them. The route turns out to be very treacherous and challenging but doable. At the end there is a very deep hole that we have to climb out of. I am contemplating how I'm going to manage it and one of the young men reaches down, takes me by the hand and pulls me out with a smile on his face. I am taken with how much fun it was interacting with people I do not normally interact with.

I remember Julia is in the car and start to find my way back. The apartments are very complex and look familiar but somehow I'm still well oriented. I remember very specifically how the parking lot I left Julia in is oriented next to my high school. I see the school and make my way on.

I am looking down a deep hill as I am making my way back and I'm amazed at how beautiful the landscape is. There is a deer that is running really fast from right to left and he slams into a man and his dog and knocks himself out. The dog is semi-conscious. As I am leaving I see that the deer is starting to recover.

I looked down at myself and my clothes are covered in mud and dirt and I reach into a pocket in my sweatpants and find my car keys. I think I was very stupid for almost losing them but feel confident that everything is okay now.

I'm climbing over some cars to make my way back. They are covered with snow and I need to slide down to the bottom. It works out well without me damaging anyone's car.

I get back thinking that Julia will be pissed at just sitting in the car for so long but she is engaged in some sort of game with a bunch of younger children in an interior courtyard of the same large complex of shoddy apartments. 

I wake happy that I was now found.

Note: I took my regular supplements. It had such an amazing effect I am curious as to why sometimes the effect is profound and sometimes it seems like almost nothing. I listened to a substantial part of Robert Ross's book and including some meditation techniques before going back to sleep. I had woken up with about 3-4 hours of sleep.

After the full immersion sex dream I was still feeling not good. I tried to go back and induce a more spiritually based dream and find a dream mentor. I've essentially given up on the idea of sex in dream. When I woke up from the second lengthy dream I was disappointed that I couldn't control the dream environment but then realized that I had had a long complex dream was feeling pretty good.

What does the dream want? I think it wants to demonstrate but having sexual encounters in my dream are really not satisfactory. if I'm going to have a sex life I need to do it while awake with real relationships with real people. Another possibility, is to have consensual sex only. Or even, sex controlled by the female. 

The dreams about racial interactions that are positive are fairly self-evident. The bookends of being lost at the beginning of the dream sessions and then being very well oriented at the end were also very satisfying and instructive. Have the right goals and you will know where you are, literally.

Wow.