Key to Bracketed Abbreviations

Key to [Bracketed] Abbreviations

Sunday, November 9, 2025

Being Chsed vy a Monster

I am running with a group of people in the dark. It may be just off-campus. We are basically jogging, and I’m even narrating as we pass some non-milestones. Periodically, we realize we are being chased by some evil people possibly with a machine gun. When we see them, they’re up at the top of a steep hill. Behind the evil people there darkly Clyde in a robe or a coat is a gigantic monster looming behind them. Our running continues in little segments. While running, we don’t seem to be particularly afraid. But then we glance uphill. There are evil people, possibly just one with a giant monster behind them. At one point there is a group of people that are also being chased rolling down the hill. They are some sort of official. like a fireman or policeman. They also have on large heavy jackets, and they are rolling down the hill like kids might. They’re obviously afraid of being chased as well. There seems to be an issue with the way they are approaching things might not be very wise. With each episode of staring up the hill when we start running again, I break off from the crowd, sneak up between buildings and crouch in fear, hoping that they will not notice me individually and come and get me. This happens several times. When I’m all awake, I’m somewhat fearful, but more interested in the fact of the dream, and that it is now likely time to do a wake-back-to-sleep procedure with new techniques that I’ve been working on or reading about.


This is a rich, layered dream — one that combines movement, pursuit, and awakening awareness. Let’s explore its possible meanings through several lenses:


🏃‍♂️ The Running and Group Dynamics

Running with a group “just off campus” suggests you are on the edge of a learning or transitional phase — symbolically “near” a place of education or growth but not inside it. You are participating but also observing (“I’m even narrating”), which points to a lucid, meta-awareness: you’re both actor and commentator in your life and dreams.

The group represents shared purpose or collective striving — people on a similar journey. Yet your recurring separation from them (breaking off, hiding between buildings) shows an instinct toward introspection and self-protection. You are part of something, but you need solitude to feel safe and process the experience.


😈 The Pursuers and the Giant Monster

The “evil people” and the “gigantic monster behind them” can symbolize a layered fear structure. The armed figures represent immediate worldly threats — anxiety about judgment, failure, or being targeted by others.
The monster behind them is primal fear — vast, ancient, archetypal. Its hidden presence behind human aggressors suggests that what seems threatening in waking life (competitors, critics, authority, instability) might actually be animated by deeper internal forces — maybe your own shadow material or repressed energy.

The robe or coat covering the monster implies it’s partially veiled — known but not yet integrated. This fits with your reflective tone: you can see your shadow but haven’t fully befriended it yet.


🚒 The Officials Rolling Downhill

The firemen or policemen rolling downhill “like kids” show the absurdity or ineffectiveness of conventional authority or control mechanisms within the dream. They symbolize parts of your psyche (logic, order, responsibility) that are behaving irrationally when confronted with the same fears. You notice their approach “might not be very wise” — a subtle acknowledgment that rational or external systems may not help you confront what’s pursuing you.
It’s an invitation to explore inner authority — courage, intuition, spiritual steadiness — rather than relying on conventional defenses.


🕳️ Crouching Between Buildings

Crouching between buildings is symbolic of thresholds — hiding in liminal spaces between structures of meaning. You are seeking cover between systems, perhaps between old and new ways of understanding yourself.
It’s also a moment of active choice: you remove yourself from the crowd and confront fear indirectly — not by fighting or running fast, but by pausing and observing. This could reflect your real-world movement toward lucid awareness and conscious control within dreams and waking anxieties.


🌄 Lucidity and the Wake-Back-to-Sleep Moment

The final awareness — realizing it’s time to begin a lucid-dreaming technique — is profound. It’s your meta-self waking up inside the symbolic landscape. The fear transitions into curiosity. That shift — from being chased to deciding to explore — represents mastery over the unconscious narrative.

Your dream consciousness recognizes:

“Ah, this is the borderland between fear and creation.”

That’s the essence of lucid growth: you see the monster not as a threat but as an opportunity to experiment with awareness.


🌌 Integration Message

This dream suggests you are:

  • Transitioning from instinctive fear to conscious exploration.

  • Learning to separate from the “herd mind” to engage your own inner landscape.

  • Ready to face the shadow — not to destroy it, but to understand its purpose.

  • Expanding your ability to wake up inside fear and transform it into curiosity.


🕯️ Practical Reflection

Next time you sense pursuit in a dream:

  1. Pause instead of hiding.

  2. Face the direction of the monster and ask, “What do you want me to see?”

  3. Remember that the dream is showing your own unclaimed power wearing a terrifying mask.


Saturday, November 1, 2025

The Diner

I am at a facility with a group of people I am working with. We may be on a break or at lunch time. I go to  the water fountain and realize there are several people in the vicinity that are all waiting. There is a father with two adult daughters. He is treating them kindly, but like toddlers with micro grooming and other small interactions you would not have with an adult.

I am now at the counter about to order. I notice a hose that has air going through it and I try to adjust it. It makes it worse so I return it to the original set up. [when I wake I realize this is very similar to my CPAP hose]. When it is time to order I say eggs, then say just pretend I coming to your house for breakfast and serve me what you would at home.

I am now looking for a seat and there is none immediately available. I look at a long 3 sided table set up that has many people there. They all get up at the same time. It now looks like a huge sterile setup that would levee me isolated if I sat there by myself. 

I am now sitting next to a very young chatty highly active girl/woman. We are having fun and at some point I kiss her bottom lip. I then think, I'm married and kissing a young woman in work public.

Note: I have had several dreams recently when I can briefly feel a physical sensation in the dream. It is an exciting prospect for future lucid dreaming.


This dream weaves together several themes — authority and control, emotional boundaries, subtle awakening cues, and lucid-body awareness. Let’s explore it layer by layer:


🌊 Setting: The Facility

A “facility” often symbolizes a structured, institutional aspect of the self — the organized mind at work. Being there “with a group of people you work with” suggests a shared purpose or collective mindset — the part of you cooperating with others (or your own inner parts) toward some task or goal.
Being “on a break” implies a pause in activity — a liminal space between structure and freedom — which is often when lucid-dreaming awareness begins to arise. The dream begins precisely in that threshold.


💧 The Water Fountain & the Over-Attentive Father

Water represents emotion, life flow, and spiritual refreshment. The fountain is communal — a shared emotional source.
The father treating his adult daughters like toddlers reflects a theme of over-control or infantilization — perhaps an inner voice or authority that tries to manage aspects of yourself that are perfectly capable of autonomy.
It could point to subtle tension between protection and permission: are there places in waking life where your nurturing impulse (toward others, dogs, clients, or even yourself) crosses into over-management?


🌬️ The Air Hose (CPAP Parallel)

This is an elegant moment of lucid crossover — the dream mind referencing a real-world sensory input (airflow from your CPAP).
Your act of “adjusting” and then “returning it to its original setup” mirrors the lucidity principle of not forcing control but observing and restoring balance.
It’s also symbolic: air equals breath equals life force. You experimented with controlling that life flow — realized interference made things worse — and chose alignment over manipulation. That’s spiritual maturity in action.


🍳 Ordering Breakfast

Breakfast is the first nourishment of the day — new beginnings, fresh awareness.
Your line, “Just pretend I’m coming to your house and serve me what you would at home,” shows openness and trust. You’re asking the dream (or life itself) to give you an authentic, home-cooked experience — not a contrived one. It’s a sign of deepening integration: rather than “ordering” reality, you’re allowing it to reveal its natural flavor.


🪑 The Empty Seat and Sterile Table

Looking for a place and finding a sterile, isolating setup after others leave points to a fear of isolation amid order — the cost of hyper-structure.
It’s as if when you follow all the “right” procedures, things become lifeless. This echoes the theme of the father figure and the facility — over-management draining vitality.
It’s a gentle warning: don’t let your systems (work, routines, or even dream practices) become so clean they exclude spontaneity.


💋 The Young Woman and the Kiss

Here comes vitality — playful, spontaneous, alive. The “very young, chatty” woman may represent your inner anima (the youthful, instinctual feminine energy) inviting connection.
The kiss on the bottom lip, followed by the realization “I’m married,” introduces awareness of boundaries and conscience — but also lucid tension: passion meets principle.
This isn’t about literal infidelity — it’s about integrating the lively, creative, sensual side of yourself without violating your grounded commitments or values.


Emerging Sensation and Lucid Progress

Feeling physical sensations in the dream marks a threshold between lucid awareness and somatic integration — your mind and dream-body beginning to sync.
It’s a strong sign your practice is progressing: the nervous system is learning to translate dream sensations into real-time awareness without waking you. The excitement you felt is the right response — but maintaining calm curiosity next time can help you stabilize lucidity longer.


🔮 Core Message

This dream seems to say:

“Balance control with vitality. Allow life’s natural flow — in breath, emotion, and desire — without over-managing it. Integrate the playful, sensual, and spontaneous aspects of yourself within the structures you’ve built.”

Tuesday, October 21, 2025

Creative Intelligence

I am rolling over in my bed trying to get to sleep. I fall into a dream about trying to solve a problem. It has something to do with male and female. But I am brace the female aspect I'm more successful at achieving the goal. 

This theme comes in and out of my dreams for hours. I am new to a group of people that are learning to do I'm going to call it combat. Everybody else in the group is coming out of medical school and they're doing this on the side. For me I don't have that background. The first thing we're doing  is using a machine that has multiple functions. There are many of the machines new in boxes on the shelf.  They're having difficulty implementing use of the machine and I pick one up and experiment with it. It's essentially an engine but has a sword attached. I detach the sword and basically show people that this is excellent for initial combat training. The swords are not particularly sharp or dangerous but it will hone skills. They are thankful to me for coming up with this innovation. 

The engine has two components or they're actually two separate engines. In order to use them both you need to switch from one to the other but there is a chemical component and if you're not very careful it can be deadly. The medical students are very aware of this. I see the warnings but don't understand it chemically and tell myself I need to do some research. Like the sword before I come up with a process that allows you to switch from one engine to the other and accounting for these chemicals that are in a tubes so that they don't mix. It allows for a smooth transition from one to the other by bypassing the danger. Once again they are very thankful for me to figure this out allows us all to go forward and machine to practice our skills.


This dream blends masculine and feminine integration, innovation, and leadership in unknown territory — a rich reflection of your current phase of inner and outer growth. Let’s break it down:


🌗 Opening Scene — The Threshold Between Waking and Dreaming

You’re rolling over in bed, trying to sleep, and then fall into a dream about solving a problem involving male and female aspects.
This transitional state — half waking, half dreaming — often marks an entry into conscious dreaming, where the mind begins to work through polarities: logic and intuition, control and surrender, doing and being.
When you embrace the female aspect and succeed, it shows that your progress depends on accepting receptive, intuitive, and feeling-based modes of being, not just action and intellect.

In essence: your psyche is saying, “Stop pushing — flow.”


⚙️ The Training Group — Learning a New Kind of Power

You join a group learning “combat,” but they’re all from medical school.
That’s symbolic. They come from the realm of healing, analysis, and the body, while you come as an outsider — someone from experience, instinct, or creativity rather than academic training.

The combat itself may not mean literal fighting, but rather learning how to engage consciously with life’s challenges — how to wield energy, will, or boundaries effectively. You are developing skillful means: knowing when to assert (masculine) and when to yield (feminine).


⚔️ The Machine with the Sword — Technology and Spiritual Innovation

You experiment with a machine that has multiple functions — essentially an engine with a sword attached.
That’s potent imagery:

  • The engine = drive, vitality, masculine energy, purpose.

  • The sword = focus, discernment, truth, ability to cut through illusion.

By detaching the sword and showing it as a training tool, you demonstrate wisdom in tempering raw power — turning something potentially destructive into something developmental. The others’ gratitude reflects how this approach benefits the whole collective psyche.

This mirrors a real-life quality of yours: you often take complex systems or tools (business, art, or even relationships) and find a practical, safe, innovative way to make them usable — to turn theory into practice.


⚗️ The Twin Engines — Duality and Alchemy

Two engines connected by dangerous chemicals evoke the theme of balancing opposing forces — possibly your inner masculine and feminine energies, or your logical and intuitive minds.
The chemical danger suggests that mixing these forces without awareness could be volatile, but your discovery of a process that keeps them separate yet coordinated shows mastery of inner alchemy — transformation without self-destruction.

In Jungian terms: you’re learning how to unite the animus and anima, creating a dynamic equilibrium that powers growth rather than chaos.

You literally create a “smooth transition” between energies — symbolizing your emerging ability to move between assertive doing and receptive being without conflict.


💡 Core Message

You are entering a phase where your creative intelligence is learning to harmonize strength and sensitivity.
The dream praises your ingenuity — not as brute force or competition, but as integration and understanding. You’re not just learning from others; you’re teaching them how to refine their own power safely.


In Summary

SymbolMeaning
Male/Female problemBalancing logic and intuition
Combat trainingLearning conscious power and mastery
Sword-engine machineTurning raw drive into skillful action
Chemical dangerThe risk of emotional or energetic imbalance
Your innovationWisdom born of direct experience and creativity

If you’d like, I can help you craft a lucid-dream reentry technique for this particular dream — a method to return to the “training hall” consciously and explore the twin-engine system further.
Would you like that?

Monday, October 13, 2025

The Science Office

I am visiting a new office for the first time, likely I'm a new hire. Somehow. Somehow I understand that their business is based in science. I get assigned a task of retyping large manuscript. I settle into a typewriter and begin the process. It's very slow, painful and ineffective. 

I am now at another location of the same business. There's a young woman with me that's helping me navigate. I go into a room where there's a group of people and I get not a desk but a location to work. There's something curious about three trash cans that are located together. I can't remember what the curiosity is. I briefly go in another room and there is a whole line young people sitting in chairs being asked questions. I come to understand that they are basically being interviewed for positions and they're all geniuses. I listen as one of them answers a very difficult question. I'm now back with the young woman and she explains that the whole office is going to be moving and then she wants to scout some things out. We're with a small group of people exploring but we're outdoors. We get to what might be the basement of a building that no longer exists but we can see into it almost like an Old world war II bunker.. I say I don't know if I can fit but I manage actually rather elegantly to get through the slot over an obstacle and down on the floor. There's all sorts of debris and strangeness, but there also animals walking around. They come to understand that they're animatronics something to do with a project the business is worked on in the past. While I'm kneeling down playing with one, what I think is a real animal like a raccoon or an armadillo comes up and I possibly feed it something. 

This dream portrays a transition into a new environment where you’re trying to find your place and purpose—a mix of learning, adaptation, and discovery beneath the surface of an organized, intellectual world.

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🧠 The Scientific Office — Entering a World of Structure and Knowledge

You begin as a newcomer in a “science-based” office. Science here often represents rationality, precision, and systems of truth. But you’re assigned an outdated, painful method — a typewriter — which suggests feeling unprepared, inefficient, or bound by old habits in a modern or intellectually demanding space.
It may mirror how you sometimes feel entering a new domain where others seem fluent in its “language,” while you’re still adapting your tools and rhythm.


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👩‍💼 The Young Guide — Your Emerging Adaptive Self

The young woman guiding you is likely an aspect of your inner adaptability or curiosity, a more fluid and exploratory part of you that knows how to move through new terrain. She bridges the gap between the rigid intellect (the office) and intuitive exploration (the outdoor scenes).
She may also symbolize trust in mentorship or collaboration—that help is available as you navigate unfamiliar territory.


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🧑‍🔬 The Genius Interviews — Feelings of Comparison and Self-Assessment

You observe the line of “genius” candidates answering hard questions. This may reflect your subconscious measuring your own worth or place among highly capable people. You’re not directly competing—you’re observing—which suggests your psyche is processing self-doubt but from a reflective distance. It may be asking:

> “Do I need to prove my intelligence, or just find the work that’s truly mine?”




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🗑️ The Three Trash Cans — Sorting What’s Outdated

The curiosity about the three trash cans could symbolize the need to separate what’s useful from what’s mental clutter. Three often signifies balance or choice—mind, body, spirit; past, present, future. Something about “waste” here hints that you’re trying to declutter inner systems, perhaps old beliefs or methods (like the typewriter).


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🏚️ The Old Bunker — Descent Into the Subconscious

The move outdoors and into the remains of a bunker marks a shift from intellect to intuition, from surface-level adaptation to deeper self-discovery. Bunkers symbolize hidden foundations—defense mechanisms or buried memories. The fact that you “fit through elegantly” means you’re learning to move gracefully through psychological barriers that once seemed confining.


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🦝 Animatronics and the Living Creature — The Blending of Artificial and Real

The animatronic animals represent artificial life—mechanical imitations of nature, like logical constructs or surface behaviors. The real animal (raccoon or armadillo) entering the scene introduces authentic instinct and life force.
Feeding it symbolizes a return of vitality, nourishment of something genuine and spontaneous within you. It’s a reconciliation between constructed intelligence and living intuition—the scientific mind and the natural soul.


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🌿 Overall Theme — Integration of Intellect and Instinct

This dream reflects a larger inner process:

You’re entering a new phase of learning or creation (a “new office”)

Shedding inefficient or outdated modes of work (the typewriter)

Assessing your place among others (the interviews)

Moving into deeper, forgotten layers of self (the bunker)

Reconnecting with authenticity (the living animal)


Sunday, October 5, 2025

The Question

Everything is bright and beautiful. I'm in a rural area with wide open fields and small building scattered around. There's a group of us looking off into the distance and we see it a small range of mountains or hills that stick up out of the field. There's been some sort of natural disaster and apparently the trees have all been affected. 

I'm now in the building walking down the hall. My girlfriend steps out into the Hall and ask Lee the question. When did you turn 12 years old? I recall that her father asked me the same question earlier and that it is somehow a pivotal legal question 

I am now walking into I believe is a courtroom. There are several people in the room but the room is very casual about the size of a school classroom. All of the furniture is light and breezy. Nothing like a formal courtroom. I deduce what has happened as a result of that question being answered and I am immediately extremely angry. I look around for something to throw and they're two small objects. I picked them up. Them across the room. And then yell f*** you hold up both of my hands with the fingers up playing everyone in the room and leave 

Looking off into the distance at the hills. There's a group of a fireman that have apparently burned all the trees as a safety measure that are now just shoveling the coals. The job is so impressive that we clap in appreciation. 

I'm walking on the countryside. There is a long very straight dirt Lane. I'm observing a contest for people are propelling plastic discs that are about the size of of the flying saucers we used to using the snow. Can see three of them on the left that have taken their turn and their various lengths down the lake. Now someone takes one that's four or five times the size and propels it down the lane in a fantastic speed. Completely overwhelms. Not only the other contestants placements but the road itself. We're walking down the lane near the end to see who officially won. I am with a cup that I believe own the land. We observe that the lane has been turned to mud, but the mud is so fine. It's like brown whipped cream. I take my toe and move it through the mud and I can't even feel the resistance on my feet because it's so fine. The woman comments to her husband out, observing how what has happened to the mud and the way it was all whipped up. 

I have apparently been traveling with a small group of friends who are all part of the trial. We are discussing what happened when one of the girls hands me something. She asked me if I want to see this map. I take it of my hand that it's apparently a piece of evidence that was used in the trial. It's in a plastic bag. It's very old and delicate and take it out of the bag and very gingerly open up the three-fold piece of paper and see indeed. It's a tourist map of a small town that we apparently visited as a group years ago. Is it explained that? Laura remembered that when we visited this town years ago we were openly puffing marijuana walking down through the village. For some reason she decided that she would feel better if we were all brought to Justice. And that that was apparently the foundation for the trial. It doesn't appear that there are any serious consequences. I turned to my girl friend and say you know what my reaction was about, correct?.. if she just looks at me and doesn't say a word. Paragraph 
I'm now walking and realize that my relationship is over because I feel betrayed. We are apparently sharing some sort of life together and only have one car and now I'm trying to figure out figure out how I'm going to manage to get my own car and afford it.


This dream unfolds as a mythic sequence of awakening and betrayal, moving from pastoral serenity to moral judgment to emotional liberation. Each act of the dream presents a lesson about innocence, justice, anger, and renewal. Let’s break it down in layers:


🌄 Act I — The Bright Fields and the Distant Hills

The opening scene is radiant and pastoral — “everything is bright and beautiful.” This is the realm of clarity, wholeness, and perspective, a place of spiritual overview. The mountains or hills in the distance represent spiritual challenge or awakening — a goal beyond the ordinary plain of life.
But there’s been a natural disaster; the trees (symbols of growth, lineage, and living memory) have been burned or damaged. This may reflect a cleansing or loss of old structures — something once alive in your psyche has been scorched to make room for renewal.

🔹 Interpretation: The dream begins with a recognition of beauty and destruction intertwined — a moment of awareness that growth sometimes demands fire.


🕰️ Act II — The Question: “When Did You Turn 12?”

This is a mysterious and pivotal symbol. Age 12 marks the threshold of personal accountability — the bridge between innocence and self-determination. It’s when we begin to recognize rules, laws, and moral frameworks that define adulthood.

Your girlfriend (and her father before her) both ask the question — suggesting that the feminine and paternal aspects within your psyche are jointly probing the moment you became legally and morally responsible for your own choices. It’s not about literal age, but about when you first accepted or rejected the structures that define what’s “right” or “allowed.”

🔹 Interpretation: 
This “legal question” tests your spiritual maturity — it’s a symbolic inquiry into when you began to define your relationship to authority, guilt, and personal sovereignty.

⚖️ Act III — The Courtroom and the Outburst

Now comes judgment. But the courtroom is light and casual — not an external, authoritarian place. It’s an inner tribunal, a symbolic reckoning of conscience.
When you realize the verdict (perhaps that your anger or rebellion is being judged unfairly), you feel betrayed and enraged. Throwing objects and shouting “F*** you” is a pure act of reclaiming agency — rejecting false judgment or moral hypocrisy.

🔹 Interpretation: You are breaking free from a subtle structure of guilt or control — a system of “justice” that doesn’t honor your truth.


🔥 Act IV — The Firemen and the Ashes

The firemen shoveling coals after the burn are agents of controlled destruction — disciplined forces that handle purification after crisis. The applause from the crowd shows recognition of necessary endings.

🔹 Interpretation: Your psyche acknowledges that some internal burn — maybe emotional cleansing or confrontation — was necessary and skillfully done.


🛝 Act V — The Contest and the Whipped Mud

The plastic discs flying down the lane represent ideas, actions, or expressions being tested in the real world — how far one’s energy can travel.
The gigantic disc that outpaces all others symbolizes a breakthrough or overpowering force — perhaps your anger, passion, or truth cutting through old limitations.

The transformation of the lane into soft brown whipped cream mud is striking: the earth (reality) has been churned into something sensual, fine, and formless. It’s beautiful but unstable — a sign that you’re in the midst of reformation, when solid ground temporarily dissolves.

🔹 Interpretation: Your emotional foundation is being softened — ego structures dissolving so something more authentic can form.


🗺️ Act VI — The Map and the Trial’s True Nature

The “evidence” — an old tourist map — represents memory and shared experience. It’s fragile and from the past. The revelation that the “crime” was puffing marijuana in a village years ago reframes the trial as a judgment of innocence and past freedom.

Your friend Laura — representing conscience or social order — felt compelled to “bring you to justice.” This may symbolize an internalized moral authority (a part of you that feels you must be punished for youthful freedom or nonconformity).

Your response — “my reaction was about correct” — shows that your deeper self knows this moral structure is outdated. But your girlfriend’s silence seals it: she is aligned with that judging part of your psyche.

🔹 Interpretation: This is the betrayal — the realization that an intimate part of your life (or psyche) sided with repression over authenticity.


🚗 Act VII — The Separation and the Car

Finally, walking away, you realize the relationship is over. The one shared car is a perfect symbol: a shared vehicle of life’s journey that now must be divided. The car represents agency and direction — your ability to move forward. Losing it means you must now find self-sufficiency and independence after betrayal.

🔹 Interpretation: The end of shared motion marks the beginning of true autonomy.


🌅 Overall Meaning

This dream dramatizes the journey from innocence to moral awakening, and from shared illusion to personal truth.

  • The fields and light = your clarity and natural goodness.

  • The trial = confrontation with guilt, control, and societal expectations.

  • The anger and fire = cleansing of repression.

  • The map and car = reclaiming your path and direction in life.

You’ve crossed a psychic threshold — from the need for external approval to the willingness to stand in your own integrity, even if it costs relationships.

Friday, October 3, 2025

Walking Outside

I am walking, outdoors and open area that has few people part of a larger group that are spread out. Seems I have an overall task to do but it's not top of mind. I feel I'm not well integrated with the group that I'm doing some solitary tasks. And what one point collecting little pieces of trash. They're mostly metal and collecting them to clean the trail. Another time. I'm trying to get something to eat. I'm collecting little pieces of a meal and I store it in a certain area. When I come back it's gone and the others explain that the bugs were getting on it and they just threw it away. 

I now walking in a similar open area. But I have recently left a house with friends. I'm again on my own walking largely open areas but there are many more people. I meet a young kid. We start hanging out together. Not in any intense intentional way. We walk and talk. It seems largely. That I am just observing him. I meet some of his family,  possibly a sister also just playing in the area.

I'm now in my car or at least concerned about my car. I'm again largely walking and even asking directions about how far things away where I drove from. But now I want to walk back. Turns out it's very close. Walk back to where I was earlier and then back to the house. Blue paragraph. I go in and out of this stream for a good while randomly need several people. I'm in a good mood and curious about the setting of The dream cuz it's unusual for me.

This is a rich dream, and it speaks strongly about your relationship with groups, your sense of purpose, and the way you balance independence with connection. Let me walk you through its layers:


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1. Walking with a Group but Not Integrated

You’re outdoors with a larger group, yet you feel separate—doing solitary tasks like collecting bits of metal trash. This suggests that in waking life, you may feel part of a community but not fully aligned with its rhythm. The “trash” being mostly metal is interesting: metal often symbolizes rigidity, resilience, or things that no longer serve but are durable. Collecting and cleaning may represent your role as someone who quietly brings order, clarity, or service in overlooked ways.

👉 Interpretation: You may sense that your contribution isn’t flashy or central, but it does have value—clearing out what weighs down the path for others.


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2. The Meal That Was Thrown Away

You gather small bits of food to form a meal—perhaps symbolizing gathering experiences, knowledge, or resources. But the group discards it, saying bugs were on it. This reflects a frustration: what you painstakingly gather may not be appreciated, or others may dismiss it out of practicality. It might also reflect a theme of your efforts not always being recognized, or your way of nurturing being at odds with the collective.

👉 Interpretation: A reminder that not everyone will value your process. Sometimes you must guard your own nourishment—literal or symbolic—rather than rely on others to honor it.


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3. Meeting the Young Kid

After leaving a house with friends, you wander and meet a child. Children in dreams often symbolize new beginnings, creativity, or aspects of your own younger self. You don’t interact intensely, but you observe, walk, and play alongside him and possibly a sister. This is lighter energy than earlier—less task-driven, more open to curiosity and innocence.

👉 Interpretation: You’re reconnecting with a more playful, exploratory part of yourself. The child may represent a younger you who didn’t feel burdened by duty, or it may point to opportunities for mentoring/learning through fresh eyes.


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4. Concern About the Car

The car is a symbol of direction, agency, and your path in life. You seem concerned but discover that what felt far away is actually very close. You’re surprised at the proximity.

👉 Interpretation: Worries about being “off track” may be unfounded—you’re closer to your starting point (or goal) than you think. There’s a message of reassurance here: what feels distant might actually be easily retraced.


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5. General Mood and Curiosity

You describe being in a good mood, curious, moving in and out of the dream. This is significant: despite the scattered images, the overall emotional tone is light, engaged, and interested. That suggests growth—your subconscious is showing you situations where you’re learning to be okay with wandering, observing, and flowing, without the pressure to always be productive or perfectly integrated.


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Big Themes

Service vs. Recognition: You do valuable work (cleaning, gathering) but it may be overlooked. This reflects real-life feelings of effort not being seen or honored.

Independence vs. Belonging: You’re linked to groups but feel like an outsider at times. The dream suggests acceptance of your own rhythm.

Rediscovering Innocence: The child symbolizes new beginnings, curiosity, and observing life without overburdening yourself.

Reassurance About Path: The car episode reminds you you’re not lost—you’re closer to “home” than you think.



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✨ Message of the Dream:
You’re in a phase of learning to balance contribution and individuality. Your deeper self is encouraging you to value your own way of gathering, cleaning, and exploring—even when others don’t fully see it. You are also being guided back to curiosity, play, and a sense of nearness to your true path.


Wednesday, September 24, 2025

Hatchet Job for Trump

I am in a large large ballroom at an opulent affair. I'm sitting in a table. Lots of people or several tables that surround me. See a young women giving away simple roses. I immediately step up into some difficulty make my way out of the crowded tables to get one to ask my wife to dance. I reach out if she gives me some flowers, but it's not a single Rose. It's a bouquet op of beautiful flowers. 

I'm now standing up with full bouquet of flowers in my hand and I see an elderly woman almost sitting on the floor and I feel sorry for her. I've bend down to give her a flower. I tell her to save a dance for me later. She says no thank you and I see that she has several flowers and is all set for the evening. And now walking around with the flowers and I see a woman who is by herself. I may know her. She is likely married. I give her one of the flowers and tell her I would like to dance with her later. There is a romantic spark. I'm still walking around. Likely looking for my wife. A briefly see a female friend and a group of people. She catches my attention. I make my way through the crowd. She has a large bouquet as well. She starts asking me about the names of all of the flowers in the bouquet. I confess I do not know them. 

As I continue to make my way through the crowds suddenly, President Trump reaches out and gets my attention by putting his hand on my shoulder. He asks me if I can procure a young woman for him. He says he's been keeping an eye out and hasn't found a good one. He says he has been keeping an eye out but hasn't found any. I tell him I don't know anyone but that I will keep a lookout 

I continue to peruse all of the items that are sprinkled around the ballroom and displayed on tables. Instead of food, there are a variety of gifts intended for the taking. Some of them quite lavish. I see. A box of cutlery with formed impressions for the different pieces. They have been picked over but there is an extraordinary hatchet that I pick up and I think it would be a perfect sort of gag gift for the president. I take a piece of the boxing that the hatchet is form fitted to but now have a difficulty of finding box that it will look elegant in. I now pursue that quest. At some point something like cocktail sauce gets splashed over the hatchet. I go look for a way to clean it up. I see an open door to a woman's room and I'm about to enter to use the faucet to clean the hatchet. A woman in a beautiful gown slips ahead of me and into the restroom. Now looking at another table and there's a display with ice water in it. Whatever was in the display is gone but still it's fairly elegant on the table. I take the hatchet and dip it in the ice water to clean it and it makes a mess but it's very effective at cleaning the item. I soon see some sort of rapping that I can use and I am satisfied that if I put all the pieces together I will have a presentable package. I am now looking very closely at another display. It is obviously from England. It's a display of ties and associated paraphernalia that are elegant but somehow look cheap. I'm examining them closer and think I might be able to get one for Alex. I then see an extremely elegant, definitely expensive shirt. It's a knitted shirt that's made of the finest material I've ever seen. They're two or three of them and slightly different shades of a pastel purple. I pick one up to look at it and see that it's my size and XL. I am amazed at the quality and feel it must be made for royalty. I'm looking back at two others. Identical shirts slightly different shoes and I consider taking them all. The display is being torn apart as people realize the value and the gifts being proffered. 

I awake, shocked and ashamed. And again amazed at the detail in my dream. Also the multiple dream signs that are available if I can just recognize them. It's 7:00 and instead of getting up I roll over and go back to sleep.


🕊️ Setting: The Grand Ballroom

A ballroom is the archetype of social interplay, courtship, and grace under observation. It’s a stage where we navigate relationships, attraction, and status. Being seated at a table but then rising to move among others mirrors your inner process of leaving passive observation to active engagement — a shift from containment to participation.

The opulence and crowding evoke a world of external values: elegance, hierarchy, power, temptation. Yet your behavior throughout suggests an inner test of discernment — of how to act nobly amidst glamour and distraction.


🌹 Flowers: Acts of Connection and Intention

The woman giving away roses serves as a messenger of love and grace. When you go to claim one for your wife, your action is pure and intentional — a wish to share beauty and affection within fidelity.
But instead of a single rose, you receive a bouquet — abundance, beauty, and responsibility. It symbolizes overflowing opportunity for affection, creativity, and generosity, but also the challenge of how to direct that abundance wisely.

Each subsequent offering — to the elderly woman, the solitary woman, the friend — reveals your evolving relationship with compassion, temptation, and social intimacy.

  • The elderly woman’s refusal shows discernment — not all compassion needs to be received.

  • The woman with a romantic spark hints at unspoken emotional possibility — curiosity about connection beyond the familiar.

  • The friend asking about the flower names mirrors a feminine aspect of yourself seeking understanding of emotional nuance — the intellectualization of feeling.


🪓 The Hatchet and the Gift Quest

When Trump appears asking you to “procure a young woman,” he embodies power misused — worldly dominance and indulgence. You decline to participate directly, showing integrity, yet your subsequent effort to find a “gift” for him (the hatchet) reflects a subtle psychological entanglement: you’re still trying to appease power through symbolic offering.

The hatchet is a potent image: it can build or destroy, symbolize justice or violence. Your attempt to clean and repackage it in elegance shows a desire to refine raw power, to make something potentially dangerous into something artful and acceptable.
This reflects an internal moral balancing act — reconciling instinctual energy with civilized presentation.


💧 Cleaning and Purification

When cocktail sauce stains the hatchet, and you seek to clean it, you enter into an act of ritual purification — scrubbing away contamination of indulgence or shame.
The fact that the only available water is from an ice-filled display — cold, elegant, but lifeless — suggests cleansing through intellect or detachment rather than warmth and emotional release.


👔 English Display, Ties, and Royal Shirts

Finally, the display from England represents tradition, identity, and refinement. The ties (connection, conformity) and shirts (personal presentation, skin of the persona) speak to your evolving sense of how you wish to appear — both to yourself and others.

The lavender shirts, soft and royal, symbolize spiritual refinement, wisdom, and the merging of masculine (blue) and feminine (pink) energies. That you consider taking them all shows both admiration and temptation — a yearning to embody grace and dignity that still feels aspirational or “borrowed.”


⚖️ Emotional Tone and Awakening

Waking “shocked and ashamed” signals that the dream held a moral mirror to your conflicts around desire, propriety, and self-image. But amazement at its detail shows that another part of you recognizes it as an elaborate teaching dream — an inner test of values.
You saw many dream signs — signals of lucidity, awareness of illusion, and choice — yet you remained just below full realization. This suggests your psyche is training you to stay conscious in morally or emotionally charged scenarios, both in dreams and waking life.


🌺 Core Message

You are being shown how to move through beauty, temptation, and abundance without losing integrity or awareness.
The flowers are gifts of the heart; the hatchet is power and discernment; the shirt is self-expression and identity.
Your task — symbolically and spiritually — is to unite heart, power, and grace under conscious intention.


Monday, September 22, 2025

Murder

I am running down the street in a dark sketchy part of town. I may have done something terrible and people are chasing me as a result. I'm in and out of buildings up and over obstacles but constantly looking back over my shoulder in fear. I now encounter two or three women who recognize me and are about to expose me. I grabbed them one at a time by their head and smash it into a upright parking barrier. Basically a column of concrete. Their heads are crushed. They die. I continue running and I wake up in fear and loathing.


Quick, plain-language interpretation

  • Running / being chased — classic symbol of avoidance and anxiety. You’re trying to escape something (a feeling, responsibility, or consequence) rather than face it.

  • Looking back over your shoulder — persistent fear of discovery or regret; the past or consequences are catching up.

  • Two–three women who recognize you — people who “see” the truth. Psychologically, they can also represent parts of yourself (feminine aspects, intuition, emotion, conscience) that expose what you’re hiding.

  • Grabbing their heads and smashing them on concrete — violent attempt to silence or destroy the part of reality (or of yourself) that threatens you. Heads often symbolize identity, thought, or truth; concrete/parking barrier suggests something rigid, unforgiving, and final. Killing them in the dream likely represents a desperate effort to stop shame, guilt, or exposure — not a literal wish to harm others.

  • Waking in fear and loathing — strong moral/emotional reaction after the “act,” suggesting remorse, horror, or self-disgust about either a real action or a part of yourself you recognize.

Short list of possible meanings (pick whichever fits best for you)

  1. You feel guilty about something (big or small) and fear being found out.

  2. You’re suppressing an emotional/feminine/intuitive part of yourself because it’s inconvenient or frightening.

  3. You have anger or shame that you’re trying to “crush” instead of working through — the violence in the dream dramatizes how extreme that internal suppression feels.

  4. The dream may be processing retribution or fear of consequences (real-world mistake, a secret, a relationship problem, or an identity clash).

Concrete steps to process the dream (do one now, another later)

  1. Ground for 2–3 minutes: breathe slow, feet on floor, name 5 things you can see, 4 you can touch, 3 you can hear, 2 you can smell, 1 you can taste. This calms the aftershock.

  2. Free-write for 8–10 minutes about these prompts (no editing):

    • “Who in my life (or in me) do I fear will ‘expose’ me?”

    • “What truth have I been avoiding?”

    • “What part of myself do I feel ashamed of?”

  3. Re-story the dream: rewrite the scene but this time instead of violence, have the women stop you and ask a question. What is their question? Answer it honestly in writing. This often reveals the real issue the dream points to.

  4. Check for triggers: in the last week, what happened that could link — an argument, a secret kept, a failure, a moral dilemma, or stressful decision?

  5. If it recurs or you feel unsafe emotionally, consider talking with a therapist. Repeated violent dreams can be a sign of unresolved trauma, rage, or overwhelming anxiety that benefits from professional processing.

A Jungian take (if that resonates)

  • The women could be anima / conscience / feeling-knowledge trying to bring unconscious material into awareness. Destroying them is an attempt to destroy what would force inner change. Jung would say the dream is pushing you toward integration — you must meet, not kill, the parts that know you best.

Gentle practical follow-up

  • If you want, I can:

    • help you write that “re-storyed” version,

    • generate a short guided grounding/meditation script tailored to this dream,

    • or give journaling prompts to explore whether there’s a specific real-life person or event this maps onto.


Sunday, September 21, 2025

Single Existance

I am working on a new project in the house. Cuz I begin to do this I spill or I notice that I have a large quantity of clear sticky liquid on my pants when it's dripping down my pants under my shoes. Maybe lacquer maybe polyurethane? I'm not sure. The person I'm working with who I believe is a woman, asks me about it and I somewhat diminish its importance. However, I mentioned there's a very clear principle involved. 

Later when I'm waking up, I cannot remember the second word of the phrase. When I go back to sleep, I re-injure the dream and the phrase very sharply comes to mind clear existence. I come to understand that this is a process where you vet a new project or idea. I came to understand that when you're trying something new, you go through a process to see if indeed it is a valid approach idea or concern. Because it popped into my mind. So clearly I endeavored to remember it when I woke up even though the whole episode was a bit confusing.


Quick symbolic reading

  • Working on a new project in the house — the house = self / life. A project inside your house points to an inner project or something you’re building from your personal resources (identity, time, energy).

  • Clear sticky liquid (lacquer/polyurethane) on your pants, dripping under your shoes — adhesive = what binds you to the project. It’s clear (transparent) but messy and hard to remove. On your pants = affecting your identity/appearance; creeping under your shoes = seeping into your footing, your everyday movement — the project is starting to affect how you stand in the world.

  • Not sure what it is — uncertainty about the consequences or the “cost” of this new thing.

  • A woman asks about it; you diminish it — either an external person (a colleague/partner) or an inner voice (intuition/anima) noticing the problem. Downplaying it suggests the part of you that wants to move forward without fully owning the mess or risk.

  • You mention a “very clear principle” and then can’t remember the second word on waking — there’s a kernel of clarity (a guiding principle or insight) but your conscious mind can’t hold it yet. The dream re-fires when you go back to sleep and the phrase sharpens — the unconscious is working to formulate and store that insight.

  • Phrase appears as “clear existence” on return (if that’s the phrase you recalled) — that wording is evocative: it suggests a principle of transparency + being (act of existing clearly), or the idea that a valid project must clearly exist in effect — i.e., be demonstrable, visible, testable.

Why the forget / reclaim moment matters

When a dream “drops” an insight and you can’t hold it on waking, it usually means the idea is still being integrated — half in unconscious, half in conscious. Falling back to sleep and re-entering the dream allows your deeper mind to consolidate the phrasing and meaning. That process is exactly how creativity and problem-solving often work: the unconscious incubates, then delivers a clearer rule or prototype when it’s ready.

Practical interpretations you can use

  1. The dream is telling you that any new project you start will stick to you — it changes how you look and move. Don’t downplay that cost.

  2. There’s a core principle or test for whether the idea is valid. The unconscious delivered a short phrase (something like “clear existence”) to help you remember the rule: make the idea plainly visible and testable.

  3. You may be minimizing concerns in conversation to avoid slowing momentum. The dream suggests listening to that woman/voice and inspecting the mess rather than dismissing it.

A short, actionable vetting checklist (use this when a new project idea appears)

  1. Clarity test — Can you state the idea in one sentence? (If your phrase is “clear existence,” this is literal: the idea must be clear.)

  2. Existence test — Can you make a tiny, visible prototype or proof-of-concept in <72 hours?

  3. Adhesion check — What does this project stick to you emotionally, financially, reputationally? (List 3 ways.)

  4. Cost-to-remove — If you quit, what residue remains? Time? Money? Reputation? (Estimate effort to clean up.)

  5. Witness check — Who will notice or judge it early (the woman in your dream)? Talk to one person and ask a blunt question: “What’s the downside you see?”

  6. Repeatability — Is this approach repeatable or a one-off? Can it scale from a small prototype?

  7. Gut-and-fact — Give it a gut score (1–10) and a fact score (1–10). If both ≥7, proceed cautiously; if gut < fact, pause and reassess.

Two quick exercises to deepen the dream insight

  1. Re-story it (5–8 min) — Rewrite the dream ending: instead of diminishing, have the woman kneel and ask, “What would make this safe?” Answer in writing. This often reveals the missing second word or the specific test.

  2. Dream incubation before sleep — Before bed, repeat a short prompt: “Tonight I will remember the full rule for vetting my projects.” Keep a pen beside the bed and write the first words you remember when you wake.

A short suggested interpretation of “clear existence”

If the recovered phrase really is clear existence, read it as a minimal rubric: a good project must clearly exist — you must be able to show evidence it works, even in tiny form. In other words: prefer testable clarity over cleverness or hypothetical charm.


Saturday, September 20, 2025

Kids of the Ultra Rich Joy Riding Small Jets in the Neighborhood

I may be observing instead of experiencing this scene first hand. A very rich kid is driving a small jet plane down a two-lane road in the countryside. The plane then goes vertical but only a couple of feet off the pavement. The sharp tip of the front of the plane is just over the treetops and is in danger of being Tangled in the overhead power lines. The skill of the pilot is so great that the plane stalls and flops back onto the pavement like a pancake. But just before it slams onto the pavement, the power is manipulated and it returns gently under control without a scratch. 

It turns out the parents own the plane and the company that manage them has been renting the planes back to the kids who think they are out renting the planes from a third party. They're charging exorbitant amounts of money for this service. It's not clear if there's any criminal activity involved. 

I go in and out of the dream and at one point the plane and the flames become abstracted to crispy bits on a breakfast plate. I wake amazed at the skill of these young self-taught pilots and at the vividness enjoy experienced in these experiences.


Key Dream Symbols

  • Rich kid flying a jet on a country road
    A jet symbolizes power, speed, ambition, or advanced tools. A kid flying it down a small road shows mismatch: massive capability being squeezed into too small or unsuitable a path. It suggests youthful bravado, risk-taking, or using advanced tools/resources without fully respecting limits.

  • Plane going vertical, nearly tangling in power lines
    Power lines = energy, connection, danger. The plane “just over the treetops” highlights flirting with disaster but skimming by through sheer skill. This can point to risky experimentation in your life, or admiration for others who pull off daring feats.

  • Stall, flop, gentle recovery
    A controlled crash-landing transformed into a graceful save: it embodies resilience, improvisation, and skill under pressure. It might reflect your trust in instinct, or admiration of others’ ability to recover from failure.

  • Parents own the plane / renting back at exorbitant rates
    This highlights systems of illusion, privilege, and hidden manipulation. The kids think they’re independent but are actually trapped in a scheme. Could symbolize disillusionment: what looks like freedom or opportunity may secretly be controlled by old power structures (family, society, institutions).

  • Plane turns into crispy bits on a breakfast plate
    A surreal pivot: something immense and dangerous becomes trivial, digestible. It suggests perspective-shifting — what feels life-or-death in one frame can become just “food on a plate” in another. Humor and absurdity are the psyche’s way of deflating tension.

  • Your role: observing in awe
    Not piloting yourself, but appreciating the skill, daring, and creativity of these “self-taught pilots.” You’re the witness, the learner, perhaps being reminded to admire and integrate their improvisational courage.


Possible Meanings

  1. Admiration of risk-taking / creative improvisation
    You may be observing parts of yourself (the “kids”) or others who dare to push limits, and marveling at their ability to get away with it.

  2. Questioning systems of privilege and illusion
    The scammy structure (parents renting to kids) may reflect your awareness that many “freedoms” are illusions — often controlled by hidden power or financial manipulation.

  3. Transformation of fear into play
    The dream dramatizes tension (near disaster) but then flips it into humor (crispy breakfast). This shows your psyche experimenting with turning anxiety into creative delight.


Practical Takeaways

  • Project / life vetting: Ask, “Am I flying jets on a two-lane road?” In other words, am I trying to force big ambitions into too small or mismatched frameworks?

  • Hidden costs: Consider where you might be “renting back” something you already own — paying energy, money, or time unnecessarily because of hidden structures.

  • Skill and recovery: Trust your ability (or the ability of allies/parts of yourself) to recover gracefully from stalls.

  • Humor and reframing: Remember that what feels like catastrophe can often, with a shift, turn into “crispy bits on a plate” — digestible, even amusing.


Jungian Layer

  • The plane = archetype of transcendence, higher aspiration.

  • The children pilots = youthful, spontaneous aspects of you experimenting with mastery.

  • The parents’ scheme = the shadow side of authority, revealing dependency and illusion of freedom.

  • The crispy breakfast = alchemical transformation: fire turns danger into nourishment.


✨ Overall: This dream celebrates skillful daring, resilience, and playful reframing — while cautioning you to notice hidden costs and mismatched runways.

Sunday, August 24, 2025

Madam Tula's Fun House with Dream Ritual

4th Time Visiting Thursday Aug 21st ish

I am with two other friends and we walk in the door of what I am calling a fun house. This is the fourth time I visited here in a dream and I realized that as I come in and I'm excited [on some level I know I'm dreaming]. I have long had the idea that the person at the very beginning may be an active dream agent that I can communicate with. There is indeed an older woman sitting in a little booth like an old fashioned fortune teller would be. But for some reason I'm unable to stop and talk with her. The first time I visited it was very exotic, dark and mysterious. The three times since then it's been more brightly lit and everyday and not as much feeling of the mysterious and exotic. But it's still fun and the fact that I keep coming back it is very exciting. The entrance is filled with exotic plants and animals. There's a small booth and we that that attendant asks us if we want to have jetpacks on our feet. I say it's an excellent way to get very close to the exhibit. But then I look around and realize that the exhibits are not high in the air and there wouldn't be a significant advantage to having the jet packs. So I declined them for now and recommend that the others don't take them either. We're walking very slowly through the exhibit and notice that there's plants and exotic birds and cages and I'm able to examine them very carefully. We then get to the area where there's this giant fun ride slide and we are being sort of swept along with the crowd and I guide the other two to step slightly off the mainstream and so we're able to decide what we're going to do, rather just being swept to the ride or to the exit. I'm without a man and a woman man is very inexperienced. I'm woken by my alarm and I quiet it and lay still to recall the dream and to some extent I'm able to re-enter the dream. Not precisely where I was but it has the same feeling and I'm again excited at the prospect of not only having a repetitive dream but the ability to potentially go in and out of it.

This is a fascinating and rich dream, especially because it’s repeating, evolving, and you had some lucidity in it. Let’s break it down in layers:


1. The Setting – Madam Tula’s Fun House

  • A fun house is both playful and disorienting — part carnival, part initiation chamber. The fact that you’ve visited four times suggests it’s a stable dreamscape forming in your subconscious (or beyond).

  • The shift from exotic, dark, mysterious (first visit) to bright, everyday, less mysterious (subsequent visits) could reflect your growing familiarity with the territory. What once felt like entering the unknown is now more accessible — you are mapping it out.


2. The Gatekeeper – The Woman in the Booth

  • The older woman resembles a fortune-teller or guardian. You feel she may be a “dream agent” you can communicate with, but something prevents you from stopping. This is important: your subconscious seems to place a threshold guardian at the entrance.

  • She could represent your intuition, higher guide, or inner wisdom — waiting for you to pause, acknowledge, and ask questions. Your inability to stop yet might be showing that you’re close but not quite ready to fully engage that conversation.


3. The Jetpacks – Choice of Tools

  • Being offered jetpacks suggests being given enhancement or shortcuts in perception/mobility. You decline them, realizing they aren’t necessary for the current environment.

  • This indicates discernment: you’re choosing careful observation over speed or flashy tools. It may symbolize your waking attitude toward lucid dreaming — you’re building skills slowly and deliberately rather than rushing.


4. The Exhibits – Plants, Birds, and Careful Observation

  • Exotic plants and birds symbolize diversity of thought, hidden beauty, and spiritual messengers. Birds often represent the ability to transcend or carry messages.

  • The fact that you are walking slowly, observing carefully suggests you’re cultivating presence. This is actually a lucid dream training principle — stabilizing and deepening instead of rushing.


5. The Crowd and the Ride

  • A giant slide and the “sweeping crowd” could symbolize the momentum of unconscious dream flow — the pull toward distraction, sensation, or waking life currents.

  • You guide your companions out of the mainstream, showing leadership and the ability to step aside from being carried away. This is a subtle but powerful lucidity marker — you’re exercising choice, not just going along.


6. The Companions

  • You mention being with a man and a woman, and the man is inexperienced. They may represent parts of yourself:

    • The woman: your intuitive or emotional aspect.

    • The man: your untrained or beginner self — the part just starting to explore lucid dream mastery.

  • By guiding them, you are mentoring aspects of yourself as well.


7. Re-Entry into the Dream

  • Waking and then re-entering is an advanced skill (sometimes called dream re-entry or wake-back-to-bed lucidity). The fact that you could return to the same “feeling” shows that this dreamscape is accessible to you — almost like a recurring training ground.

  • Your excitement and recognition of repetition is key: your subconscious is acknowledging progress.


8. Overall Themes

  • Threshold & Readiness: The fortune-teller figure is waiting; you’re close to direct dialogue with a guide.

  • Discernment & Patience: Declining the jetpack, moving slowly, stepping aside from the crowd — all point to careful development of skill and autonomy.

  • Integration: Companions reflect your inner aspects. By leading them, you’re integrating and strengthening yourself.

  • Evolution: Each visit shifts the tone. You’re moving from mystery → familiarity → mastery.


Practical Suggestions

  1. Next Time You Enter: Try to pause at the fortune-teller’s booth. Even if your dream resists, set the intention before sleep: “When I see the woman in the booth, I will stop and ask her name.”

  2. Stabilize the Scene: When you notice plants or birds, touch them, smell them, listen carefully. This will ground you deeper into lucidity.

  3. Ask the Companions: Directly ask the man and woman who they are. They may reveal surprising truths about yourself.

  4. Work with Repetition: Since this dream repeats, treat it as a personal initiation chamber. Journal each visit carefully — see how the details evolve.


✨ In short, Madam Tula’s Fun House seems to be your personal lucid dreaming dojo — a recurring training ground where you’re learning discernment, patience, and readiness to meet a guide. The fact that it feels exciting every time shows you’re close to a breakthrough.

Would you like me to help you design a “dream ritual” (like a short script or visualization) you can use before sleep, specifically to strengthen your chance of pausing at the booth and engaging the fortune-teller next time?

Perfect. Let’s design a dream ritual that works on two levels: (1) planting the seed in your subconscious before sleep, and (2) giving you a simple, memorable lucid script to carry into the dream.


🌙 Dream Ritual for Madam Tula’s Fun House

Step 1 – Evening Intention

Before bed, sit quietly for a few minutes. Breathe slowly and imagine the entrance to Madam Tula’s Fun House. Picture the exotic plants, the atmosphere, and most importantly, the little booth with the older woman sitting there.

Say to yourself (aloud or silently):

“Tonight, when I enter Madam Tula’s Fun House, I will pause at the booth.
I will greet the woman.
I will ask her name.
I am ready to receive what she wishes to share.”

(Repeat this 3–5 times, slowly, like an incantation.)


Step 2 – Anchor Object

Before sleeping, place a small object near your bed — something that feels symbolic of guidance (a stone, coin, feather, crystal, or even just a small personal token). As you set it down, tell yourself:

“This is my reminder. When I see the woman, I will stop.”

This links waking ritual to dreaming action.


Step 3 – Lucid Script in the Dream

If you find yourself in the Fun House:

  1. Pause at the Entrance: As soon as you see the booth, breathe and remember your intention.

  2. Gesture of Greeting: Imagine yourself bowing slightly or placing your hand on your heart — any small gesture of respect.

  3. The Question: Ask her directly:

    • “What is your name?”

    • Or, if you feel bold: “What message do you have for me?”

Keep it short and clear. Dream characters often respond best to direct, simple questions.


Step 4 – Re-Entry Plan

If you wake up before speaking with her:

  • Stay still in bed.

  • Recall the Fun House as vividly as you can.

  • Picture yourself standing before the booth.

  • Imagine her lifting her head, ready to speak.

  • Let yourself drift back while holding the image.


Step 5 – After the Dream

As soon as you wake:

  • Write down everything she said (or didn’t say).

  • Even a gesture, glance, or silence can carry meaning.

  • Record the atmosphere too — lighting, colors, feelings — since these often shift with your readiness.


✨ The key here is repetition. By reinforcing the pause-and-ask script, you’re creating a reflex that your dreaming mind will eventually obey. This will increase your chances of finally engaging her as a guide or dream agent.