Halloween Dream

Thursday October 31, 2019 3:30 pm (dictated immediately after dream)

Incompetent in the classroom with some hope

I am in the classroom with a large number of other students. We are in a large gymnasium. We are voting on who had the best project.

I asked if we can write the names down on the board so we can keep them straight. Teacher says no we don't need to do that. We vote and we all agree on the little girl. Someone we all know in like and is very funny.

Earlier in the dream. I asked one of the teachers when spring break is. I know it's immediately after we finish this project. She goes on a tirade about if they told her anything and the other teacher. They are both females. Apparently there's two groups of teachers the ones in the know and the ones that are kept in the dark.

One of the teachers that is running another group calls me over. I walk up the bleachers he has me a piece of paper with a bunch of information on it. It says that I need to prepare a talk. I scan it briefly. then he says no it was just a joke you don't need to do anything.

I am feeling out of sync with the class. I may have missed some time due to an illness. The teacher that gave me the assignment hands me his textbook which is in pieces. I glanced at it. You're very specific visual image of stones at a process where you put sand between the stones like mortar. I assume it's a civics tasks about building buildings and cities or something like that. I feel that if I had to over spring break I could read this text and have a clue as to how to answer questions on a test.

As I am waking I'm feeling much better prepared than I have in past similar dreams more incompetence and less clue about what was going on.

What now?

Notes : when I awoke I had no memory of the dream. I moved slightly and thought I had missed the dream. but I was able to basically go back into the dream slightly remember it in detail and even continued it slightly.

What does the dream want? For me to feel that I am getting better at organizing my life.

Chaos in the Garden + Harpooned Arm

Tuesday September 29 2019 @;45 pm
(Choline x1, Galatamine x2) WBTB, MILD, WILD  (lucid dream fail)

Dresses Hiked Up
There are several people in what feels like my home. They are in a vivid well lit room sitting, laughing, talking. There are two black women next to me. One has her dress hiked up and her vagina is so large and exposed it looks unnatural.

Chaos in the Garden
What seems like a continuation of the same dreamscape is taking place outside in my garden. There are several people, but one beautiful blonde is making very overt advances. We are trying to figure out how to hookup and things go crazy, in the dream and in "real life". As we try and find a secularized spot more and more people come into the yard. A group of women with Cindy arrive, but we persist in our desires. Glen Hellman comes in from side door and I consider telling him I need help and we do a threesome. I wake frustrated so close to a sensual erotic encounter.

My arms are very heavy and I believe I can go right back into the dream. This often happens on Choline/Galatamine. My arms are so heavy, I think they may be asleep so I move slightly. I then adjust my head sightly and loose the connection. Then a train comes by (my window is open), Dora barks, and then nudges me to get up. Is the real world conspiring to keep me from cheating in my dreams? Really!?

Harpooned Arm
There is a man in a pickup truck that is crashing into the water. His window is broken, but it seems it is just some sort of test. I am walking up the street an I see a severed arm on the ground. As I look more closely, the arm is harpooned from up the street and is reeled in. I follow the line and find a friend with his daughter. They explain that they were shooing for wall paper and just wanted the roll in his hand. It all seemed so logical at the time.

Notes: I went to sleep at about 2:00 am woke about 7:30. Perfect for a WBTB effort, so I took my supplements and tried to go back to sleep. It was difficult, I almost gave up and got up with the idea of napping later. I then went to sleep and didn't wake up until 2:30 pm!! I often sleep a long time with multiple returns to dreaming when I am on the supplements, but this was crazy. The lines blurring between wake and sleep were actually comical. The chaos in the dream being mirrored by the chaos in my room was very interesting.

What does the dream want? For me to not have sex in my dreams? Shit! We'll see.

Mundane Dream (Dream Continuity)

Sunday October 27, 2019 1:00 pm

Mundane Dream

(each segment was after a wake and return episode)
I am with a young woman (Cindy in later segments). We are leading a group of young children, (8-10 yrs old?). We are walking in a city during the day. There is the normal chaos with kids but nothing notable happens.

We come to a building and sneak in. There is a very small swimming pool and I go in with one of the kids. I show her how I can easily push off one end and glide to the other. I see myself clearly doing this.

We are now outside the building and I am discussing with Cindy how they have taken an old plain building and made it architecturally interesting by hanging new structure off of it. We discuss that it is a Canadian children's health organization that has had the work done.

I am on a hill close to the building on a bicycle. We are discussing another mundane aspect of the building. I am aware in the dream that it is boring/mundane.

Notes: This series of dreams went on from 8:30 am to 11:30 am! I kept falling back into the same dream space.

What does the dream want? For me to hone my skills at what I would now call "Dream Continuity".  I looked it up and put a link below.

Dream Continuity: Picking up where you left off (check out her books)
https://www.erinpavlina.com/blog/2006/09/dream-continuity-picking-up-where-you-left-off/

Multiple Returns to Same Dream Space

Friday October 25, 2019  2:50 pm

Multiple Returns to Same Dream Space

(Each segment is returning to sleep after briefly waking)

I am in a dicey urban/suburban neighborhood. Dilapidated single family homes are strewn with trash and debris. I am moving about, possibly on a bicycle. All the people are black. I am negotiating with someone about a dilapidated car. I am not concerned about my safety but am concerned about the welfare of the people I am encountering.

I am observing the relationship between a young black woman and a black man. It is just the two of them. The interactions are mostly emotional and conversational. It feels very loving and early on.

I visit  the same couple. The relationship is progressing. Something is changing about her, it is about her size. In the dream it makes perfect sense, when awake I can't figure out what is changing. (perfect example of dream logic)

A third time I am observing the couple. (Am I the man?). She is still growing in some way. It is very positive and heart warming.

Notes: Took my normal choline/galatamine supplements. Second day in a row. I also played with some techniques recommend in aYouTube video involving binalual beats. Had trouble with headset/ear buds. I need to work out how to listen to audio and still be comfortable enough to go to sleep.

What does the dream want?  Not at all sure.

Massive Lucid Sequence of Dreams

Thursday October 24, 2019  11:00 am
(Notes will be italics for a continuous recounting of the dream session)
Supplements: Choline (500 mg) x1, Galatamine (4mg) x2

I have not had any marijuana for several days (less than a week). I discussed needing to have more lucid dreams before going back to the Oasis with Edward in the afternoon. I was tired and went to bed early, 10ish. Woke up at 4ish. Watched 2-3 YouTube videos on lucid dreaming. Nothing really new, but focused on tip that 60% of subjects that did MILD, + wake-back-to-bed had lucid dreams within two weeks. I had decided earlier that I would keep a journal for two weeks when mediating 45 minutes per day and see what happens.

I woke after 5 hours of sleep, watched the videos and took the supplements. I then put on headsets and listened to a lucid dream induction. Too uncomfortable, so I decided to do my own induction. I used Gladys's Garden as the scene. I remembered and visualized in detail walking down into the garden. I also visualized laying down in the garden and falling into a lucid dream.

I woke frustrated that it did not work and then realized I had been dreaming vividly, just not self aware. Encouraged, I went back to sleep.

Sleep Clinic
I am in a sleep clinic, trying to have a lucid dream. There is a pretty woman with dark hair in the bed next to me and another working as a nurse, may have been the same person (dream hint). I am having no luck and keep trying to go back to sleep. They are breaking down the room for another use. The aids are gently rocking my feet trying to wake me up, telling it it is time to wake up. (just realized they meant wake up in the dream!!!).

Dream Discussion in the Dream
I may be talking to the woman next to me in the dream clinic. I have a detailed discussion on how to induce lucid dreams.

Amazing Blue Eyed Baby (lucid)
I am sitting on the floor with two toddlers, I may be one myself. I am staring into the eyes of one who has amazing huge multicolored eyes. They look like blue sky and clouds slowly shifting. I realized I am dreaming. I stay calm.

Wall Turns to Dust (lucid)
I come partially into consciousness, my arms are very heavy (always a good sign). I am in the same space with he children but my attention is drawn to the walls. The wall is a creamy color and morphs into a smooth chalky texture. It occurs to me that it is now porous and I press my body into it.

Going Into the Play
I am with a group, mostly women, waiting for a play to start. It is a special play that is being performed by children. The woman organizing the event reminds us of their efforts and herds us intro the performance with mild remonstrations.

Flying Black Mattress (Lucidish)
As I leave the theater I find myself on a small mattress completely covered in a black sheet. I am flying over the heads of people on street. It is a night city street scene, the folks on the street are various older black musicians. They see me flying on the mattress and smile knowingly as I go over their heads. (I had incubated the desire fly briefly before sleep)

2nd Flying Mattress Ride (lucid)
(After intervening dreams) I am again flying on the black mattress, but now I am in more control. I bank, twist and turn, mostly just holding on, but aware that I am flying in a dream.

Screeching Drawer (sleeping on my back)
At the end of my dream session I try and go back into a dream on my back (usually impossible). I am pulling a white plastic drawer out and hear that horrible screeching sound (like nails on a black board). I wale up amazed at the clarity of the audio in the dream.

A Young Gladys Moon Jones

Notes: Wow. Ask and ye shall receive.

Glady's Garden Induction

What does the dream want:
1.For me to quit taking marijuana!
2. Set up session at Oasis.
3. Meditate 45min/day for two weeks.
4. Order more galatamine.

The King Pin

Sunday October 20, 2019 1:30 pm

The King Pin

I am with a group of people who are working together to get a drug selling operation up an running. It is more like setting up an outdoor school event than a dark under world thing. We are working very hard and are about to open. There are two aspects to the business and I have concentrated on a new outdoor laid beck part of the business.

I have come to a table that is being run by one of the illegal drug providers. It looks like an old fashioned game of skill, It is all hand made wooden objects, some looking like thin bowling pins. I tell him I want to play. I imagine that it will be difficult, but he tells me I have everything I need to play.

The leader of the drug gang that is supplying us comes up to me to discuss how things are going. He is upset because his plans are not being followed. I tell him, to think of the business as a black box; You put in drugs and get out money. I said the money is flowing and there will be more to come as we implement his original plans. He is not satisfied and says he will now have to take over the whole business and push me out. All our hard work woad be for nothing. I kill him without thinking twice (sort of done off stage). I then seek out a reasonably intelligent and less belligerent gang member and ask him how he wants to work together.

Notes: I have had difficulty remembering dreams, so I am happy. Also, no marijuana for a couple of days...did that help?

What  does the dream want? For me to become a cold blooded killer? I doubt it. For me to be more focused and goal oriented...likely. To know that "I have everything I need to succeed."

Stealing The World's Greatest Work of Art

Monday October 28, 2019 10:30 am

Stealing The World's Greatest Work of Art

I am watching the stealing of the world's greatest work of art. It is a stature and there are workers with digging tools removing dirt from the foundation. It is a deconstruction project. I am viewing or experiencing the project from below.

Each time I return to sleep I am back int he same dream space and the efforts are further along. More destabilizing with increasing uncertainty of the projects actual end.

There is an increasing feeling of uncertainty about the endeavor. The eating away at its foundations has eaten away at the beliefs that the work represented. There is also an increasing feeling of instability and inability to resurrect it properly in a new location.

I wake feeling the emotional darkness of the project, but still amazed that I am three days running of long dream continuity sessions.

Prisoners (c 1519-34)

Michelangelo's Prisoners, or Slaves, were begun for the tomb of Pope Julius II but never finished. In its entirety – including the Dying and Rebellious Slaves in the Louvre and the statue of Moses on the final, reduced version of the tomb eventually erected in Rome – this constitutes the greatest unfinished masterpiece in the world. Yet Michelangelo did not leave things unfinished out of laziness. It is an aesthetic choice. The tragic power of these prisoners as they struggle to emerge out of raw stone is an expression of the human condition that equals Shakespeare's Hamlet. –

Notes: Contiguous dreams three days running. I looked up "the world's greatest work of art" and found this Michelangelo sculpture. It was only on one list, David and The Pietà were much more common. But, I found this one first.

What does the dream want? For me to travel the world in search of great art? Likely not. A warning about the destabilizing effects of destroying society's foundations? A cautionary tale of cheating or stealing?