Newbie Guard

Saturday  Mat 24, 2018 6:45 am

Newbie Guard

I am a woman that is relatively new at her position. I am not fully trained and can only perform perfunctory duties. I am working with a few others. We are maintaining some kind of boarder.  Our work is very important.  It is not clear what we are keeping out.  The work is complex and potentially dangerous.

I partially wake and have plenty of time to reenter and review the dream, but is has been going  on for a long time and is difficult to discern what is going on. The setting is industrial.  There are dirt floors and simple American frontier furniture.

Notes: Day 4 of 30 consecutive journal entries.  Just took supplements and hoping to go lucid.  Working on "Who am I now" reality checks.  Being a woman was a major dream sign.

Denuded Angels

Monday May 21, 2018
12:36 pm

Denuded Angels

Two large dark winged figures are dynamically intertwined. With each touch the extraneous parts of their beings fall away. Their wings disappear, not torn off, just shed. They continue until each reaches a dark minimalist form.

A single dark man goes through a similar transformation. The details of  his outward appearance dissolve until he is left as a featureless form.

This pattern repeats many times through many cycles of consciousness and sleep.

Notes: Listed to Mysticism: A Study in the Nature and Development of Man's Spiritual Consciousness by Evelyn Underhill driving home from DC last night. The concept of getting to truth below our senses was central.

I woke briefly at 8:30 am and went in and out of sleep with these images persisting until 11:30 am.

What does the dream want? For me to get down to my essence.

Chased on the Base

Thursday May 19, 2018
10:34 am

Chased on the Base (Full circle fear)

I am with one or two others and running through some light cover in the dark. We are trying to avoid detection. We are on a military or security base. I may have been one of the agents but have switched sides and am being hunted.

The chase continues, but now I am on a motorcycle. We have sophisticated machines and are feeling pretty good

Many years have passed and I am traveling to a small town in a modest car. I am feeling relaxed and happy. I enter an upscale restaurant in a fancy standalone building. I see that this is the new and expanded version of a place I used to visit years ago. I want to say hello to some old friends but can only look at them and possible be recognized.  It is too risky to actually talk.

I am in the basement of a large office building. I am about to leave when I recognized a man that was one of the lead people searching for me years before. I try and leave without being spotted, but he ends up in the elevator with me, saying nothing with no eye contact.

Even though he is not following me directly, I feel trapped and afraid. It has all begun again. I see and feel the image of a dark entrance to a  cave or culvert.

Notes: I went dark to sleep several times and the dream persisted. I woke afraid and depressed.

What does the dream want?  For me to get unstuck, trapped, etc. On some level I may blame others for my need to be underground.

Shakori Shamanic Journeying

Saturday May 5, 2018
8:00 pm

Shakori Shamanic Journeying

I am doing my second round of a 15 minute shamanic drumming introduction. We are in the Healing Arts section of the Shakori Hills festival. I am skeptical, because even though I had a powerful initial experience with our guide, the music is so loud from two surrounding stages, I can barely hear hear him. I have already had the orientation earlier so I am content to go on.  Our drummer suggests we have an intention for each journey, mine is to meet a guide that will help me get back into this special state of consciousness at will. I am laying on a yoga mat in a circle with other travelers. Michael, our host, is in the center, our heads are all in the center of the circle as well, we are laying on our backs.  He offers a brief introduction and suggests we starting the journey with our active imaginations and see what happens...

I am paddling in open water toward the source of the lake I am on, a small stream that emerges from the deep woods. I paddle up stream into the dark forest with massive primitive trees on the shore. As the water gets too shallow to navigate, I pull the canoe to the shore and continue up stream through the woods. I see the stream emerge from a cave and I enter. I now see that I have been following a virgin spring to its source. I come to open cavern, the spring falling down in a small water fall into a natural stone pond.  I think to myself, I do not need to have anything else happen to me. I have ventured into the heart of the mystery of the world. I am content. The drum gets louder and I can feel the air pressure on my chest. The sound, vibration and pressure are mesmerizing. I then have an epiphany..".The Heart of the Mystery of the World is my Heart"

He brings us slowly back to the setting. I realize that I had completely tuned out the loud music during my shamanic journey. I am filled with joy.

Notes: I felt   strong sense of synchronicity as I am reading Robert Moss's book on soul retrieval through shamanic drumming. Quite the gift.

What does the dream want?  For me to know I have everything I need at all times. I can always literally listen and feel my heart as a way to be centered and connected. My heart beat is at the center of all things.