Saturday Mar 31, 2018
11:59 pm
Notes: 11 of 30 consecutive journaling days.
Saturday, March 31, 2018
Friday, March 30, 2018
Multiple Dreams [S:Choline, Galanamine]
Friday Mar 30 2018
2:00 pm
Multiple Dreams [S:Choline, 2 x 500mg tab, Galanamine, 1 x 90mg tab]
Nursing, Bottom Floor Mess (Too Much to Handle)
I am a nurse waking around several hospitals rooms on the bottom floor. There are no patients and the place is a total mess. Left overs opened materials everywhere, lots of water in pools on the floor. I basically give up because it is too much work.
Nursing, Main Floor (Get Help from the Daltons)
I am upstairs and things are still a mess, but much more manageable. As I am cleaning a group/family of people come in. I ask them their names and they say Dalton. We work together and get the place put back in shape.
Nursing On the Road (Evil Others)
I am still a nurse, but out on the road responding to am automobile accident. I am part of a team but there is a second team as well Members of the second team are not following proper procedures. They are doing things that are bizarre and will likely result in additional injury or death of the victims we are trying to help.
Chasing the Deal (Working Together to Get the Real Deal)
I am with someone else, a man, and I am maneuvering my truck in the parking lot. They feel it is dangerous, I feel it is OK, including driving over a curb.
We enter a building and join others of our group. It is in an old house, but is functioning as an office. It is not our office, it belongs to someone else who is also present. We are trying to figure out what to do next. The key is to contact someone we do not know well. I have met a woman who may have vital information but she may have just left or been fired from her job, so it may be difficult to get in touch with her. One of us (Rico?) also knows a woman, who may be the one we want, but he has a less friendly relationship with her.
We are loudly discussing all of this when one the people whose office it is tells us we are making a lot of noise. One of their coworkers/boss says we are fine and we should stay. Our search for information has turned into a game. We are rewarded for working together by all getting naked and likely planning to have sex. It is coordinated by the guy who told we could stay.
We are in another location. It is the outside of a restaurant or hotel. We are trying to follow someone, possibly the same guy from before. We think he may be giving us the slip, but it turns out her is walking up some sitars on the outside back of the building. It sort of looks like he is disappearing. We follow him up the stairs. It seems to be our goal. I am at the top of the stairs but the guy we followed in on hi knees giving me a blow job beneath a half door
Notes: This is 10 of 30 consecutive days of journaling. I woke happy because I could remember so many details. Not at all sure if any of it was really significant.
What does the dream want? Sex? Information, not secrete but hard to find, that will tell me how to be successful. The messy hospital bottom floor that has so much spilt water..if water is emotions, then maybe I just need to leave the past behind and get help from my friends.
2:00 pm
Multiple Dreams [S:Choline, 2 x 500mg tab, Galanamine, 1 x 90mg tab]
Nursing, Bottom Floor Mess (Too Much to Handle)
I am a nurse waking around several hospitals rooms on the bottom floor. There are no patients and the place is a total mess. Left overs opened materials everywhere, lots of water in pools on the floor. I basically give up because it is too much work.
Nursing, Main Floor (Get Help from the Daltons)
I am upstairs and things are still a mess, but much more manageable. As I am cleaning a group/family of people come in. I ask them their names and they say Dalton. We work together and get the place put back in shape.
Nursing On the Road (Evil Others)
I am still a nurse, but out on the road responding to am automobile accident. I am part of a team but there is a second team as well Members of the second team are not following proper procedures. They are doing things that are bizarre and will likely result in additional injury or death of the victims we are trying to help.
Chasing the Deal (Working Together to Get the Real Deal)
I am with someone else, a man, and I am maneuvering my truck in the parking lot. They feel it is dangerous, I feel it is OK, including driving over a curb.
We enter a building and join others of our group. It is in an old house, but is functioning as an office. It is not our office, it belongs to someone else who is also present. We are trying to figure out what to do next. The key is to contact someone we do not know well. I have met a woman who may have vital information but she may have just left or been fired from her job, so it may be difficult to get in touch with her. One of us (Rico?) also knows a woman, who may be the one we want, but he has a less friendly relationship with her.
We are loudly discussing all of this when one the people whose office it is tells us we are making a lot of noise. One of their coworkers/boss says we are fine and we should stay. Our search for information has turned into a game. We are rewarded for working together by all getting naked and likely planning to have sex. It is coordinated by the guy who told we could stay.
We are in another location. It is the outside of a restaurant or hotel. We are trying to follow someone, possibly the same guy from before. We think he may be giving us the slip, but it turns out her is walking up some sitars on the outside back of the building. It sort of looks like he is disappearing. We follow him up the stairs. It seems to be our goal. I am at the top of the stairs but the guy we followed in on hi knees giving me a blow job beneath a half door
Notes: This is 10 of 30 consecutive days of journaling. I woke happy because I could remember so many details. Not at all sure if any of it was really significant.
What does the dream want? Sex? Information, not secrete but hard to find, that will tell me how to be successful. The messy hospital bottom floor that has so much spilt water..if water is emotions, then maybe I just need to leave the past behind and get help from my friends.
Thursday, March 29, 2018
Dreaded NDR
Thursday Mar 29, 2018
11:59 pm
Dreaded NDR
Black Hole Releases No Dreams
Notes: Day 9 of 30 consecutive journaling day. 1st NDR. Did not write it down until the next day, but remembered several times...just a detail.
11:59 pm
Dreaded NDR
Notes: Day 9 of 30 consecutive journaling day. 1st NDR. Did not write it down until the next day, but remembered several times...just a detail.
Wednesday, March 28, 2018
A Spot on the Floor
Wednesday Mar 28, 2017
1:00 pm
A Spot on the Floor (The Search for Privacy)
I am staring at a rough patch on a wooden floor. I am imagining what has caused it. like a detective would solve a crime by imagining a scenario. I am crawling from place to place, very secretively. I have finally come to spot hidden and private. It is extreme, but this is what it take to be alone. I wake.
Notes: This is day 8 of 30 consecutive journaling days. I felt anxious when I woke.
What does the dream want? Element of the dream included being secretive, being isolated and desperate. Sounds like my inner most self wants to opposite of this.
1:00 pm
A Spot on the Floor (The Search for Privacy)
I am staring at a rough patch on a wooden floor. I am imagining what has caused it. like a detective would solve a crime by imagining a scenario. I am crawling from place to place, very secretively. I have finally come to spot hidden and private. It is extreme, but this is what it take to be alone. I wake.
Notes: This is day 8 of 30 consecutive journaling days. I felt anxious when I woke.
What does the dream want? Element of the dream included being secretive, being isolated and desperate. Sounds like my inner most self wants to opposite of this.
Tuesday, March 27, 2018
Multiple Dreams
Tuesdasy Mar 27, 2018
1011 pm
Precision in the Universe
I an trying to dock a spaceship. There is something about the alignment with the space station that is not quire right. If I do a regular docking will not release the full potential of my payload. I need to have a special perspective and see how the coming together looks from the other side. No matter what side I am on, there is a perspective problem. It may be a problem only solved with dream logic.
Flying: [Big dream sign!] I am with someone and getting ready to go inside. I am fooling around and am flying/gliding around just before I have to go inside. The flying is natural and I am contrasting to the book based information we will be getting in the classroom.
Course to get Certification: I am sitting in a classroom and studying detailed material. It is difficult, but I am handling it. I need to go to the restroom. There is one in the class. It is an enclosed fiberglass room in the corner of the classroom. I am now completely naked and have to pee badly. I look down and see water leaking into the john through a hole in the side wall. I am concerned that my urine will be discovered when I report the leak, but I do it anyway and prepare to be embarrassed.
Notes: This is 7 of 30 consecutive days of journaling. The classroom and embarrassment are repeating themes. Dreaming of flying and not becoming lucid is troubling.
What does the Dream Want? For me to learn new skill and not embarrass myself?
1011 pm
Precision in the Universe
I an trying to dock a spaceship. There is something about the alignment with the space station that is not quire right. If I do a regular docking will not release the full potential of my payload. I need to have a special perspective and see how the coming together looks from the other side. No matter what side I am on, there is a perspective problem. It may be a problem only solved with dream logic.
Flying: [Big dream sign!] I am with someone and getting ready to go inside. I am fooling around and am flying/gliding around just before I have to go inside. The flying is natural and I am contrasting to the book based information we will be getting in the classroom.
Course to get Certification: I am sitting in a classroom and studying detailed material. It is difficult, but I am handling it. I need to go to the restroom. There is one in the class. It is an enclosed fiberglass room in the corner of the classroom. I am now completely naked and have to pee badly. I look down and see water leaking into the john through a hole in the side wall. I am concerned that my urine will be discovered when I report the leak, but I do it anyway and prepare to be embarrassed.
Notes: This is 7 of 30 consecutive days of journaling. The classroom and embarrassment are repeating themes. Dreaming of flying and not becoming lucid is troubling.
What does the Dream Want? For me to learn new skill and not embarrass myself?
Monday, March 26, 2018
Attached or not?
Monday Mar 26, 2018
Attacked or not? (originally "Camp Administrator")
I am in something like a summer camp. I am transitioning from being a camper to running the camp. There is an administrative meeting that I am attending. We are going over proper procedures and protocols. Something happens and we are now in a shutdown mode, somewhat panicked.
It is not clear what has happened, even if some has happened. I am going step by step through the protocol, focusing on mobile phones. I am talking with another member of the staff, a female. I tell he in detail how to use phone, giving her the aside that it may all not be necessary.
Notes: This is 6 consecutive journaling of 30 The office/work theme has repeated many times. I need to look that up. [Back to school: you need to move forward in your life, to learn new abilities and skills that will help you grow] I am guessing other groups I dream of are based on my desire to be productive with others.
What does the dream want?: For me to be more certain and productive.
Attacked or not? (originally "Camp Administrator")
I am in something like a summer camp. I am transitioning from being a camper to running the camp. There is an administrative meeting that I am attending. We are going over proper procedures and protocols. Something happens and we are now in a shutdown mode, somewhat panicked.
It is not clear what has happened, even if some has happened. I am going step by step through the protocol, focusing on mobile phones. I am talking with another member of the staff, a female. I tell he in detail how to use phone, giving her the aside that it may all not be necessary.
Notes: This is 6 consecutive journaling of 30 The office/work theme has repeated many times. I need to look that up. [Back to school: you need to move forward in your life, to learn new abilities and skills that will help you grow] I am guessing other groups I dream of are based on my desire to be productive with others.
What does the dream want?: For me to be more certain and productive.
Sunday, March 25, 2018
Good vs Evil
Sunday Mar 25, 2018
11:30 pm
Good vs Evil: This is the firth consecutive day of 30 of journaling. I am trying to complete a process of getting all of the dark material our of a pattern. Just as I finish, the entire pattern turns black. I get the idea that dark forces or evil have just taken over. I start the process again and the same thing happens. Each time the pattern repeats I slowly realize that evil is not that worse than good. It just be different.
This patter of dark vs light repeats for a few hours. I wake up one or twice an fall right back into it.
Notes: I was amazed at how many times I went back into essentially the same dream. I work at 7:00 am and again at almost 11:00 am, still having dream with similar themes.
What does the dream want? It is not clear to me any actions that I should take as a result of this dream.
11:30 pm
Good vs Evil: This is the firth consecutive day of 30 of journaling. I am trying to complete a process of getting all of the dark material our of a pattern. Just as I finish, the entire pattern turns black. I get the idea that dark forces or evil have just taken over. I start the process again and the same thing happens. Each time the pattern repeats I slowly realize that evil is not that worse than good. It just be different.
This patter of dark vs light repeats for a few hours. I wake up one or twice an fall right back into it.
Notes: I was amazed at how many times I went back into essentially the same dream. I work at 7:00 am and again at almost 11:00 am, still having dream with similar themes.
What does the dream want? It is not clear to me any actions that I should take as a result of this dream.
Saturday, March 24, 2018
Multiple Dreams
Saturday March 24, 2018 9:30 am
[w/same batch of Supplements] 4 of 30 consecutive days journaling.
Dragging Rope from a Car w/Charles: Driving with Charles. there is a rope dragging out side the car. When I asked him he said, maybe it is a mile back. I get out and start retrieving the rope. It is temporally caught under the wheels over several moving cars. It is muddy in the lot I pulling the rope into. At some point I realize I will have a mile of rope in a pile and it will still not be organized.
Romantic walk around the City:
Cafe that is not open Scene: I am with a young woman. There is something off, I may be married. We go to a cafe. It is closed but the door is open. I talk with the two females employed and the owner, a guy. He say he is sorry he is close. He has just married another employee (I think he means married like a minister, he did the ceremony or juts the catering) The dream scene is dark and I am not sure I heard him right. I think about being old and hard of hearing.
Empty Store Scene: I briefly walk thru an empty boutique store of some kind.
Talk with Guide Scene: I am talking with a guy who is supposed to give tourists advice. He tells me I should go to a software house across the city. I say it is likely closed and I need to leave soon. He goes in the back and may have an argument with someone. His female coworker comes and sits next to me. We discuss his strange behavior. She leans over me. She has large breasts and I gently caress one. I ask if it was OK saying I am lonely. She says its OK, but its not.
Dog show scene: I have been split from my fried for some time and am getting worried. I pick up my tablet and it has come apart. I pick up my phone and it is in the same condition. As I am contemplating getting home with out her, she arrives.
The is a dog show going on right next to where I have been sitting with the woman I groped. There are lines of dogs, like sled dog teams. They are all mixed breeds. I see that one of the lead dogs has two heads. When my friend arrives we go to look for it and find it. Right next to it is a very large lead dog. It stands up and is huge. It is as big as a lama.
[w/same batch of Supplements] 4 of 30 consecutive days journaling.
Dragging Rope from a Car w/Charles: Driving with Charles. there is a rope dragging out side the car. When I asked him he said, maybe it is a mile back. I get out and start retrieving the rope. It is temporally caught under the wheels over several moving cars. It is muddy in the lot I pulling the rope into. At some point I realize I will have a mile of rope in a pile and it will still not be organized.
Romantic walk around the City:
Cafe that is not open Scene: I am with a young woman. There is something off, I may be married. We go to a cafe. It is closed but the door is open. I talk with the two females employed and the owner, a guy. He say he is sorry he is close. He has just married another employee (I think he means married like a minister, he did the ceremony or juts the catering) The dream scene is dark and I am not sure I heard him right. I think about being old and hard of hearing.
Empty Store Scene: I briefly walk thru an empty boutique store of some kind.
Talk with Guide Scene: I am talking with a guy who is supposed to give tourists advice. He tells me I should go to a software house across the city. I say it is likely closed and I need to leave soon. He goes in the back and may have an argument with someone. His female coworker comes and sits next to me. We discuss his strange behavior. She leans over me. She has large breasts and I gently caress one. I ask if it was OK saying I am lonely. She says its OK, but its not.
Dog show scene: I have been split from my fried for some time and am getting worried. I pick up my tablet and it has come apart. I pick up my phone and it is in the same condition. As I am contemplating getting home with out her, she arrives.
The is a dog show going on right next to where I have been sitting with the woman I groped. There are lines of dogs, like sled dog teams. They are all mixed breeds. I see that one of the lead dogs has two heads. When my friend arrives we go to look for it and find it. Right next to it is a very large lead dog. It stands up and is huge. It is as big as a lama.
Friday, March 23, 2018
The Charred Office
Friday Mar 23, 2018
12;57 pm
The Charred Office
I am walking through my office or my apartment. Everything has been burned, but not completely destroyed. All the things have been melded together and are all black. I am not upset, more curious.
Notes. Day 3 of journaling 30 days in a row. I ha the same dream very recently. In the earlier version I was looking to see if the fire has solved a problem I was having. I wanted everything to be seamlessly jointed together.
What does the dream want? [Depending on the context of your dream, to see fire in your dream can symbolize destruction, passion, desire, illumination, purification, transformation, enlightenment, or anger] I need to purity and transform.
12;57 pm
The Charred Office
I am walking through my office or my apartment. Everything has been burned, but not completely destroyed. All the things have been melded together and are all black. I am not upset, more curious.
Notes. Day 3 of journaling 30 days in a row. I ha the same dream very recently. In the earlier version I was looking to see if the fire has solved a problem I was having. I wanted everything to be seamlessly jointed together.
What does the dream want? [Depending on the context of your dream, to see fire in your dream can symbolize destruction, passion, desire, illumination, purification, transformation, enlightenment, or anger] I need to purity and transform.
Thursday, March 22, 2018
The Empty Hospital
Thursday 22, 2018
10:00 am
The Empty Hospital
I am walking down the street, there are three of us. We may be pushing a grocery cart or stroller. There may be a baby. It has the feel of being a street person because we are in the process of walking a fair distance. We have a destination in mind, I am leading us.
We are stopped by the police and questioned. I explain out circumstances and we go on our way.
We are getting very close to our destination and there is a blockage along side the road. We stop to rest and are confronted by the police, different ones, again.
I tell the officers that I used to work just around the corner and I know right were I am. They are not impressed. There is apparently a large drugstore just around the corner, close to where I used to work at the hospital. When I mention the hospital there faces take on a demeanor of respect and we are fine again.
We are now in the hospital. we are in a large room with a high ceiling and I as talking with a friend, a woman, I used to work with. The phone rings and I am trying to pick up the call. It is an old fashioned single line phone and the call won't go through. My friend has me take the call on the multiple button master phone and I begin to talk to my friend in England, Carole. We work through the confusion of why I am answering the phone, she needs to arrange for a large meeting place, it is not clear if she has business with the hospital.
My friend at the desk explains that the building is empty except for her and will be for some time. I tell Carole the circumstances and say the space will be no problem. I tell her all the hospital people will back in a week or so, but my friend shakes her head "no" with no explanation because I am still on the phone. I wake up.
Notes. Day 2 of 30 journaling days in a row. Had too much too much to drink last night, but still realized if I had asked "who am I now" I would have realized I was in a dream. Do this 10 time+ today.
What does the dream want? The major themes include career, respect, family responsibility, the employment insecurity in the wider public. I need to not be walking down the stree like a homeless person.
10:00 am
The Empty Hospital
I am walking down the street, there are three of us. We may be pushing a grocery cart or stroller. There may be a baby. It has the feel of being a street person because we are in the process of walking a fair distance. We have a destination in mind, I am leading us.
We are stopped by the police and questioned. I explain out circumstances and we go on our way.
We are getting very close to our destination and there is a blockage along side the road. We stop to rest and are confronted by the police, different ones, again.
I tell the officers that I used to work just around the corner and I know right were I am. They are not impressed. There is apparently a large drugstore just around the corner, close to where I used to work at the hospital. When I mention the hospital there faces take on a demeanor of respect and we are fine again.
We are now in the hospital. we are in a large room with a high ceiling and I as talking with a friend, a woman, I used to work with. The phone rings and I am trying to pick up the call. It is an old fashioned single line phone and the call won't go through. My friend has me take the call on the multiple button master phone and I begin to talk to my friend in England, Carole. We work through the confusion of why I am answering the phone, she needs to arrange for a large meeting place, it is not clear if she has business with the hospital.
My friend at the desk explains that the building is empty except for her and will be for some time. I tell Carole the circumstances and say the space will be no problem. I tell her all the hospital people will back in a week or so, but my friend shakes her head "no" with no explanation because I am still on the phone. I wake up.
Notes. Day 2 of 30 journaling days in a row. Had too much too much to drink last night, but still realized if I had asked "who am I now" I would have realized I was in a dream. Do this 10 time+ today.
What does the dream want? The major themes include career, respect, family responsibility, the employment insecurity in the wider public. I need to not be walking down the stree like a homeless person.
Wednesday, March 21, 2018
Wednesday
March 24, 2018
11:07 am
Reconfiguring My Office
[Snippet] I am in my office. I am working on slight changes to my computer system. There are three identical computer components. They each have two parts, a body the size of a glasses case and a small external part that attaches with the wires arranged in a specific pattern. I am consolidating the configuration.
There is a large circular water tank close to or in my office.
I am now outside the office with a friend. I have asked him to drop by and make sure the wires are connected properly. We are moving things into the office building. I am in a good mood and am singing. I hit a particularly note as we are going through some revolving doors.
Notes: Day 1 of 30, post every day.
The water tank may be important. Emotions? I have had dreams where water played a significant part before. An earlier part of this dream was about water, possibly odd creatures in a pool.
What does the dream want? I could just be missing working with Charles (getting directions on how to o something right). If my emotions are in a tank...it is deep and clear...dive in? Examine? Live with as a part but separate part of me?
March 24, 2018
11:07 am
Reconfiguring My Office
[Snippet] I am in my office. I am working on slight changes to my computer system. There are three identical computer components. They each have two parts, a body the size of a glasses case and a small external part that attaches with the wires arranged in a specific pattern. I am consolidating the configuration.
There is a large circular water tank close to or in my office.
I am now outside the office with a friend. I have asked him to drop by and make sure the wires are connected properly. We are moving things into the office building. I am in a good mood and am singing. I hit a particularly note as we are going through some revolving doors.
Notes: Day 1 of 30, post every day.
The water tank may be important. Emotions? I have had dreams where water played a significant part before. An earlier part of this dream was about water, possibly odd creatures in a pool.
What does the dream want? I could just be missing working with Charles (getting directions on how to o something right). If my emotions are in a tank...it is deep and clear...dive in? Examine? Live with as a part but separate part of me?
Tuesday, March 20, 2018
Early Morning Exploration [Lucid]
Tuesday: First Day of Spring
[SSILD] Senses Induced Lucid Dreaming. Cycle thru sight, sound and touch after 5 hours of sleep.
http://howtolucid.com/senses-initiated-lucid-dream-ssild-technique/
Saw detailed green hypnogogic images. Had a mist over them. then got crystal clear and very detailed "design| I recreated them when I went back to sleep later, but no 2nd lucid dream.
What does the dream want? Not at all sure. Need to research interpretation of lucid dreams.
3/20/2018
2:10 pm
Early Morning Exploration [Lucid] [S: Choline, Galantamine, Vervain] [SSILD]
I am suddenly exploring the back of my house (not my real house) in the early morning. Everything is extremely vivid and detailed. I instantly know I am dreaming. I look down at my hands and the end of my fingers are missing...yea! I decide to explore and fly just above the ground. I make it around the corner and decide to go back to make sure I know how to get home. It is very early in the morning and there are no people around. I go over a fence and am looking into the back of a cafe. I am concerned about entering without permission. The scene starts to fade and I consider trying to spin...the dreams ends before I can do anything to prolong it.
Notes: Wow. It has been a long time since I have had a lucid dream. This was very intentional and very exciting. I had a very vivid non-lucid dream earlier in the evening.
[S: Choline 1500mg (3 tablets), Galantamine (8mg (2 tablets), Vervain, 1240mg (3 capsules)
[S: Choline 1500mg (3 tablets), Galantamine (8mg (2 tablets), Vervain, 1240mg (3 capsules)
[SSILD] Senses Induced Lucid Dreaming. Cycle thru sight, sound and touch after 5 hours of sleep.
http://howtolucid.com/senses-initiated-lucid-dream-ssild-technique/
Saw detailed green hypnogogic images. Had a mist over them. then got crystal clear and very detailed "design| I recreated them when I went back to sleep later, but no 2nd lucid dream.
Similar, but more like worked metal.
What does the dream want? Not at all sure. Need to research interpretation of lucid dreams.
Wednesday, March 7, 2018
It's All in the Details
Wednesday
3/7/18 10:30 am
It's All in the Details
I am paying very close attention to on how to finish a rounded surface, possibly a circular wall. There are no others objects in view. I am trying to make the smoothness of the wall perfect with one last pass, with some sort of tool. Each time I pass it is better, but not perfect. I try many slightly different techniques, never quite satisfied. This dream repeats multiple times for I guess over an hour and then I go back into it for at least 30 minutes after briefly being awake.
Notes: I was going to dismiss it at mundane, but it persisted so long I felt I needed to write it down.
What does the dream want? FINISH THE APARTMENT RENOVATION! Is there more? Don;t get bogged down in perfection....get things done.
3/7/18 10:30 am
It's All in the Details
I am paying very close attention to on how to finish a rounded surface, possibly a circular wall. There are no others objects in view. I am trying to make the smoothness of the wall perfect with one last pass, with some sort of tool. Each time I pass it is better, but not perfect. I try many slightly different techniques, never quite satisfied. This dream repeats multiple times for I guess over an hour and then I go back into it for at least 30 minutes after briefly being awake.
Notes: I was going to dismiss it at mundane, but it persisted so long I felt I needed to write it down.
What does the dream want? FINISH THE APARTMENT RENOVATION! Is there more? Don;t get bogged down in perfection....get things done.
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