Searching for Coffee in a Hospital (w/Suppliments) Use in Dream Group

I am working in a hospital, (feels like it may be for eating disorders) but it feels more like an office job. I have been in the dream in the hospital for a while, maybe multiple days. Now I am looking for a cup of coffee and am walking through the facility.

My first encounter is with someone I know on staff, we exchange looks but for some reason she can not meet my needs. Then while looking for a bathroom I am confused by the information on a door ( it is covered with a bulletin board and lots of overlapping notices) I open the door into a patient's room who is nearly naked in bed with their back to me. Her body is emaciated, I back out quickly embarrassed. 

As I walk down the hall another patient is eliminating (some pee/poo combination) on the carpet and her mother is following her trying to stem the problem and clean up at the same time. I am now outside the building and an briefly talking to a patient in a wheelchair who is accompanied by what is likely a relative.

I find myself at the top of a series of stairs needing to get back down. They are all under construction. I tentatively put my weight on a flimsy roof trying to circumnavigate the route, but think better of it when it gives with just part of my weight. The main wooden staircase is completely impassable, I go to my right at what seems to be stone. I am encouraged but again find it blocked. I wonder why they would put all the the stairs under construction at the same time.

Notes: When I first awake I am frustrated. I can remember noting and am desperate to remember something...this would be my second day in a row with No Dreams Remembered and after asking a direct question, Should I take the midnight shift job at St. Joes? Suddenly, most of the dream comes back, even though I failed to review and name it before fully awakening.

What does the dream want? For me to take the job. My biggest reluctance is the potential risk to my health. If it is bad, I can quit/transfer. What I need to to really get to know the folks I aim to be helping. Maybe the whole idea is a bad one. Jump in, find out. 

Reality check: Many. My whole life is under construction. I am looking a a cup of coffee (often literally) while people are suffering. Time to get focused.

Bamber sticker: Emulate "Saint" Shirley. Mission first.

Dreams to action: Get Vets in my house, get the job, evaluate and go forward.

Cops and Perps (Not interpreted)

I am s police detective walking thru a very seedy neighborhood at night. I as following the clues to solve a crime. Nancy is with me but our rolls keep getting reversed. At one point she stops to puke. Her behavior is obviously suspect. Not necessarily in the murder, just in s good good guy bad guy way. She may be puking in a grave yard. I may be the murder victim.

In another scene, after waking and sleeping, we are in a group with many cops sitting outside on picnic benches. we are discussing how valid and realistic our detective methods are. Something unique to Michigan. (Not sure on the name...an "M" word.

Are cops and perps that difference?

Notes: Glad I remembered at least part of the dream. No dreams remembered yesterday.

What does the dream want?

Reality check:

Bumper  sticker:

Dream to action:

Three Dreams About Violence

 All Out Confrontation 'Till Death Do Us Part
I am part of a group that is battling brutally with another group, I am hunting them down and killing them. I may be shooting them it may be had to hand. I am shocked, even in my dream.

Notes: Can in and and out of the dream a couple of times. Very vivid and personal murders by me.

Negotiation
Now the tow groups are negotiating a way to coexist. So polite and civil it is almost comical.

The Butter Incident
I am at home and a thug from the other group comes in and start talking/screaming about me borrowing or doing something with butter, he is really angry. The yelling and accusations continue, it is hard for me to take him seriously.

We are then in another location and he starts to attach me. The attach it completely ineffectual to the point of comedy. Every time he tries to hit me I flick him off and he falls back on the floor. I am now making fun of him.

Notes: Aside from the contents of the dream I was very glad to record and remember multiple dreams. Especially as they seem related and may be on a continuum.

What does the dream want? The world is a violent place and many of us think in very angry and dark terms about each other. Maybe there is another way. Negotiation? More likely I just need to negotiate with myself and take my violent side less seriously.

Reality check: Lots of violence and threats in the news. Very conflicted myself.  Part of me wants to kill intolerant people. Nice...

Bumper sticker: Kill for Peace Is there a plan B?

Dreams to action: Replace fantasies of violence and revenge (mental rehearsal,,,manifestations?) with love.

All You Need is Love

Third Time's the Charm

 I am diligently working on getting a horse through a process of certification. If the process is not completed the horse will have to go, possibly to be destroyed. There are others involved or at least observing that were initially cooperative but now are resisting. The steps are very specific and involve a lot pf paperwork. The task is finally completed.

Notes: I have come back to this dream several times over the past few days. I felt relief and a sense of accomplishment as I woke up. The third time is because it is the third night running for the dream. While the process was very specific darning the dream it was fugue and made no real sense wren I woke (typical dream logic).

What does the dream want? For me to move from construction to rentals on Pine Street. And to encourage me that I am progressing.

Reality check: I have many legal and financial challenges ahead of me on the Pine Street Project. I just finished Broken Horses, the Brandi Carlile autobiography.

Bumper sticker: Get 'er Done

Dream to action: Get 'er Done

What's going on?

There is a woman in my dream, it's not clear if it's me or another character, there's something I'm trying to figure out. It's stressful and important but I couldn't figure out what I was working on in the dream or as I tried to remember it. Hence the title, what's going on?

Notes: it's almost a no dreams remembered. I remember having it and trying to remember it I just couldn't figure out what was happening.

Fighting the Metamorphosing Monster (w/Std Supplements)

 There is a person who keeps changing and trying to change me in an evil way. I go in and out of the dream more than once. The fight is to stay myself, it is an ongoing struggle.

Notes: Took my supplements in hopes of a lucid dream. No short cut....do the You Are the Placebo meditation daily (1 hours). Also do the focus on my hands daily for 5 minutes (that's a long time)

What does the dream want? For me to stay true to mt calling...Vets w/addiction & PTSD issues.

Reality check: Not sure anyone is trying to change me, just my own demons pulling me down,

Bumper sticker: Be Your Best Self

Dream to action: Get fired up...forge ahead.

Preparing for an Attack

I am in charge of a public facility like an airport. We are anticipating a major attack. I have a large group of people I am coordinating. There are several rows of people on risers like in a highschool gym. I am trying to count them but am struggling to complete the count. As I count them one by one I loose count. I have them call out counting themselves but it keeps getting bogged down just in the front row. I am making no prprogress.

Notes: First large dream named and recalled recently. Took almost a week of daily journaling. Now go for lucidity. The institutional theme is a common one for me. The institutional theme is a common one for me. 

What does the dream want? To acknowledge my current lack of organization and progress. 

Reality check: Very bogged down in my work on Pine Street.

Bumper sticker: Settle your mind and the world will follow.

Dream to action: Meditate, Focus, Manefest, Finish/Start.

Two Snippets

Two snipets. 

He is just backing out, I say as a policeman standing hehind a car.

I am reaching up to a shelf in a pantry in a blue room. 

Notes: Trying to have something other than No Dreams Remembered.

Ski Jump From Hell

 I am preparing to make a very dangerous jump from the top of a mountain ski run. I am working my way back and forth to pick the best of several really bad choices. They all look near vertical and way beyond my capability. I am with a man who is helping me decide but who is mostly explaining all the social reason I need to do this. Everyone does it he explains, even if it kills you, this is implicit.

Notes: This is the first full dream segment I have remembered recently. It took almost of week of journaling. Not at all sure what it is telling me.

What does the dream want?  The seemingly obvious interpretation is that I should not bend to social pressure, but I am not sure how that relates to my current situation.  It would fit Cindy's situation where her job is literally killing her. 

Reality Check: I don't think I am doing or trying to do anything dangerous based of pressure from others. That is definitely the sate of the world today, but I am not at all sure how that relates to me.

Bumper Sticker: Follow the Crowd and Die

Dreams to Action: No idean

No Dreams Remember/Named

 I had a pretty vivid and active dream, woke briefly, remembered the segment but did not name it. So I forgot it later when I woke again.

What does the dream want?  To be remembered. Put pad by the bed. Write brief name and description when wake only for a moment.

Dream Object

I am going back and forth from dreaming and wakefulness. I am trying to remember and name an object that is very important or symbolic. Each time wake the object faded and I can no make it out.

Notes:  This is a physical version of dream logic. An idea that seems compelling in a dream but as you wake it becomes fantastic, absurd or so illogical it can no be expressed and therefore remembered.

What does the dream want?  For me to remain vigilant in my dreams and waking life.

Reality Check: Some things in our waking lives also do not stand the test of logic and clarity.

Bumper Sticker: Some dreams are just that.

Dreams to Action: Continue building clarity in both dreams and waking.

Clueless Once Again

I am performing a series of tasks outdoors. I am disorganized, disoriented and struggling. 

Notes: 3rd day journaling, no matter what.

What does the dream want? Get focused, get shit done.

Reality Check: Way into distractions and procrastination driven by fear?

Bumper Sticker: Be Here Now

Dreams to Action: Build Bed today.

 Steps to Get Your Focus Back NOW

1. Plan the Night Before

2.  Do the Hard Stuff First

3. Remove Distractions

 4. Take Breaks

 5. Keep Your Goals In Front Of You

 

Don’t let distractions hold you back from greatness.

Jacob on a Horse

I am a young native American on a horse in a open expanse. As I try to name the dream to remember it I hear the name Jacob.

Notes: 2nd day of renewed dream journaling. Jacob Nighthorse is a character in Longmire, an old show I am re-binging. I am committed to dream journaling back daily to reengage with my dreams. I literally have for gotten my dreams.

What does the dream want?  To make me commit to remembering/journaling.

Reality Check: Character name from a TV show.

Bumper Sticker: Forgotten Dreams Make You Lose Your Way

Dreams to Action: Dream, Journal, Remember, Become

Reboot Dreams Journaling

I have been thinking a lot about dreaming and trying to pay attention to my dreams but not journaling because it's been hard to remember them. Then I remember the way you remember dreams is by journaling them. So here we go...

Woman of my Dreams

I had a dream last night that was complex and involved a specific woman, not one that I recognized. When I woke I couldn't remember the dream just that there was a woman involved. After getting up and running errands I took a brief nap and a very detailed image of a woman came into my mind. While dreaming I realized this might be the same woman and was excited. She wasn't doing anything it was just like a live video feed of someone standing quietly. I want to commit to writing at least something every time I wake up.