The Sensuous Run

I am on a run with others. My senses are very attuned to my experience. I com to spot that drops off precipitously. I may be with John Cogswell. We are running on something like a college campus. We are running on well groomed grass. 

While the hill is very steep, I ptrceed done it without breaking my moderate pace. John may have been hesitant. While the descent is a bit harrowing I am being very careful yet confident. I am somewhat surprised at how fit I feel and feel joyful and exhilarated.

Thete is a group I am running with and I am keeping them insight. I run into Alex, also running. A make a mild joke to him whole we run together. It surprises the runner next to me and then I explain he is my son.

Are now slightly diverging with a clear battier between us, like a glass partition. I notice I don't see the trailing member of the group a head. I ask him if he is sure he know where he is going.

I wake with the joy of experiencing effortless running.

Noted: weather in the dream or now awake I realize how absurd it is to ask Alex if he knows where he's going. If anyone is lost it is me. I also realize that I was surprised in the dream that I was in such good shape, that is being slightly loosened as I was referring back to my waking self. 

Explode at Business Meeting

I am working with a group of people outside, possibly in a park. We are working through the details of a complex series of actions. Something like a political campaign. It goes on for some time there is a lot of interaction that increasingly feels irrelevant to me. I see someone walking towards the group and they signal that I have a phone call. I stand up quietly trying not to interrupt the meeting. I quietly signal them that I will be picking up the call in the process of leaving the group. 

A woman makes a comment about the call and warns me not to make too much noise so it doesn't interrupt the group. This angers me immediately. I'm thinking to myself but I made every effort to stay quiet and not interrupt the group and feel that's exactly what she's doing although she's saying it in a way that it sounds like it's my fault. 

I start shouting and having angry outburst and start listing all the ways that she is in surgery herself into my business and created a problem that didn't exist. While I am on this rant I can feel my lips sort of blabbering and I'm feel like I might be drooling. Yet this doesn't stop me I continue on my rant berating this woman. I wake exceedingly angry..

 

Notes:  While I have been taking online test for Price Chopper I've been getting very frustrated and had a couple of outbursts with someone else in the room. Well I don't know how big a problem this is I immediately reflected on my application at Fidelity and wonder if it's a good fit. The concern I have is that all the details are going to be frustrating it's not a good fit. There is a class that I can take independently online work through the process and see how I handle it. I also need to engage in ADHD counseling.

While searching for a picture I ran into this disturbing item, Intermittent Explosive Disorder (IED). Do I have it?

What does the dream want?  For me to chill and not over react to criticism.

Reality check:  Yup. Remember time we were driving at the beach going "the wrong way".

Bumper sticker:  Others opinions don't define me.

Dream to action: Get ADD Coaching.