Friday August 1, 2018
2:2 am
The Failure
In the classroom/dorm I am taking a test in a theoretical math class. I am unable to answer any of the questions. It is not clear if I have not kept up or it is just beyond me. when it is time to turn in the test I tell the professor. I am asked to leave the class immediately, including packing up all my clothes that are in the classroom/dorm.
Going down the stairs, get in a fight. As I am leaving I get in an argument with one of the students. He ascends down the stair in the air. I make a gesture that show I could easily defeat him, but we have no contact. This is discussed explicitly.
Fireworks display. As I am carrying all my stuff, I come to a fireworks display. It is very interesting and technical. One of the displays shots like a meteor thru the nearby pine tree tops. Two of them catch on fire briefly, but cause to immediate threat.
A cappella musical group. I then briefly participate in an a cappella group, but it becomes obvious that I can not really do that either.
Looking to buy the professor a cigar in the future. I very briefly see the professor, who I like a lot, buying a cigar from a tiny one man shop. I imagine getting him one in the future.
Notes: John and Carrie are visiting and are living a life well lived financially. He commented "your office looks like a bomb hit it." I thought, another bomb/failure in my life. The dream was very vivid, interactive and complex. The emotion of failure was weighing on me like a heavy weight. But my mood immediately lifted when I thought how clear the message was and that I had an outstanding invitation to talk about what dreams mean to me at the Rhine.
What does the dream want? For me to get off my ass and work.
